I pulled my sleeve back all the way, revealing the dark past that I once had. I waited for a response as sad memories resurfaced.
"I... I meant to tell you sooner but..." I held onto my wrist and bit my lip. "I was in a dark place... before I met you. All my life, people ignored me and seemed to forget me, even if I was right next to them. I was invisible to them, Alfred, Arthur, and sometimes even Papa would forget me. I felt as if... as If no one cared aboot me."
I really don't want to talk aboot this... Gil, please stop me... please...
"I eventually thought that if no one cared aboot me... then they wouldn't care if I died--"
"Birdie, I know..."
"Then I-- y-you know?!" How could he?
"I said I've seen jou naked before, I know Birdie," He hugged me once more as I held onto him. "I'm not going to judge jou for somezhing like zhat, but I'm glad zhat jou told me."
"Gil... I--"
"Don't fall back into zhat hole again, Birdie. I don't... I can't lose jou..." His words brought my heart back into its previous state.
"I won't Gil, I'm okay now..."
I'm not sure how long we stayed like this, but I didn't mind. Gil never let go of me, as if he really thought that I was going to leave him. Eventually, I found myself succumbing to his warmth. I couldn't keep my eyes open...
He's so comfortable...
~ Matthew's Dream ~
I was snuggled up in my warm bed as Gil slept soundly next to me. It was dark but still bright enough to see. We were sleeping back to back and Kumadreaming was no where to be found.
Suddenly, Gil turned over and we spooned. He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me tight. I could feel him plant a kiss on my head.
"Birdie~" He cooed. "Stay vith me~"
"I'm not going anywhere Gil, don't worry," I reassured.
"Nein, in zhe morning. Stay in bed, jou're so varm..." He squeezed me and butterflies, that felt so real, danced in my stomach.
"You know that I have to go to that meeting," I sighed.
"Jou don't have to, call in sick. Say zhe polar ice caps are melting, zhe maple harvest is in grave danger, or jou got abducted by aliens," He suggested.
I turned over and looked up at him, "You really want me to say, eh?"
"Ja, Don't leave me."
I suddenly became sad as I found my words. "I won't leave... but... as long as you don't leave me. Don't fade away Gil. I want to see you in the morning..."
"I'll be here vhen jou vake up, I promise" He planted a kiss on my head.
"You promise?" I pleaded.
"I promise Birdie," He reassured.
Then he kissed me softly, cupped my face, and pulled me even closer. When we pulled away, he smiled. I gazed into his crimson eyes and felt myself waking up.
And sure enough as I opened my eyes, Gil was right there laying next to me, like he said he would be.
~~
My face turned as red as a maple leaf. Gil is really close to my face, although I think he's still sleeping. He was under the covers with the blanket pulled up to his mouth. His soft breathing soothed my own. Slowly, he opened his sleepy eyes and smiled.
"Guten Tag, Birdie," He softly said.
Then he pulled me in and fell back asleep. I'm really uncomfortable in many places... I mean, I am comfortable, but I'm not... oh maple.
My chest hurts again and now my head is spinning. I clutch my chest and Gil notices my movement. Soon after, shivers rack through my body as I try to keep myself together. I'm not cold, I'm not hot, I'm not sure what's going on with me. But I feel that if I look up at Gil, I'll have no choice but to kiss him... I don't even know why!
"Birdie, talk to me," Gil pleaded.
What should I say? That I dream aboot him? That I'm going insane? Or that I need to go to the bathroom? Yeah, I'll go with that one.
"I'll be right back, I'm going to take a shower," I halfway lied.
I needed a reason to be in there longer than I needed to. He lets me go and I head for the bathroom. Inside, I close the door, slide down, and hold myself to my best ability. I'm shaking so much that I can't think straight.
What's going on with me? I wasn't like this before when Gil would act affectionate. So why now? Why am I so bothered by it? Does it have something to do with Olivine? But she's so innocent, she couldn't be the reason. SO WHY AM I HAVING SEX DREAMS ABOOT MY BEST FRIEND?!
I eventually gave up and used the sink to help me stand up. Staring into the mirror, a horrid sight makes me flinch.
I. Look. Dreadful.
I'm so pale, I look like Gil... no offense. I turned on the faucet and splashed water on my face. I stood there and pondered before I turned off the faucet and got ready for a shower.
