Chapter 39: Disgrace (trigger warning)
"Aly, your company is falling apart...and the only way you can do is to marry Vien," Archielle said and being worried because of the news of my parents, I've sobered already on these drinks and I didn't sleep at all.
This house is full of your presence and you think I can get over you Sienna? Ngayon palang lumalabas ang mag sikterong halos hindi ko na masikmurang isipin pa, ang bigat sa dibdib na malamang unti-unti kang pinag-pyepyestahan at wala man lang silang awa sa'yo.
"Your suggestion is not helping at all, Archi" lasing kong sabi at hindi siya magawang balingan ng tingin dahil ang atensyon ko ay nasa baso ng alak na pinag-lalaruan ko sa kamay ko, my head is spinning already and myself used to be mine but now it's already gone.
He sighed and took away the glass that I'm playing, papikit-pikit akong tumingin sa kanya pero gusto ko pang uminom hanggang sa hindi ko nalang maramdaman ang sarili kong sakit.
Tama na, nakuha mo na lahat sa akin kaya ano pa bang balak mong ibigay?
Masakit na kasi, tanginang buhay 'to dahil walang ibang binigay sa akin kung hindi pasakit lang.
"Your parents are already in prison that means that you have to start again Aly, you can still save your company despite the happenings" I don't even know what to do anymore, I lost myself and can't think straight already because of how drowned I am to my problems.
Yung parang gusto mo nalang sarilihin lahat pero hindi mo magawa dahil puno ka na, yung parang gusto mo nalang umalis sa lahat pero hindi mo magawa dahil may nag-tutulak sa'yong isang tao na manatili.
"I-I don't even know what to think anymore...you think marrying Vien is the solution? Madadamay lang ang pamilya niya and I will not beg for them" I don't want to tie myself on a woman that I don't love anymore dahil alam kong isa nanaman 'yun sa magiging problema ko.
Ngayon palang ay nahihirapan na ako, ngayon palang ay wala na ako at ngayon palang ay sobrang ubos na ako. Everything is keeping me down and I just let myself to be drowned on this pain, wala naman akong kasama e' dahil lahat sila ay iniwan na ako.
"Maybe marrying Vien is the only thing you can do...you're holding to your past Aly, ipunta mo naman ang atensyon mo sa nangyayare ngayon" pananaway sa akin ni Archi na dahilan para masama ko siyang tingnan.
Sa tingin niya ba madaling makalimutan ang nakaraan?
Ang nakaraan ko ay parang iyon na ang kumokontrol sa buhay ko, I'm ruined because of my past and it will haunt me until my last breath.
"Do you think it's easy for me to let go of my past, Archi?"
"Sa tingin mo ba makakabuti sa akin na kalimutan nalang ang lahat...kasama ang babaeng mahal ko sa nakaraan ko at ang bigat na wala man lang ako nagawa"
I'm stuck in my past and I don't know if I can let go of it, ang nakaraan ko ay kasama ang babaeng mahal ko na kahit limang taon kaming nag-kahiwalay ay pakiramdam ko ay nasa tabi niya pa rin ako.
Ang sakit nga lang na yung akala kong nasa tabi ko siya ay isang kaluluwa nalang pala at isang ilusyon.
Yumuko ako ng bahagya at naiyukom ang mga kamao ko "P-Pagod na ako, Archi" pag-bibitaw ko sa laban, pagod na ang katawan at isip ko sa pag-iintindi ng lahat hanggang sa mabaliw nalang ako.
"P-Pagod na pagod na ako..." muli kong pag-bitaw at pinikit ang mga mata ko, sinandal ko ang ulo ko sa lamesa at ramdam ko ang pag-kalamig nanaman ng katawan ko na para bang handa na akong mawala sa mundong 'to.
I don't want the world to see me because I think they will not understand me, the pain that I'm dealing with is different as if this pain will take over my everything.
"My parents are in prison already and the woman I loved is gone...how unfair na hindi ko man lang naranasan ang pang-matagal na saya. Tangina, kahit isang beses ay hindi man lang binigay sa akin ng lahat ang kasiyahan na hiling ko"
Wala man lang nag-bigay ng tsansa na maging masaya ako sa mga taong pinapahalagahan ko, mahirap bang ibigay sa akin na gusto ko lang naman e' maging masaya dahil limang taon na akong wala sa sarili ko.
It's a different kind of pain to know that your parents hid their business and the woman you loved is involved, she died because of the unfairness of the world. Wala bang sakit sa lugar na kung nasaan ka ngayon Sienna?
I gave up forever to touch you and your the closest to heaven that I want to feel again, give joy again to my life Sienna. Come back because your are the only solution this can be fix, please fix me and promise that I will do better.
