"I just want it to be over... why can't you just let me go?!" She sobs inaudibly while rocking back and forth, clutching her hair. "Because we fucking love you." ~~~ Fourteen year old y/n is a big marvel fan, an artist, an actress, but most of all; a depressed teenager with intense intrusive thoughts. what happens when she gets the opportunity of her life, to be in a marvel movie with a lead role. Follow her on this journey. A/n: Loadsss of trigger warnings but I'll also put them before the chapter that they're in. Trigger warnings: graphic thoughts, violent thoughts, swearing, self harm, suicide, mental health issues and hospitals. :). I get a lot of intrusive thoughts. They're usually about things that I don't want to talk about, and the ones in this book. The type in this book are going to be 'harming intrusive thoughts' about hurting others. If you need help, please reach out for it instead of reading this. :D. Don't you dare fucking tell me that I'm "wrong" about this subject since psychiatrists and therapists Have already told me that I'm going through this. And don't even think about calling anyone or me a "psycho" because of these thoughts that people KILL themselves because of. Mind your fucking business. Enjoy you sexy depressed ppl. - Megan, your fave hot writer.