I lay there.. thinking. What if I didn't agree to go with Chris to that party? What if I never got drunk? I wouldn't have ever felt his warm lips on mine. His hands in my hair. His lips speaking words of comfort in my ears. I lied when I said I never wanted to have a boyfriend. I lied when I said I never wanted to love him. Too many lies.. The question was.. what will happen in the end? Will I lay here.. in fatal position, crying my heart out? Or what? I silently prayed to whatever was out there.. to never let anything happen to him.. never. Let him be. Let him stand next to me, our hands intertwined. Oh, how I longed to tell him just one final time that I loved him. One final time.. to feel his hands caressing my cheek. But for now, all I can do is hope. - Isis Fox, Hug An Emo. They'll Love You For it by Rosalie_oqbi.