Chapter 40: Lost
Aliyah's POV
"Wala ng mapupuntahan ang kompanya na 'to kaya mas mabuting umalis nalang tayo" I heard them talking about leaving the Monreal Fields, I shifted my eyes on them and I can see the frustration and irritation on them because of how popular the company when it comes to issues.
"Baka pati tayo madamay sa mga pangungurakot ng Monreal, kung makukulong si Architect ay paniguradong pati tayo damay" I sighed as I can hear all their gossips about the current problem of the Monreal.
Ang laki ng binigay na tiwala sa kanila ni Architect Aly pero bakit naman kung kailan ganito ang nangyayare ay tsaka naman sila nag-babalak na umalis? I mean, I know they are worried for their safety and job but I think Aly will not let his employees to be involved on this problem.
Inayos ko ang pag-kakapile ng mga papeles na bagong print lang, kitang-kita na bumabagsak na ang sales maging ang mga investors ay wala ng matira. Ang tanging pinag-kakatiwalaan nalang ng kompanya ay ang magulang ni Ms. Grayson.
As I saw Architect Aly last night, I can't help but to pity him. He's ready to take his own life and thankfully I was there to stop him again, he's committing his life already and it hurts to see that man being drowned in pain because of his parents.
"Pero alam mo ba yung nangyayare kay Architect...parang nababaliw na daw" I shut my eyes and held the papers tightly because now, they are talking about Architect's mental health "Baka mamaya kung ano na ang gawin sa atin. Ang arte naman ni Architect, gusto niya ba ng atensyon kaya siya nag-kakaganyan?"
I can't believe that those people still exists, ang lakas nilang kumwestiyon ng nararamdaman ng isang tao ay hindi naman sila ang nakakaranas. Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko at ramdam ko ang gigil sa aking katawan.
Anong arte at anong gusto ng atensyon? Excuse me, mental health is a serious matter at hindi lang 'yun pag-hingi ng atensyon o arte man lang, nakakasuklam naman ang mga taong ganon ang pag-iisip at hindi man lang subukang ilagay ang sarili nila sa nangyayare kay Aly.
I got their attention because of my hand that flounced at the table, they became confused on my action the reason why I raised a brow on them.
"If you have those kind of words then better keep it to yourselves, nakakabastos na dito pa kayo sa kompanya nag-uusap ng ganyan" pambabara ko sa kanila na dahilan para kumurap ang mga mata na siguro ay dahil na rin sa hiya.
Don't mention it as arte if you didn't experience it, ito rin kasi ang problema sa ibang tao. The problem is some people will take it as a joke when this person is opening about his or her struggles.
I don't it get why some people think that mental health is just like seeking of attention. It's hard to say this but those people who think that it's just an arte to feel that kind of doubt to yourself, then fuck you.
"Kung may balak kayong mag-usap tungkol sa boss niyo ay ilugar niyo ha, paki-lugar lang" ramdam ko ang boses ko na may pagka-mataray na dahil nainis ako sa mga sinabi nila kay Architect Aly na arte lang ang nararamdaman niya.
Nakakasuklam, ang sarap balibagin.
They bowed on me because of the embarrassment they did, tama lang na pag-sabihan ko sila dahil masama ang sinasabi nila kay Architect. Imagine, you're struggling and then everyone will just say that you're seeking for attention, gosh!
I left out a sigh as I follow them using my eyes hanggang sa mawala na sila sa paningin ko, I shut my eyes for a second because of the irritation that is filling me. Please settle down Aliyah, calm yourself and protect your peace of mind.
Aliyah, calm down.
"You don't have to defend me on those people" someone said that at my back the reason why I faced it and I almost collapsed when I saw Architect Aly with his cold aura but I my jaw almost dropped when I saw his look for today.
He's wearing a white sleeves polo, some are unbottoned the reason why I can see his chest and black slacks. His hair is fixed today the reason why I can see the perfection of his face shape, I gulped and almost can't feel my legs anymore because of his get-up.
