Nirvana
I sat in my room reading a book when I heard a knock at the door. "Come in!" I shouted, but not too loud. The door slowly opened revealing Philip, he smiled slightly and walked in my room holding a letter.
"He wrote back." He said with a sad tone in his voice, and as much as I wanted to ask what was wrong, I didn't. We didn't know each other, so I didn't wanna get all up in his business.
Philip gave me the letter and I smiled brightly at him. "Thank you for-" I chuckled looking down at the letter. He'd done a lot for me, and I was so thankful for everything.
"Of course."
He left the room and quietly shut the door, when I heard the footsteps down the hall fade away I got up to lock the door and ran back to my bed to read the letter.
Dear Nirvana
I've missed you so much. I miss your every minute of every hour, and specially now that there's so much going on. You don't know about it of course, but it's a lot.
Thank you for writing back, I thought you were ignoring me, but now I'm more than sure that you won't. I know it's stupid to write about this since you're going to marry someone else, but I just wanted to tell you that I love you, I love you so much I would die for you, a thousand times and just for you. And even though I know what we have is going to be over soon, I will wait every morning for you to come home. It's so rare to find a girl like you in this world, you taught me love, and I can't let you go...
I want to see you in this moment, and tell you that you're the one who stole my heart. You're the one I want to have by my side when I wake up in the morning, you're what I love the most. That day in the woods was unforgettable, the way you left marks on my neck, but not only on my neck, but in my life.
I love listening to your voice, and how your smile can light up an entire room. You're my Moon, my Stars, and when I'm with you I'm not even afraid of death because you make me feel so alive. I know that you probably don't have a choice on this, but please don't marry him, if you marry him you'll take my life away, so please run away with me. I'm begging you darling please. I can't live without you or your love. I love you to the Moon and back, never forget that. And even though you won't he mine forever, I will always belong to you.
- I love you endlessly, Draco.
I smiled down at the letter and kissed it before bringing it up to my chest.
I felt like the most important girl in the world when he said things like that. He had a way with words, he could make them hurt you, but he could also make them make you fall in love, and I hated and loved him for it.
———
I groaned as I sat back on the cold sticky leather chair. "This is pointless!" I shouted throwing the papers across the wooden desk.
"No, it's not pointless. This is called planning a wedding!" Ehrin shouted back making my heart skip a beat faster. His voice was soft, but in the moment it was..Harsh..
"A wedding I don't even want." I mumbled playing around with my dress. Ehrin sighed and rubbed his temples trying to get rid of stress.
"Nirvana, you have to do this. Even if you don't want to. I'm sorry."
He packed up his things and left the room leaving me all alone. My hands were shaking and my breathing was heavy. "Nirvana breathe." I heard Blaise say from behind me, but him telling me to breathe made me forget how to breathe. I was so nervous about the wedding I had a panic attack.
———
I dipped my feet in the pool and I let my fingers drum the hot cement as I looked up the sky.
"Beautiful huh?" Philip said sitting beside me, he took off his shoes and put his feet in the pool as well.
"I guess." I mumbled, but I agreed with him. Wasn't it just crazy how we all lived in a sphere that was surrounded by millions of stars and other planets and galaxies? It was all so magical without even having to use any sort of magic.
"Want to go for a drive?"
Philip and I sat in the traffic waiting in boredom. "We shouldn't've come." I said, Philip shook his head and looked at me.
"It was about time you got out of the house anyway." He said, Philip got out of the car and opened the passenger door for me, he gave me his hand and I rolled my eyes as I got out of the car.
We sat down on the hood of the car and looked up at the Eiffel Tower. Stars were surrounding it and the Moon sat the point of the tower making it more beautiful than it already was.
"You're really shy aren't you?" Philip asked, I shook my head and laid back.
"No, I'm very talkative actually. I just don't want to speak with you sometimes."
"Listen, this marriag-"
"This 'marriage' is not going to happen."
Philip and I sighed and I got off the hood of the car and got inside the car. He'd done a lot for me, and I'll always be thankful for that, but marrying him would not be my way of thanking him.
———
November finally hit the calendar and before I knew it, I was only 2 weeks away from getting married. 2 weeks away from getting Draco, aka, the only thing I was looking forward to. Marrying Philip, was a nightmare that'd come to life. He was a good guy, amazing actually, but I would never see him as more than a friend.
Through out the past few months, we became closer, we started getting along which was good, really good, and we stopped fighting, which was not only a relief for the two of us, but for everyone who lived in Marais manor. And even though we were friends and it was easier for us to fall in love later on, I still got panic attacks every time I thought about marrying Philip.
"I'll try to make you the happiest girl ever, even if you never fall for me. I promise." Philip whispered looking into my eyes as we sat on the couch across my room.
I smiled slightly and looked away not wanting to look into his eyes anymore. "Nirvana." He whispered as he grabbed my hand, I looked back at him, he had a look on his face, but I couldn't quite explain what it was. "I had a dream you were mine." He leaned closer, and closer, but I moved backwards and and backwards.
A loud sound of glass breaking filled my ears, and our eyes turned toward where the sound came from. A vase had fallen to the ground— Well not really fallen. Blaise stood beside it with a smirk on his face. He bowed down and smiled brightly.
"Thank you." I mouthed bringing my fingers up to my lips. A smile spread across my face and Blaise nodded before vanishing into thin hair.
"I'm sorry about that."
"It's fine Philip, really."