Please, bumalik ka na...masakit na kasi na wala ka.
Kahit ikaw lang ang bumalik ay ayos na ako, kuntento na ako sa'yo.
"Sobrang bigat na ba para sa'yo ang lahat na dahilan pati ang sarili mo ay nagagawa mo ng saktan?" he asked to me and his stare shifted on my arms, nung nakita niya ang mga sugat na ako ang mismong gumawa ay kaagad kong tinago ito.
Yeah, I'm the one who hurt myself. These wounds represents all the pain I'm dealing with, pakiramdam ko kasi kapag sinaktan ko ang sarili ko ay magiging kontento na ang karma sa akin pero hindi pa pala.
"Sa tingin mo ba hindi ko nakita ang mga bubog sa labas ng bahay mo? The red stain on it is your blood, right?" nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil ayoko ng pag-usapan pa kung ano ang ginawa ko sa sarili ko.
Tadtadtarin ko nalang ang sarili ko ng mga sugat at malay mo, mabawasan naman itong sakit na nararamdaman ko. Suicide thoughts? I can't feel anything anymore, parang sa isang iglap ay patay na ang katawan ko.
"Aly, this is not you...hindi ganito ang kaibigan ko--"
"Your friend is gone five years ago already, he lost himself in the woods" pag-putol ko kay Archi na ngayon ay sobra na ang pag-aalala sa akin, I don't even care anymore because I feel that there's no solution for this pain.
Don't worry, this will end if I will give myself to heaven.
"Nabalitaan ko na sangkot rin pala si Sienna sa illegal business ng tatay mo, they are using her body to deliver some drugs--"
"Stop it already, I don't want to hear anymore about her suffering..."
Kung kaya ko sanang iwanan ang lahat ay ginawa ko na, kaso kapag aalis ako ay maiiwan naman ang bahay na ito na kung saan nandito ang presensya ni Sienna. Mas pipiliin ko na manatili kahit masakit na, dito ang tirahan ni Sienna at ginagambala niya ako na gusto ko naman.
Hindi nag-tagal ay umalis na si Archi at sumapit na nga ang gabi kung saan heto nanaman ako, naka-upo sa isang sulok habang umiinom ng alak.
Walang-tigil ang mga luha sa pag-tulo at hindi pa rin magawang bitawan ang litrato ni Sienna.
Your presence haunts me here, bakit ba kasi pinakawalan pa kita?
After five years of finding, malalaman ko lang pala na patay ka na at alam mo kung ano pa ang mas nakakapag-sisi doon? Ang hindi man lang kita naprotektahan sa mga taong nanakit sa'yo.
I get it that you're tired that time but why didn't you let me do the things I want for us?
Ang sabi mo babalik ka kapag maayos na ang lahat pero hindi na pala, hindi ka na pala babalik.
Ikaw lang naman ang babaeng mananatili sa akin, hinding-hindi mabubura ang iyong mga alaala sa akin Sienna.
"Y-You died three years ago and I'm just starting my mourning...please forgive me, Sienna"
Sana may nagawa man lang ako para mapagaan ang loob mo nung panahong nahihirapan ka, sana may nagawa man lang ako kaso naging duwag ako na dahilan para mawala ka.
I shut my eyes and hugged myself on this empty house, ako lang naman ang karamay ko sa sakit na ito at mas mabuting ako nalang ang mag-kikimkim nito kaysa naman may madamay pang iba.
Ayos lang naman kahit na masakit na, ayos lang naman kahit na wala na ako at ayos lang kasi ito naman ang nararapat sa akin pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasang kwestiyunin kung bakit grabe ang bigat?
I sobbed and hugged my knees tightly as if this house is filled with pain, madilim ang paligid na saktong-sakto sa nararamdaman ko.
Ang sakit na 'to na unti-unti na akong pinapatay, ayos lang dahil pagod na rin naman ako.
I cried because this is me, as long as I don't want the world to see me but they already judged me. I cried because this is what I am, nakakaiyak na ito ako. Nakakasuklam ka Alyster Emory Monreal.
Hindi ka katanggap-tanggap, lahat ay iiwan ka dahil sa hindi ka naman katanggap-tanggp. Saglitan lang silang mananatili sa'yo, saglitan ka lang pasasayahin at kapag umalis sila parang isang kutsilyo ang binigay nila bilang simbolo ng pang-iiwan.
"I-I hate myself for leaving you, Sienna"
I don't want to leave you but I have to, I want to go back but I can't because I'm scared that you'll be struggling again because of me.