Wow, just like a prince who came with his white horse.
"A-Architect..." I stuttered when I called him the reason why he raised a brow on me, I got anxious when he's closed to me the reason why I stepped backward. Gosh! I don't know that I can see him today because last night, he looks miserable.
I tried to gain my sense, I shook my head and simply smiled on this man standing in front of me with his cold aura but his look is totally stunning today. How come na ang taong nakita ko kagabi na miserable at ngayon ay iisa lang?
"Do I have a schedule for today?" he asked but still with a dead tone like last night, kinalkal ko ang notebook ko at tiningnan kung may schedule siya for this day.
Seeing him closely makes me anxious, parang noon lang ay naiinis ako dahil hindi niya ako pinapansin pero ngayon parang gusto ko nalang bumalik kami sa dati.
Ang hirap ng trabaho mo sa akin, ma'am.
"Y-Yes Architect, actually Mr.Grayson scheduled a meeting with you for today but do you want me to reschedule it?"
I stuttered for a while because of the sudden glow-up, parang kahapon lang ay miserable pa ang buhay niya pero ngayon ay halos ibang-iba na ang itsura niya. Mas maayos parin talaga siya kapag ganito ang itsura niya.
"What's with Mr. Grayson?" I asked on him the reason why I bowed for a second, this is totally weird to talk about. I' not even part of their circle but here I am doing my job and risking my life on them.
Ma'am, my work here became hard when Architect Aly is already giving me attention.
"A-About the marriage--"
"Fuck, here we go again" he cursed all of a sudden the reason why I stepped back, he became confused but that reaction faded.
He cleared his throat and became professional "D-Do you want me to cancel the meeting, Architect?" I asked with a stuttering, damn it Aliyah!
He shook his head and clenched his jaw for a while, as far as I know Mr. Grayson offered the arranged marriage on Architect Aly but he refused to do it.
"No, don't cancel it. I want to end this proposal with respect on Mr. Grayson, my mom is already in prison so that means no one can control me anymore"
"Okay, Architect." matipid kong sabi at binaling ang tingin ko sa notebook ko para i-check ang schedule meeting niya na balak niyang puntahan.
"That's all you gonna say? Are not even affected that someone proposed a marriage for me?" bumaling naman ang tingin ko kay Architect Aly na dahilan para manginig ang ibabang labi ko, nakalimutan ko ata ang trabaho ko.
"Architect, I'm your secretary right now and you think I will act like a jealous woman here?" I asked with a sarcastic tone the reason why he clenched his jaw again as if he's disappointed on my actions.
"Are you really Sienna?" he asked all of a sudden the reason why I became stunned on that question, what is he even talking about?
"D-Don't even call my real name Architect when I'm working, just call me Aliyah and why did you ask if I'm Sienna?"
I already told him that I'm Sienna and it sucks to know that he's still not believing me, it's because I'm not like the Sienna way back then that's why he's not believing me.
He sighed and ran his fingertips on his fixed hair, I gulped when he looks disappointed on my actions. Aliyah, calm down and gather your sense.
"When you confessed to me that you're Sienna, I didn't even feel a thing that's why I'm doubting" he said directly to me the reason why I shifted my eyes away on him as if he cornered me already.
"W-Why are you not even believing me, are you not even happy that I came back for you?"
I felt my conscience hitting me already, I'm really sorry if I have to do this but it's an order.
"I-I didn't say that... I'm just really confused and shocked because of the way you changed"
I cut his words with my sigh, inipitan ko ang maikli kong buhok dahil ramdam ko nanamang tensyunado ako dahil sa ngayon ay napapansin na ako ni Architect. It's kind of awkward but I know I have to adopt him for the sake of us.
"Let's do our job Architect, looks like you gain your sense already so let's work and bring your company to the top again"
He raised a brow on me the reason why I tilted my head, I may look different in front of him but I know what he liked on Sienna.
