Nirvana
Our birthday was finally there, and no matter how happy I felt, there was still a pinch of sadness in my day and it was all because of Elizah. We were supposed to celebrate our birthdays together, the three of us, we were supposed to turn 16 together.
I was looking at myself in my bedroom mirror as I did my hair, when I saw the exact image of me stand behind me. "Elizah?" I said turning around to get a better look of my sister, she wasn't the little girl I was expecting her to be, she looked the same age as me.
"Hey there." She whispered with a smile on her face, I smiled and let all my tears fall as I hugged her tight. Elizah wrapped her arms around me and kissed the top of my head. I missed her so much, 10 years was a long time without seeing my twin sister.
"We should- It's all my fault." I sobbed, Elizah shushed me and ran her fingers through my hair as he chin tickled my back when she shook her head.
"No, no, don't say that. Never say that. Don't blame yourself for something I did to myself." Elizah said, I pulled away from the hug and looked into her blue eyes.
"What are you talking about?"
"I threw myself off the boat on purpose, I know we were 6 but I was- I had suicidal thoughts."
I never in my life would've thought Elizah Rosalie Giannina could have depression, specially at such a young age. I didn't want to seem arrogant but she had everything, everything I didn't have she had, she was favorite so why was she so depressed? My parents gave her everything she wanted, she didn't have to ask twice because she would already have it in her hands, but maybe I was wrong after all. Maybe she didn't have everything after all, she didn't have something, something that she needed the most. But what could that be?
"But why?" I asked, I didn't want to get into her personal business but I was really curious to know why she did what she did.
Elizah sighed and led me toward my bed, we sat down and I wiped my tears away as I moved closer to her. "Mom, Draco, but mostly bullying." I threw her confused look. "You were always the prettier sister, we're twins, but people always thought you were the prettier one. You were so thin, and I was so...thick. You had this- this- and you still have beautiful soft brown hair and this scent that made everyone just love you. Draco being one of them." My mind was spinning, did she really think I was all that? "And everyday at school people would bully me, while you lived your day was all rainbows and sunshines." Elizah said.
"Hey, that's not true or fair." I scoffed, "My day was not all rainbows and sunshines, I had to put up with mom. She was so hard on me you have no-" Elizah scoffed and stood up and glared at me.
"Mom was not hard on you, you just never wanted to listen!"
"We had different lives Elizah, now get over it!"
She tried to slap me across the face, but her hand went right through me. "Elizah don't." I heard Blaises voice say, I stood up and smiled when I saw him standing by my door.
My head snapped toward Elizah and I shook my head in disappointment, "I spent my entire life blaming myself for something that was not even my fault, and when I finally realize it you get mad at me and try to hit me?" I said taking a step closer to her. Why would she do that? I never did anything to her, ever, all I ever did was love her and she was blaming me because of something I had no control over?
"Fuck you, leave."
"Vana no I-"
She disappeared into thin air, and I sighed in relief, "Not every spirit out there is good, and that's why I'm here. To guide you." Blaise said softly, I smiled at him and walked back to my vanity and sat down in front of the mirror.
"Happy birthday Princess of Slytherin." Blaise said with a smirk as he looked at me through my mirror, I smiled shook my head as I continued to get ready for my birthday party.
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I wore a long red dress and Draco wore an black suit, he looked so handsome, if looks were able to kill I'd be dead in seconds.
"You look beautiful."
"And you look handsome."
He put his hand around my waist and pulled me closer to him and we smiled as people took pictures of us standing by the lake Elizah drowned in.
At first my smile was big and real, but once I realized how much of a monster she was, that smile was gone and it was all that I could think about. "Vana give me a smile dear! You're finally 16!" My dad yelled with a huge smile on his face.
Don't let her ruin your day Vana, she already ruined 10 years of your life. I put on a fake smile and slightly laid my head on Draco's shoulder.
"Alright, let's get this party started." My dad said with a smile, we made our way back to the house and into the ball room.
Birthdays weren't really my thing, specially big ones but my parents loved them. They always wanted to stand out when it came to parties so I always let them, no matter how small the occasion was.
Everything was so neatly organized, I was in awe. "We did a good job planning this party." Draco said, I nodded and scanned the room for the Weaslys, Harry, Neville and Hermione but they weren't there.
"What's wrong?" Draco asked, I moved my eyes around suspiciously and shook my head. I didn't want him knowing I invited Gryffindors to our party, he would've gone crazy.
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Night time came around and all of our guests were starting to leave. Draco and I sat down on some chairs all the way in the back and sighed in exhaustion.
Our birthday was the only day through the entire year we got to party the way we did. There was so much loud music, and screaming, we never had that fun since our parents were extremely strict, but at least my parents let us have a day off on our birthday.
I took off my heels and put them on the empty chair beside me. "There's another song to be played before the day ends." Draco said, I looked at him and smiled.
"Just don't disappoint me because my feet are killing me." I laughed, Draco nodded and we stood up to dance.
He put his hands on my waist and I put mine on his shoulders. The song that was once playing changed to the song Draco and I danced to at Kellys' wedding and I smiled as I pressed my forehead against his.
I've been out on that open road
You can be my full time, daddy white and gold
Singing blues has been getting old
You can be my full time, baby
Hot and cold
Alarms will ring for eternity
The waves will break every chain on me
My bones will bleach
My flesh will flee
So help my lifeless frame to breathe
And God knows, I'm not dying but I breathe now
And God knows it's the only way to heal now
With all the blood I lost for you
It drowns the love I thought I knew
So I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, just ride, I just ride, just ride, I just ride.
He pulled me out the ball room and up to the rooftop, the music was so loud we could hear it all the way outside.
"I can see the Stars in your eyes." Draco said as he looked deep my eyes as we danced.
"And I can see the Moon in yours." I said referring to his big Grey eyes that always made me smile. Draco chuckled and kissed my forehead as we moved slowly beneath the Moon. The full Moon. The Moon he always talked about when we were together at night. It was almost impossible to have the Moon look a certain way when we were together and apart, but what if it wasn't? What if the Moon was right and we were meant for each other?
My smile grew bigger at the thought of spending the rest of my life with the blonde who stood centimeters away from me. He was my world, my Moon, my Stars, he was my Draco, and I wouldn't trade him for anything or anyone.