~ Some time in the shower ~
I know that I'm bisexual, so liking the opposite sex isn't the issue here. But why am I so attracted to him? Why now of all times? I've known him for a while and he's been staying here for a couple of months. So why now? I don't understand... what's up with those weird dreams too?!
I sighed and let the water run down my body. I guess there's no point in thinking all this to myself. Maybe I should ask Papa, he should know what to do... as long as he doesn't get the wrong idea.
I turned off the faucet and stepped out of the shower. Then I wrapped a towel around myself, took a quick glance in the mirror, grabbed my glasses, and headed for my room.
~ In Olivine's room ~
*Olivine's POV*
I'm. So. Hungry... Food... food... Mattie said that he brought some food downstairs in the den... I GET FOOD~!
After my mental outburst, I decided to actually walk down to the den. My headache has gone away but I'm still keeping my hood on, its soft~ Once I retrieved the plate of sandwiches from the den, I traveled up to the kitchen. Gilbird decided to follow me since Gil wasn't in the den anymore. In the kitchen, I started to wonder something.
Does Mattie have any Pocky? I want some... pocky...
I used "The Force" to carefully place the plate of sandwiches on the kitchen counter. Then I searched everywhere within my reach, for my snack, but I found nothing.
Wait, what am I doing searching where I can reach? I have powers to reach unreachable places!
So, when I opened the pantry, I looked up, raised up my right arm, closed my eyes, and used the air as my eyes.
Then, I saw a slim red box with pocky sticks on it. I used "The Force" and it was soon suspended in the air, just above my hand. I felt like Link from The Legend Of Zelda. Gil told me about that.
Going upstairs, I placed the box in the pocket that rested on the front of my hoodie. Gilbird tweeted happily beside me as an unusual sight stopped me in my tracks.
Mattie was half naked, soaking wet, with his glasses off. Oh. My. Maple. I could feel my jaw dropping and my face burning up. Does Gil get to see this everyday? He's lucky if he does. Mattie noticed my staring and he gave me a quizzical look.
"Olivine, are you okay? You're looking like a maple leaf," he teased.
"I'm fine! Totally fine!" I lied. Then I dashed off to my room and shut the door, Gilbird made it inside just in time. I jumped on my bed and laid on my back. Staring up at the ceiling, I took a deep breath and tried to calm down.
Mattie's got... abs... Mattie is... Mattie... Mattie... Why does my chest hurt so much? First my head, now my chest... ugh!
I took the box from my pocket and opened it. Then I opened the package inside and placed a stick in my mouth. Gilbird landed on my stomach and I softly petted his feathers. He closed his eyes and he looked as if he was smiling.
I wonder if-- WAIT, THE SANDWICHES!!
*Matthew's POV*
"Gil, get up. I've gotta change," I tried to shake Gil awake, but he just won't move.
"Nein, I'm comfortable..." He whined.
"Gil~" I pressed.
"I von't look, let me stay~" He moaned.
"You said that last time," I pouted.
"I von't, I promise."
I finally let him stay as he pulled the blanket over his face. Then I went over to my closet and picked out some clothes. I dried myself off, dropped my towel, and started putting my shirt on.
"Mmm zhat ass zhough~"
"GIL~!" I whined, dropping to the floor.
~ Later ~
I. Am. Dying.
Gil is spooning with me, just like in my dream. His hold on me is tight as if I was a teddy bear. My heart is going to explode, I'm pretty sure the butterflies in my stomach are constantly reproducing every time Gil touches me. My body is planning my death, Gil... stop... touching me.
"Mmm Birdie..." Gil moaned, making me shiver. "Don't... don't leave... me..."
My face is burning once again. I hope that he's not having the same dream that I had. Gil... Gil... Gil-- ah!
Let's just say that the elevator of my CN Tower is going up... Gi-ah!
"Birdie?" Gil mumbled.
"Y-Yeah?" I cautiously asked.
"Are jou horny?" He questioned, peering over to my face.
"N-No!" I lied,"W-Why do you ask?"
"Jou're face keeps getting red and..." He slipped a hand down to my lower regions.
"Gil~!" I whined as I pushed his hand away.
What's wrong with me?
"I knew it," He smirked.
I pulled the cover over my head and held myself in the fetal position.
I want to disappear... heh, that's a first.
~ Even later~
Kill. Me. Now
I can't stop thinking aboot Gil, my body ignores me, and I'm afraid of sleeping. Those dreams always seem so vivid and real. I need help, serious help. But I don't know who to talk to. Olivine's too young to understand and Gil... I can't even look at him, let alone talk to him. This day is so long... ugh...
