100 Steps To His Heart [Published Book]

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Chapter 58

Mico's POV

"Bro, how are you holding up?" Bryle asked. He sat beside me. We're both sitting under this huge tree, looking at the sky. How gay is this? Like seriously?

"How am I holding up? I don't really know. Honestly."

"Life's a bitch, right?" I looked at him. He looked like he already cried. Yeah. Not everything's about me.

"How about you dude? How are you holding up?" He sighed a very deep sigh. I did the same thing.

"Can't imagine life without Gutierrez. I really can't." He just said those words, and it cut so deep. It's like losing a brother.

"Dude, don't say that. He's gonna survive." He stared at me.

"As much as I want to believe that, I don't want to hope. I'm always the voice of reason in this group. As much as I want to think that he'll survive, I'm afraid that I might get disappointed and get hurt big time."

Yeah. This dude thinks that less expectation means less pain.

"Loyola, can you imagine... Next year, we're in this same place, and Gutierrez is not around anymore? Like imagine both of us, only the two of us... tayo na lang ang magkasama tulad ngayon? Dude, it's gonna feel empty." He sighed.

Bryle is not the type of guy who cries and say cheesy things (except to girls) but... Oh fck. I can't deal with this.

"Shut up. He will survive." I said with conviction... hoping that it will make me believe that he will. That it will make God believe that Enzo will. Please.

"What?! Are you seriously-What if he doesn't huh?! He can die anytime soon. Haven't you heard what the doctor just explained?! That ARVD-"

"HAS NO CURE?! Yeah. Fuck that stupid ARVD. I mean people with cancer survives, why can't Gutierrez?!"

"I'm just saying that-"

"WELL THEN STOP IT! He needs us, okay? I know very well that he might not survive. Fuck yes I know that he can die anytime soon. He can even have an attack right now as we are talking! But he needs us! He needs us to support him. He needs us to believe in him. He is still fighting Ortega. He needs us to be positive for him. Tangina, siya yung may sakit. Alam kong iniisip niya mamamatay na siya. Pati ba naman tayo? Ano pang saysay ng pagiging buhay niya kung ganoon? Kung pati tayo naniniwala na hindi niya rin kakayanin? Ano pa?!" He stared at me, loss for words.

"Sorry." He said defeatedly. Again, we sighed.

Then there's silence. Well, we usually don't talk about this stuff. Especially not Gutierrez' life.

"But, Loyola... how is your heart holding up? I mean... with Gutierrez and Love?" Oh yeah, he calls Hope, Love.

"I don't know dude. I mean I love her. So much. I've never even loved a girl before, and I don't think I ever will. But, he needs her and she has been praying for him ever since the day she met him. Saan pa ako lulugar when everything between them is mutual?" He patted me on the back.