once i calmed myself down, i weakly walked up the stairs that jungwon brought me to back then. i walked up them exhaustedly before reaching the top.i realized that the last time i climbed up, was with his help.
i don't know if i can do it. i thought
but i really want to go up there tonight.
i struggled, but tried my best. i imagined as if he was still here, helping me up.
soon enough, i did it. although, it didn't feel like anything to congratulate myself for.
i know jungwon would be proud of me.
i walked towards the edge, remembering his calm face as i watched him fall.
i was so scared that time that i didn't even recognize how peaceful he looked while he held my hand tightly.
how come i was able to save him back then? but now i suddenly can't?
i'm sorry.
i sat down on the cold ledge, feeling my pockets to pull out the journal.
when i opened it, i was surprised when i saw the page filled completely.
that's when i noticed that i opened it from the last page, backwards.
all of the writing was in jungwon's.
the top read,
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jungwon to hisano
-one-my first day here.
i wish i got to tell you.
sorry.
i keep putting periods even though it's not a sentence.
haha, sorry.
i don't really like it here, i never really liked the hospital. so i decided to write on here and communicate with you as if we are talking through the journal.
my heart hurts a lot, i feel a lot of pain in my chest area. it actually hurts more than i thought.
i didn't really feel it when i was with you.
you're like some type of medicine. i wish you realized that the day i told you.
there's so many things i wish we could be doing right now. i don't know what, but i just wish we were together.
can i tell you how i'm feeling? i don't want to bore you.
ah, whatever. i'll just say everything until i'm sleepy.
when you walked in the laundromat, i didn't want to stare at you, but i did anyway.
you kind of distracted me, so i couldn't find my coins. i totally forgot that i put them on top of the washing machine.
but if i didn't forget, then maybe all of this wouldn't have happened.
and i'd hate that.
you gave me coins when i asked,
without a second thought.
you're really kind, hisano.
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