"Are you sure we can still do that?" he asked me and I can see that he's doubting himself because of the issue about the plunder case. He's scared that if we will try to be on top again ay baka may masabi ang mga tao sa kanya.
Hayaan natin sila, kung ano ang sasabihin nila ay babalik at sumasalamim rin naman iyon sa ugali nila.
I smiled so that Architect will be motivated despite the happenings on his life, there's still a chance to be on top again and kaming mga empleyado niya ang mag-sisikap rin para sa kanya.
"We can still do it, habang buhay ka ay magagawa mo 'yun" I chuckled for a while the reason why he looked at me deeply, I stopped for a while because it became awkward for us two.
I shifted my eyes away on him and I felt conscious because he's still looking at me like please stop because you're making me uncomfortable.
"Y-Yeah, you talk like my Sienna" he's convinced all of a sudden the reason why I gulped and tried to face him. My Sienna? Well that's cute because I know he's the only one who can call Sienna like that.
"Let's do our job, Architect." I firmly said to him and I got on his office for the third time I guess, hindi naman niya kasi ako pinapapasok dito tapos hindi pa ako pinapansin, tss.
"Schedule a business trip that I can join Aliyah, it's time to get some investors" that made me smiled and nodded as a response. Looks like his spirit went up all of a sudden because he's motivated but my conscience also hit me.
Why are you still doing this?
"Can I just call you Sienna kapag tayo lang dalawa?" he asked again the reason why my lower lip trembled, dapat bang nanahimik nalang ako nung una palang dahil parang ngayon ay ako naman ang hindi komportable sa aming dalawa.
"A-Aliyah, iyon ang gusto kong itawag sa akin kahit na--"
"I'm your boss, remember?" he already have the guts to say that to me because he's already gained his sense while me I'm being tensed and anxious because of his actions towards me.
Act normal, calm down.
"I'm Aliyah, that's what you should call me Architect Aly" I firmly said the reason why he clenched his jaw and played his tongue, I know I'm being tough on him but it's my only way to make him believe that I'm Sienna.
He likes the Sienna who's bolder and fiercer, the only person that will rule Aly is Sienna.
"Aliyah is not related to your real name Sienna, I'm not using that name when we're together. I'm not changing my mind" he's stubborn the reason why I bit my lower lip, he gained his sense and he's talking professionally all of a sudden.
Hindi ko naman inaakala na sa pag-balik ng taong mahal niya ay mababago nga talaga ang ikot ng mundo niya. Last night he's ready to commit suicide but thankfully I came to stop him.
"Unbelievable..." I mumbled the reason why mas lalong tumaas ang kilay niya sa akin pero nag-bigay nalang ako ng isang mapang-asar na ngiti sa kanya, may pagka-kulit rin pala itong lalaking 'to at tama rin ang sinabi nila sa akin.
"So what time is the meeting with Mr.Grayson?" he asked me the reason why I looked to my notebook to see the time of the meeting with Mr. Grayson about the marriage proposal, tss.
"1pm Architect and after that you also have to meet the police for some informations" medyo naging awkward ako sa dulo dahil tungkol nanaman ito sa plunder case ng magulang niya at aaminin ko man ay nagagalit rin ako sa magulang ni Architect.
"Okay, I also promised them to help them on the plunder case" my forehead creased because of what he said, he will help the police instead of his parents? I mean, I know that his parents committed a chaos to everyone but the way he's handling it makes it more like a matured one.
"You're supposed to help your parents, right?" I awkwardly asked on him and his brows furrowed, I became uncomfortable when we are talking about his parents because it's really a chaos and a brutal one.
"Why would I help them if they took advantage of you, Sienna?" he called me Sienna again and I can feel my conscience hitting me again because the sincerity is there, the way he totally loves Sienna even though she changed already.
I'm really sorry, Architect Aly.
