No matter how hard I try it's so hard to keep this to myself. I have to tell Nicholas. This pain is keeping me from sleeping, from eating and just being myself. I'm not happy with anything anymore and I just can't help it. I'm depressed and I can't do anything about it.
"Hey, you're home....Can we talk?" I asked following him up the stairs. "I'm tired, can we talk tomorrow or something?" He said heading into our bathroom. Great, he's still angry over a fight that happen two days ago. "But--" he closed the door in my face.
I don't know what I've gotten myself into. It wasn't meant to be like this. I wanted to be happy one day when I was married. I'm no longer happy at all. "Alright." I whispered at nothing. Absolutely nothing is what our marriage and my life has become. The only good thing that's ever come out of Nicholas and I..is our child.
I walked towards our bed and pulled back the sheets before laying down. I guess this was just something I'd have to keep to myself for once. I don't particularly like crying but it's come so natural lately. Tears streamed down my face and I sobbed quietly.
When could I ever stop making mistakes? I wasn't good enough for my parents to stay and apparently I'm not good enough for Nicholas. I turned on my side opposite from the bathroom. I don't want him to see me cry.
He walked into the room and I faked as if I was asleep. Honestly, I'm not happy with him anymore.
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Strings
Teen FictionNatalia has been through a lot in life and so has her best friend Nicholas. This is their story about life in adolescents. From loving the wrong person to loving themselves. These are strings of stories that last a lifetime.