Before I go, I just want to say that there's nothing you can do to make me feel better. Before this end, I want to say that Sienna is my gem. The only gem that I will take with my last breath, my endgame and the end of myself.
Even though it's a short period of time, you embraced me and I'm thankful that being this villainous you accepted me even though you're hurting already. You're already drowned on your pain but choose to consider me.
Will it be better if I will just disappear? There's a storm to my weather and there's nothing it can make it better. I want to go already but this house is full of you, Sienna.
"T-Take all over me...take everything because I'm tired already"
Let's just end this pain, Aly. Even though this house is full of the woman you loved, you just can't handle it anymore.
"P-Pain will stop after this night...I surrender myself to you, take me already"
"I-I'm done so take me..."
Tumayo ako at kinuha ang isang box kung saan punong-puno ito ng pills, marami ang binuhos ko sa aking kamay na dahilan para magsi-hulog ang mga hindi na kasya sa kamay ko. The white pills is all I have to end this, I want this done already.
I gulped as I saw the pills filling my hand, tears are going down to my cheeks as I looked at it. Maybe taking this will stop the pain, maybe if I will drown myself on this that will be the sign of ending.
Puno ang aking kamay ng mga pills na handa ng lunukin lahat, nanginginig ang kamay ko marahil ito ang gagawin ko sa sarili ko para matapos na lahat, if pain will not stop then I'm the one who will stop this.
Nilapit ko ang mga pills sa bibig ko at unti-unti ng nilulunok ang mga pills, hinihintay ko nalang ang pag-kawala ko sa mundong ito pag-katapos kong lunukin lahat ng ito. Overdose, overdose will be the reason.
Kapag namatay ba ako ay doon lang sila mag-kakaroon ng pakielam at awa?
Maybe it's better if I will be gone, wala na rin namang matitira sa akin kaya ano pa bang saysay ng buhay ko?
Unti-unti ng napupuno ang loob ng bibig ko ng mga pills, walang tigil na ang sarili ko na unti-unti ng nilulunok ang lahat ng gamot na ito na magiging dahilan ng pag-kamatay ko. I hope after this, a paradise is the destination that I will go.
A paradise that there's no pain, a paradise that no one will hurt me with the person I loved.
I cleared my throat when I can feel that the pills are being stuck on it but I kept gulping it even though it hurts already.
Tears are falling down as I shut my eyes to feel this pills taking all over my body, it will be okay if I'm gone already.
My sould will be okay if I'm gone, the walls already broken. The gates will open for my soul and as I will take my last words, the unsaid favor is that I want no one to visit my grave because I don't deserve it.
Just let me be...just let me be one of the angels above the sky.
There's no pain there right?
I want to be with them in the sky and just watch the world.
I coughed a little because of the pills but I don't care at all, I will fill my body with these pills until I can't feel myself anymore. I will drown myself so that everything will be alright, I love you all so please let me go.
"Fuck, Aly!" someone shouted the reason why I opened my eyes and the pills fell on the floor.
I looked to the person who stopped again my death at halos maiyak ako ng makita si Aliyah na nasa harapan ko, hindi ko ba alam kung bakit sa kanya pa ako umiiyak kahit hindi kami malapit sa isa't-isa.
"What are you doing?!" lumapit siya sa akin na para bang kilalang-kilala niya na ako na dahilan para umiyak nalang ako, ang mga tuhod ko ay unti-unti nalang nawalan ng lakas na dahilan para maramdaman ko ang sahig muli.
"W-Why did you stop me again...w-why?!" I cried out loud, tinakpan ko ang mukha ko at humagulgol na para bang isa akong bata na naiwan sa isang carnival. Hindi ko na kaya kaya bakit nanaman siya nandito?
"Why? Why do you want to die?" I felt her sitting again in front of me like yesterday, I cried out loud and nothing can stop these tears because I'm tired already.
"I-I want to stop the pain already...bakit ka nanaman ba nandito?"
She sighed and I felt the warmth of her hand on my arm, when she held it I felt that my crying became a sobbing. Sa pag-hawak niya ay parang unti-unti akong kumalma na hindi ko alam kung bakit, what's with you Aliyah?
"Look at me..." she ordered and I don't no why I did that fast, kaagad akong tumingin sa kanya at nakita ko nanaman ang simple niyang ngiti sa akin. I felt my hear racing as if someone brought my life back, what the hell is happening to me?
Kahapon lang kami nag-kausap ni Aliyah pero bakit ganito na ang nararamdaman ko?
"Yesterday, we talked Architect..." she said with a caress words the reason why I got the chance to stare on her face that resembles someone. My heart is racing but also it has the pain because I can see someone on Aliyah, this is wrong.