"I-I..i-it, I don't even know what to say. It was really a chaos back then, that brutality is what I'm trying to forget now" nasapo ko ang aking noo at pinikit ang mga mata ko saglit dahil sa isa nanamang sakit ang nararamdaman ko sa nakaraan.
Nakakaawa na isang tao ang nakaranas ng ganon at may iba pang biktima na mas masahol pa ang naranasan.
"That's why I'm doing this Sienna," he said with sincerity the reason why I opened my eyes and I almost collapsed when he's already in front of me with a serious and worried look. Architect became pure when it comes to the woman he loves and it makes my conscience be in trouble.
He caress my cheeks trying to fade this past, I pressed my lips and trying to shift my eyes away on him because my conscience haunts me already because he's giving me this attention already. Dapat bang nanatili nalang akong tahimik?
Am I doing the right thing?
"I want to give justice for you and I'm really sorry that I didn't even know, I'm really sorry that I was not there to protect you" I shook my head and stepped backward a little because I felt pain in my chest.
"I-It's okay, you don't need to be sorry. When we part ways, that's the time that we don't have the responsibility on each other anymore." pilit akong nag-pakita ng isang ngiti sa kanya para gumaan naman ang usapan na ito na hindi man lang tungkol sa nangyare sa nakaraan.
"But I should be sorry too, you've been experiencing anxiety attacks for the last five years." I felt guilty on how I imagine Aly keeping this all by himself because he doesn't want to bother someone anymore.
I can feel his pain already after I came back, I know he's keeping this pain but I'm here to get him already on his dark zone. Healing is the best way for him, gagaling siya kapag tinulungan niya rin ang sarili niya.
"Magaling na ako nung bumalik ka" ang sambit niya na dahilan para maramdaman kong bumigat ang pag-hinga ko, the way his words are full of sincerity that makes my conscience disturb me.
I just nodded with a smile "Keep healing, Architect. That's the best way to beat this battle of yours and I'm here to support you"
Lies.
I sighed to cut this discussion already because I'm out of words already, hindi ko na alam kung ano pang sasabihin ko kapag mas pinalalim pa namin ang usapan. Kahit naman inalam ko ang lahat ay hindi ko pa rin gamay ang isang Architect Aly.
Hindi na nga nag-tagal ay dumating na nga ang ala-una at hinihintay ko nalang ang Grayson family na dumating sa Monreal Fields, after years ay makakaharap ko na rin ang ex-girlfriend ni Architect Aly and I'm kind of nervous that Ms. Vien will have this proposal.
I shut my eyes for a second when I felt someone's walking, nag-pakawala ako ng malalim na hininga para ihanda ang sarili ko marahil nasa loob na si Architect Aly para harapin ang marriage proposal ni Mr. Grayson.
Nung maramdaman kong malapit na ito ay kaagad kong binuksan ang mata ko at inayos ang tindig ko, saktong sa pag-mulat ay nandito na nga silang mga Grayson. Kaagad na napunta kay Vien ang tingin ko na ngayon ay may magandang ngiti.
Ang inosente niya talaga, I thought she's someone that I can hate but no. She totally did the favor na bantayan si Aly after five years.
"Good morning, Architect Aly is waiting inside the meeting room" I said with a smile on them, naagaw ko ang atensyon ni Vien at sumilay rin sa kanya ang magandang ngiti na parang balak na ako nitong ibaon sa lupa.
She's really pure and beautiful at the same time.
"Looks like you're already close to Aly, dumidistansya pa siya sa'yo noon and it's rare to see you handling him" Vien said the reason why it became awkward for me, the way she said that is like a lullaby or taking me to heaven already.
"Y-Yes ma'am, we settled it already" nahihiya kong sabi at yumuko nalang para itago ang pamumula ng pisngi ko, ang init nalang bigla at parang gusto kong uminom ng tubig dahil sa ramdam ko ang panunuyo na ng lalamunan ko.
