TRIGGERS IN THIS FIC: Self Harm,drug use,vulgar language and panic attacks. Please tell me if you find more so I can tag them. Thank you. " I know who you hold most dearest to you" ----- Dan Howell (20) has been hurt and abandoned for his whole life. Left lonely,he had absolutely nobody to talk to. He had a shitty apartment and a crappy job and really,he had nothing to look forwards to in his life. Phil Lester (24) seemed like a really bubbly and happy person. He made YouTube videos online and he was overall happy. Just what Dan needed to have. What will happen when the both of them meet? Will everything be fantastic or will all just fall to pieces?