Help... someone... help... kill me... make it stop... make it stop... I'll do anything...
"Mattie?" A little voice asked.
I pulled back the covers just a little to look at Olivine. She was holding a box of Pocky with her sleeves that covered her hands.
"Y-You're not o-okay."
"Yeah, I know..." I sighed and she climbed onto the bed. She sat down on edge, but close to me.
"Mattie, d-do you like G-Gil?" She asked.
My body instinctively jumped at the sound of his name. Then Olivine had a sly smirk on her face.
"Gi--" She teased.
Jump
"--il"
Jump
"Bert--"
My body started shaking again.
"Gilbert"
I moaned.
"Somebody has a crush~" she sang.
"N-No I don't..." I tried to persuade myself.
"Y-Yes you do," she felt my forehead, "You're b-burning up like I d-do when I like s-someone. Y-You won't feel better until y-you confess..."
Then she paused as her cheeks flushed red. "M-Mattie... I... Ilikeyoualot..." She said all too fast.
"... you like me a lot?" I slowly repeated.
"Y-Yeah... I find y-you attractive..." She breathed out as if to be relieved.
"Well..." I scooped her up and held her close. "I find you adorable, and I like you a lot too," I kissed her cheek and she turned as red as a maple leaf.
"M-Mattie~" She shifted herself so she wouldn't crush her Pocky.
A silence passed as I thought of what else to say.
"Olivine... I think..." I started.
"Y-You think what~?" She pressed.
"...I might have a... tiny crush on Gil..." I admitted.
"Tiny? Tiny? You eat, sleep, and breathe him, I think you have more of a crush on him. I think that you--" I covered her mouth before she could say anymore.
"Shhhh~! I don't want to believe it."
"W-Why not? What's wrong w-with liking your best f-friend?" She asked after I uncovered her mouth.
Then it hit me. Gil probably wouldn't harshly reject me if I confessed, he knows me too well. Maybe I really do like Gil, she has a point. But, I don't want a relationship to ruin our friendship. Gil's the only person who pays attention to me besides Olivine. I can't lose him... because... he... he means a lot to me.
"M-Mattie... you're s-squeezing me..." She breathed.
"Oh, sorry!" I released my hold on her and sighed. "Olivine... can you make this feeling go away?"
"I-I can't do a-anything to help you, you j-just have to admit it t-to him and most i-importantly, yourself."
"Why are you so smart?" I smiled as I pinched her cheeks.
"I dunno~" She replied innocently
"You're so cute~" I nuzzled her face and she protested.
"M-Mattie~ stop~"
~ That night ~
I didn't eat much for dinner, I felt like I would just throw it back up if I did. Sleeping isn't working out for me either, every time I close my eyes... I see Gil. I want this to stop, I don't know what I did to receive bad Karma but I'd do anything, I mean anything to make this stop. Covering myself once more, I finally decided to drift off to sleep.
*Gilbert's POV (aboot time)*
I awesomely sneaked into Birdie's room vith a bowl of cool vater und a hand tovel. I sat on zthe edge of his bed und placed zhe bowl on his nightstand. Birdie vas moaning in his sleep, I hope zhat he gets better, I'll go mad vithout his pancakes.
Dipping zhe tovel in zhe vater, Birdie started moaning again. I placed it on his head und he quieted down.
I zhink I'll confess in zhe morning. I'll be leaving for Vest's house pretty soon und I don't know vhen I'll be back. Birdie has a right to know how I feel, I'm sure he'll feel better if I do. Vho vould reject zhe awesome me?! No one, zhat's vho~
Birdie calmed down und finally stopped moaning, at least he's getting better. I leaned down und kissed his lips, hoping zhat he vouldn't vake up. Luckily, he stayed asleep as I pulled away. I could feel a smile creeping up on me as I vhispered,
"Ich liebe dich, Birdie."
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
Happy Birthday Australia! (January 26th, I posted this today too~ yay!)
You guys should all know what "Ich liebe dich" means... you don't?! *eyes suspiciously* And you call yourself a GerIta shipper? Haha I'm just kidding, It means "I love you" in German.
I feel bad for putting Mattie through this, but he needs to man up! o(｀ω' )o The Canadians have it bad, their country is probably in peril right now... I didn't think of that... oopsies~! I can't take Mattie seriously when he says "aboot" I just can't...
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