"Let's go inside already, Aly is waiting" ang sabi ng nanay ni Vien na dahilan para ipag-bukas ko sila ng pinto at doon ko naman nasilip sa Aly na naka-upo ng mala-boss talaga sa swivel chair niya.
Hindi naman ako dapat sumama sa usapan nila, sasabihin naman sa akin ni Architect Aly kung ano ang plano niya for this proposal. It's better if they will talk this privately, malaki rin ang offer sa kanya ng mga Grayson, what? Hahayaan ko bang mag-pakasal si Architect sa ex-girlfriend niya?
Nag-tama ang tingin namin at tumango nalang ako sa kanya hanggang sa unti-unti ko ng isara ang pinto marahil kailangan na nilang mag-simula ng meeting nila. I'm sure that Architect Aly will still decline that offer, even though Grayson is helping but it doesn't mean that marriage is the solution for this.
I sighed when I closed the door, I'm fidgeting my hands already as if someone is disturbing my mind already and I know it's my conscience. Do I have to deal this kind of mindset because someone said so?
Hindi na nga nag-tagal ay natapos na ang meeting nila at nakita ko ang pag-labas ng mga Grayson na dahilan para mapalunok ako, Vien is somehow quiet when she walked away so what is the meaning of that?
Nung umalis na sila ay kaagad naman akong pumasok sa meeting room at pilit na inaalis sa isipan ko ang pinag-usapan nila, ayokong ako ang unang mag-tatanong at bahala na si Aly kung ano ba ang gusto niyang sabihin sa akin.
"Done on Grayson family, next is the police and the time is 3pm Architect" I said while checking the list of his schedule na alam kong kapag nag-tiyaga siya ay dadami at dadami nanaman itong nasa listahan ko.
For now kasi ay nag-susumikap na siya para mag-hakot ng mga investors kaya nga gusto niyang pumunta sa mga business trips para naman may mahakot siya.
"You're not going to ask what we talked about?" he asked on me the reason why I shifted my eyes on hi with a sharp one, inaasahan ko na rin naman ang tanong na 'yan na dahilan para mag-pakawala ako ng isang malalim na hininga.
"No, just keep to yourself for now at kung ano ang maging desisyon mo ay tatanggapin ko" I don't know why I felt pain on my chest, Aly suffered enough and I just want him to be happy but I think being happy will cost a sacrifice.
"You're totally confusing me, Sienna." he said with a disappointed voice the reason why I didn't bother to get what is he pointing out because if the conversation became deeper, I will lost my sense and my words.
"Matagal na rin naman kitang nililito Architect, hindi ka pa ba sanay?" naka-ngisi kong sabi sa kanya at hindi na magawang tingnan siya. Oo nga, napagaan ko ang loob niya pero hindi niya inaasahan ang susunod na mangyayare.
Ngayon palang ay nakokonsensya na ako, I'm really sorry if I have to do this.
Akmang paalis na sana ako ng bigla niya akong tinawag "Sienna..." he called the reason why I shut my eyes for a second, I told him to call me Aliyah pero hindi talaga siya natitinig kahit na nasa opisina kami.
Humarap muli ako sa kanya at nakita ko ang lungkot sa kanyang mga mata na dahilan para mawala ako sa wisyo ko, why are you looking at me like that because it makes me sad also. I thought you're okay already but I guess I need to push harder for you to be ready on what is going to happen.
The battle will not end until there's no one who will surrender, kahit na gumaling ka ay hindi pa rin tapos ang laban.
"I know it's straight forward to say this but just so you know that you literally changed after five years...kind of disappointing somehow but still, I'm really happy that you came back for me"
"I felt nothing when you confessed that you're Sienna but I know that you are the woman I waited" here we go again on his sincered words and I don't even know what to say, pilit na iniisip ko kung ano ba ang dapat na salita na ibabato ko sa kanya pero sobra na ang ginagaw ako sa kanya.
Nakakakonsensya na kahit na kakasimula palang.
