Chapter 19
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Vice
Time flew past and it's already 12 o'clock in the midnight. Hindi talaga ako makatulog. Nakailang gulong at tuwad na 'ko pero hindi parin talaga ako dinadalaw ng antok.
After the confession with the beks, parang gusto ko ng gumawa agad ng move to get her. You know, to be his boyfriend... for real, yung hindi lang sa pagpapanggap. As in fucking REAL!
I got my phone from my mini-table and checked if she texted me. Fool Vice. Your phone didn't even beep. Oo alam ko but I'm still hoping na sana may naligaw na text from her. Kahit yung wrong send lang or blank message.
"I badly need to see you tonight. Uggghhh! Namimiss na kitang sakang ka...."
I hurriedly got my car's keys sa drawer and went down. I know it isn't safe to drive sa ganitong oras but I just really want to see her. Kahit maaksidente man ako. Okay! Isa nanamang katangahan! Pano mo siya makikita kung maaksidente ka?
While I was on my way to her condo, some of the discussions I had with the beks earlier flashed back. Kung paano ako umamin, kung paano sila nagdisagree at kung paano ako magpaliwanag.
I promised to myself that I wouldn't disobey any rules or commandments gay has. Eh kaso anong magagawa ko? Tinamaan ang bakla. I bet you know what I mean. A person who doesn't understand what I'm saying is such... uhhh never mind.
Nung nasa tapat na ako ng Condo niya... nagdadalawang isip pa ako if I'm going to knock or would just turn my back again and go home. Kung tutuusin pwede ko naman siyang puntahan bukas... love can really makes you crazy.
I pressed the doorbell once I had decided. Bakit ko pa ipagpapabukas kung pwede namang ngayon ko na siya makita. I'm just hoping that she wouldn't throw slippers on me dahil sa naistorbo ko yung pagtulog niya.
"Hi," I greeted when she opened the door. Nag give way naman siya para makapasok ako. Until now, ilap parin siyang magsalita when I'm the one who's talking to her. "Bhie..."
"Why are you here? I told you not to drive kapag ganitong oras na diba? It wasn't safe, Bae."
I don't know what was up pero bigla nalang akong napangiti. Maybe it was just because... concern siya sakin? And fvck! She called me Bae, for Pete's sake. Sinong hindi kikiligin don?
"Hoy! Don't smile at me! Sinesermonan po kita for your information,"
"I'm sorry," I said. She rolled her eyes at me amd crossed her arms. Hindi naman siya mukhang kagigising lang, actually mukhang hindi rin siya makatulog. "Aren't you sleepy?"
