I Am This Type of Woman

39

"Miss Shi is joking," The smile on Rong Xia's face vanished, "Reputation is very important for a lady, Rong-mou1 is not that careless. Junzhu and I wouldn't be alone as Ban-shizi will be along, please Miss Shi don't misunderstand."

Shi Feixian forced herself to smile, "I have misunderstood."

Ban Hua had turned to leave, seeing the frozen smile on Shi Feixian's face, she couldn't help but shooting a glance at Rong Xia who was also looking at herself. Her eyebrows raised, a fair and slender index finger pointing at the gate, going now?

"Farewell." Rong Xia smiled and bid farewell to Shi siblings.

"Junzhu." Yan Zhen ran out of the pavilion, sloppily threw his salute to the Shi siblings, he chased after Rong Xia and Ban Hua. His was totally the image of a proper scholar in love in story books who abandoned all propriety along with his studies for the sake of one more sight of his beloved lady.

Shi Feixian coldly watched Yan Zhen throwing his face away in a pursuit of a woman, her tone was chilled as she said, "What scholar, what gentleman. Just a vulgar creature who is unable to control himself once he sees a beauty."

"Are you talking about Yan Zhen or Rong Xia?" Shi Jin looked at his sister, "You are a noble girl from a major family, you have lost yourself in front of Rong Xia."

"What thing is he, how can he compare to Count Rong." Her brother seeing through her heart, Shi Feixian's expression was somewhat ugly, but inwardly she felt quite relieved, there was no need to conceal it anymore. "Isn't Count Rong a very good match for marriage?"

"He is not suitable for you." Shi Jin was going to say Rong Xia had no eyes for her, but the feelings in her sister's eyes softened his heart. "Sister, you deserve a better man."

"A better man?" Shi Feixian laughed, then sneered, "Of all young men in the world, only Brother and Count Rong could be considered talented youths, everyone else are just vulgar men. Who do you think I should marry?"

The most ridiculous thing was, her family had intended to marry her to Yan Zhen to make Left Minister completely supportive of the Crown Prince, but unexpectedly he was smitten with a woman who had had her engagement withdrawn three times. She really didn't understand what was so good about Ban Hua that the gongzi of Left Minister family got infatuated into such state.

"Should I be glad that noone else in the Capital knows that our family planned to be in-laws with Yan family?" Shi Feixian felt it was utterly embarrassing that the man intended for her was stubbornly chasing another woman. "I am born to be a sacrifice for Eldest Sister anyway."

"If in the future Eldest Sister doesn't produce a son, wouldn't I have to be the Crown Prince's concubine so I can give birth to a son for Eldest Sister?" The fact that her whole family revolved around that Crown Princess sister had always been a knot in her heart. It was all Crown Prince this, Crown Princess that. Who was she, this second daughter, was?

She was more talented than Eldest Sister, more beautiful than Eldest Sister, she had just been born a few years too late. Otherwise, wouldn't her marriage be left hanging in the air for the sake of Eldest Sister?

"Feixian!" Her words became increasingly more absurd, Shi Jin darkly said, "It is not easy for Eldest Sister in Eastern Palace either. If she heard her own family saying these things, how could she live with herself?"

"It is not easy for her, so my whole life has to be sacrificed for her glory?" The rims of Shi Feixian's eyes turned slightly red, "I am also a Shi family daughter!"

Seeing his sister in such state, Shi Jin sighed once again, he tried to gently persuaded her, "Don't worry, I won't let you marry Yan Zhen."

"His eyes are on that beautiful-like-fairy Fule Junzhu. Even if you want it, he is not willing." Shi Feixian crossly said, "I am not such a devastating beauty2."