Umulit ang pag-singhap ko and trying to get out of the discussion, ang laki talaga ng pinag-bago ng babaeng mahal mo. Sobrang laki na dahilan na baka hindi mo na kayanin ang pag-babagong nangyare sa kanya.
The police came with some folders and I know I'm not in the place to be with them, sinabi sa akin ni Architect na iniimbistigahan daw nila ang mga babaeng kasama sa club at hindi ko maiwasang kabahan.
Agad akong lumisan sa meeting room dahil ang dami nilang pulis habang si Aly ay isa lang, mabuti naman at balak niyang makipag-tulungan sa pulis at akala ko ay masama na talaga siya.
I was kidding myself for now at nagagawa ko ng idamay ang ibang tao, nagagawa ko nanamang saktan ang lalaking 'yun dahil sa ginagawa ko. Dapat bang hiningi ko ang tsansa na mapnsin niya ako?
Naiinis rin ako sa ginagawa ko at parang dapat pala mas nanahimik nalang ako dahil makakasakit ako, sa pag-kakaalam ko ay hindi naman ako ito at nakakakonsensya na marinig kay Architect Aly na masaya siya sa pag-babalik ng babaeng mahal niya.
Mariella Sienna Gallegos, the woman he truly loves. A true gem for him and Aly's endgame but what if the woman he loves doesn't want to be with him anymore because she already changed?
Paano kapag malaman mong bumalik lang pala ang taong 'yun para ayusin ka at kapag natapos na ang lahat ay hahayaan ka na niya?
Sometimes, in this world ang sarili lang natin ang karamay natin sa lahat. The world is full of flawed people and sometimes we doubt ourselves and we need someone to accompany us pero hindi dapat laging ganon.
You should live for yourself too, hindi sila laging nandiyan para gabayan ka palagi because they are also busy for themselves. We should stop living on others and start seeing ourself more, it's okay that you will be selfish for a while because it's for your own good.
It's a growth for you and for Architect Aly, he needed someone that will fix him and after that he should live for himself and face the battle with bravery.
Nandito ako para ayusin siya pero darating rin ang araw na hindi niya na kailangan ng taong gagabay sa kanya dahil kailangan niya ring tumayo sa sarili niyang mga paa.
Hindi na nga nag-tagal ay natapos na ang trabaho ko, niligpit ko na ang mga gamit ko dahil tumunog na ang alarm na ibig sabihin ay kailangan na naming umuwing mga empleyado.
Soemone knocked on the door the reason why it got my attention, niluwa nito si Architect Aly na dahilan para taasan ko siya ng kilay. He looks pure while sneeking on my office the reason why I chuckled, what a cute man.
"What are you doing here, Architect?" I asked at sinukbit ang bag ko sa aking braso, he crossed his arms while looking at me. Ano nanaman ba ang ginagawa niya dito?
"Can I take you home?" he asked the reason why I was stunned for a second, as I know ay tinanong niya rin sa akin 'yan nung nasa club siya noon. I felt a pain on my chest with that question as if he wants to be with me for this night.
"Why would you like to take me home?" I asked on him and trying to shift my eyes away on him because I pity him, sa tingin ko ay kailangan niya ng kasama ngayon knowing na ilang taon siyang mag-isa sa bahay niya ay nakakalungkot rin naman talaga.
"Because I miss you, my house was empty when you left" mas lalong bumigat ang pag-hinga ko dahil sa sinabi niyang walang-wala ang kanyang baahy nung umalis ang babaeng mahal niya, it was a sad moment that you have to accept that you're alone in that house trying to keep your pain.
He's so pure when it comes to the person he loves and I just can't help but to feel guilty that he's showing this affection to me, do I deserve this?
"After five years of longing, can I just take you home and sleep beside me? I will be contented on that" he said to me with pure voice the reason why I tilted my head to look at him deeply, I want to memorize everything after five years because this fondness is really a chaos for the two of us.
