I'm so sorry

5: the other way round

Mahi composed himself and walked out the room. He came to his room and was greeted by a snoring Harry and a very irritated jassi.

Jassi- Bhai! Aapko itna time kyu laga Bhai isne Mera demakh khrab kar diya.

Mahi- sorry kiddo, anyways usko utha de I will tell what happened with Ro

Jassi- (while shaking Harry,) Abe oy gadhe uthna Bhai aagaya .

Harry slowly got up and rubbed his eyes.

Harry- Oh Bhai aap agaye ! (Getting into a sitting position) abhi batao na kya hua ro bhai ko?

Mahi narrated the whole story to the other two. By the end all three of them couldn't help but shed tears . Their Ro was facing so many issues but none of them knew . He endured it alone without his family the chosen family. His brothers .

"What do we do now?" Harry was the first to compose himself and speak while breaking the silence.

"Let's confront him. " Said jassi, he wanted to know why his ro bhai was in so much sorrow. What happened!

"I don't think we should do that , he got a panic attack and it looked bad you know" mahi said not wanting to trouble his little brother.

"Let's tell the others about this , they need to know" said mahi

" NO," both jassi and Harry yelled together. The others didn't deserve to help. They were Ro's chosen family yet all of them blamed him for their loss. As a team captain it was always Rohit who consoled them when things were difficult. And what did he get in return. This! Panic attacks, nightmares and what not.

"Guys, don't act like that. Rohit needs us kiddos he needs to be assured. As a former captain I can say that things get difficult when the team losses under me , and a person as sensitive as rohit, it's difficult to ignore. Plus all the comments on insta, Facebook, and fan pages have made him even more miserable. He didn't deserve all this"

On this speech of mahi the two couldn't help but nod. It's true, rohit deserve the world not what he is getting. And he will need his team in the end .

"Ok so we will tell them before Ro wakes up. " Harry said getting up and leaving. Jassi just sighed knowing Harry felt miserable. Jassi did too. If only he could have taken more wickets. Jassi blamed himself at a point too. If he took more wickets then Ro might not have been the one to blame .

Mahi saw jassi in his deep thoughts and knew he was blaming himself for all this . "Hey kiddo, don't think to much your not the one to blame" mahi said ruffling jassi's hair.

"But Bhai if only I --" jassi was interrupted by the warm hug mahi pulled him into. "Shhh, bacha no, there is no what if in a game . It's over now . Jo hona tha woh hogaya kiddo" mahi said while stroking his hair ,jassi couldn't help but cry. The way mahi comforted him was so heart whelming . He knew he shouldn't cry when his Ro Bhai was in a worse condition but he couldn't help but think of how things would have come out to be if he had done his balling better.

While they were consoling each other , there stood a figure behind the door carefully listening to their conversation with red eyes .

In Harry's room

Harry was greeted with a surprise. He saw Virat standing in front of his room,concern in his eyes and a look of distress on his face .

"Harry! Where the hell is rohit? He needs to go to the press conference! The BCCI are killing me because he isn't picking up! God! He is a headache, ugh!" Virat said all this in one breath while rubbing his face in irritation.

"Uhh ask mahi Bhai. Woh hi apko bata sakte hai" Harry didn't come up with anything else than to let mahi Bhai handle this situation. All he knows is that rohit is in no condition to face the media.

"Fine!"

Rohit's pov

I woke up with an extream headache. Just as I sat up all the memories of what happened just an hour ago flooded back . Ohh God this is a mess. I will have to explain mahi Bhai everything . Honestly I am not ready for this , at times of distress or anxiety the only person I feel comfort with is Vi. But I fought with him, I disappointed him ,it was my fault. With a sigh I get up to wash my face and get ready for the press conference. I really am in no mood to attend it . I don't think I can , I will probably end up crying.

As I come out the first thing on my mind is to tell mahi Bhai that it was just a stupid outburst and that I am fine. Not that he is going to believe it but yeah there is no harm in trying . I was in the lobby when I saw Harry leaving with red swollen eyes. Was he crying?

Then to make sure nothing happened I went to Bhai's room I was about to knock but the door was open a little. I peeked inside to see jassi crying and mahi Bhai comforting him. I didn't mean to listen to the convo but I couldn't help it.

"Bhai I know I shouldn't cry but Ro bhai is in so much pain it is painful for me . I can't see him miserable. He has a very sunny personality and look at him now . He Is so depressed it makes me feel ..... guilty... " Jassi just ended crying terribly because of me . Yes it's me I'm the problem. It's because of me that we lost , I made jassi and Harry cry, I disappointed the team and my nation.

I didn't realise that I was having another series of panic attack before I heard mahi bhai's voice. I snapped out of it and ran to the other direction straight to my room and locked the door .

I can't do it . I can't face them, because I know they would feel guilty. And I don't need their pitty I don't need them to console me I am the captain it's my duty to console them not the other way round