"I want to hug you, I want to cuddle with you and I just want to love you until my last breath"
"Still, I'm doing my best for us to be together until the end of the world. I still want you to be my endgame"
I sighed and felt his words on my heart, grabe pala mag-mahal ang isang Alyster Emory Monreal. He's so selfish and wants to spoil the person he loves, he will do evereything so that everything will be on his plan.
"I will keep you and promise to do better because I don't want to lose you anymore, Sienna"
I just want to cry and run away because of his sincered words, do I deserve that? Looks like when this person heard that she will be in Aly's world, hindi ko inaasahan na ganito kalalim ang pag-mamahal niya at nasasaktan ako.
"Y-You can take me home, let's sleep together Architect" I agreed the reason why he smiled at me, pilit nalang akong ngumiti sa kanya para pilit na itago ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Nakakakonsensya na ganito palang lalaki ang kailangan kong kalabanin, I hate it already!
Hindi na nga nag-tagal ay nakarating na kami sa bahay niya at ramdam ko ang tensyon sa aking aktawan habang papasok ako sa bahay niya, I'm watching him and felt pain on my chest.
He looks good already because someone is here, masaya siya dahil may kasama siya sa malaking bahay na ito. I'm happy that I made him found his self again but he should be ready on what is going to happen.
I sighed at lumapit naman ako sa kanya na dahilan para kumunot ang noo niya, I gulped and hinawakan ang coat niya na nakalagay parin sa kanyang katawan. Tinanggal ko ito at ramdam ko ang tingin niya sa akin na dahilan para tahimik akong mataranta.
Don't look at me like that because I'm hurting already.
"I will prepare our dinner okay? I just want you to watch me" malalim niyang sabi sa akin na dahilan para pilitin kong tingnan siya na ngayon malapit sa akin, I pressed my lips and chuckled for a while.
I don't know that this will be the impact, we should really defy the game.
Umalis na siya sa harapan ko na dahilan para sundan ko lang siya ng tingin na papuntang kusina, tiniklop niya ang kanyang sleeves hanggang sa siko niya at nag-suot pa ng apron para hindi mamantsahan ang kanyang damit.
Lumapit ako sa table at tahimik na sinandal ang puwetan ko sa gilid ng lamesa habang nasa kanya pa rin ang tingin ko, he looks happy that someone is with him for this night. Hindi ko pa nagagawa ang trabaho ko but if this will end do I have to go?
Aly, I just want you know that the world is already cruel so don't be cruel to yourself. Okay?
Pinag-masdan ko lang ang pag-luluto nito at nakita kong sumilay ang ngiti sa kanyang labi habang pinag-tutuunan ng pansin ang kanyang hinahanda para sa aming dalawa.
Why so pure Aly?
Sana maging maayos ka na, kapag ayos ka na ay iyon na ba ang dahilan para umalis na ako?
I'm just someone that wants you to be okay, in a story I'm just the second-lead of you story. Dumating lang ako para ayusin ka at kapag nagawa ko na iyon ay sana hayaan mong iyon naman ang gawin ko para sa sarili ko.
Ang laki ng ngiti mo na may kasama ka na sa bahay na ito pero sana hindi pa rin mawala ang sayang iyon kapag natapos na ang lahat.
Someone is not yet okay, someone needs to heal because of her past.
Someone is not yet over on her cruel past.
"Yes, ma'am. He's okay, everything is going according to the plan" I bit my lower lip because of this conscience disturbing me, maalala ko lang ang ngiti na mayroon si Architect Aly ay parang gusto ko ng ibaon ang sarili ko sa lupa.
"That's good to hear, Aliyah. You never failed me to fool that man"
I closed my eyes as this person I'm talking to is the one who's not yet over on her past, what the hell I'm doing here and making Architect Aly suffer again in pain?
"That man was used to be mine but because of the chaos, I don't feel anything anymore. If he already found himself then it's not yet over for me, I'm still lost"
Anger filled you, no one wants to surrender the battle and it will the reason why everyone will suffer again.