"Y-You really love Sienna..." she stuttered for a second and tilted her head on me the reason why my forehead creased and sniffed, what is she talkin about and looking so anxious?
Parang malapit kami sa isa't-isa pero hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang pakikitungo ko sa kanya, the way she talks, the way she smile, the way she's talking down on me gives me chills because she resembled Sienna.
"She's one of the reasons why are you in pain, right?" she asked to me at hinayaan ko nalang na tumango ako bilang sagot, I felt visible on Aliyah because in this night everything is so calm and quiet.
When she came to stop me, everything became light and calm when this woman came all of a sudden as if she's a life-saver. I don't understand what I'm feeling towards this woman, fuck! Kung may nararamdaman man ako sa babaeng 'to ay aalisin ko na dahil gusto kong manatili kay Sienna.
"Paano kapag bumalik siya, anong mangyayare?"
I chuckled and I felt a pain on my chest when she asked if what will happen if Sienna will come back, paano naman siya babalik kung wala na talaga siya?
"Paano siya babalik kung wala na siya--"
"What will happen to you if she will come back?" putol niya sa akin at hindi ko ba maintindihan kung bakit ba siya nakikielam sa buhay ko e' secretary ko lang naman siya, I cleared my throat to answer that. Everything will become pure and happy if she will come back.
"I-I will be happy, of course. She's my gem and my life...even it's just a short period of time for us, I didn't forget her. She's my all and I'm contented, if there's a chance that she will come back then I will be the happiest person in the world"
If she will come back then I will gain my sense, she's my all and the gem that I'm holding until now. Kapag bumalik siya ay doon lang gagana ang utak ko sa lahat ng nangyare, aminin man natin sa hindi ay malaking epekto sa atin ang taong mahal natin.
"If she will come back, then I will do better to make her stay...hindi ko na hahayaan na mawala pa ulit siya sa akin" I'm being visible to this woman that is nothing to me at all, she smiled when I said that and that made me stunned for a second.
She caress my cheek and I can feel the warmth of her travelling all over my body, parang sa isang iglap ay naging magaan ang lahat ng nilagay niya ang kamay sa aking pisngi at hindi ko ba alam kung bakit hindi ko magawang alisin iyon.
She's your secretary, Aly. Ano nanaman ba itong kalokohan mo?
"I came back for you, Aly..." she said all of a sudden the reaso why I became confused, she smiled and her eyes twinkled because of the tears filling it.
"D-Does it make you happy that I came back?" she's speaking non-sense all of a sudden the reason why I shook my head and stood up because I can't understand her anymore. Aliyah Calintaw, you're weird to me and you're giving me some thoughts that I want to erase.
"If you will say non-sense things then you better leave already" I coldly said to her, she stood up and still smiling on me the reason why I got irritated. Why is she being like this? Una, pinigilan niya ang pag-kawala ko tapos ngayon naman ay nililito niya ako.
"Why are you crying on that grave yesterday when it's not me who's buried on it, my Aly?"
She called me my Aly and the tone of her voice echoed on my hand the reason why I was stunned for a second, may distansya sa aming dalawa at heto siya ngayon naka-ngiti at panay ang kinay ng kanyang mga mata dahil sa mga luha.
My, Aly...that voice is her.
What the hell is happening, am I crazy that I'm imagining that it's Sienna that I'm talking with?
I shook my head and became cold to her, if she's trying to make me crazy then she better go because I'm getting irritated already. Pumunta siya dito para pigilan ang pag-papakamatay ko tapos ngayon ay kung ano-ano ang sinasabi niya na para bang pinag-tritripan niya ako.
"Y-You're talking non-sense... Aliyah" my voice stuttered for a second as if her words are enchanted to me, stop fooling me because I'm in pain already.
Huwag ka ng mag-loko, hindi ka ba naaawa sa sitwasyon ko?
"Aly, it's me...it's your Sienna, I came back" I shut my eyes because she's trying to fool me, I get irritated when she said that she's Sienna at kahit na nakikita ko sa kanya si Sienna ay imposible. Ano, pinag-lalaruan mo ako?
I chuckled the reason why her smile fade away, sa tingin niya nakakatuwang niloloko niya ako? I'm in pain already at mas lalo niya lang akong sinasaktan, anong karapatan niya para gamitin si Sienna?
"Stop talking non-sense and leave already, why are you even doing here? Why are you using Sienna's name, she's not even alive anymore--"
"I am, I'm alive and the one who's buried on that grave is someone. I survived the explosion, Aly!" sa sigaw niyang may kasama ng pag-piyok na dahilan para mas lalo akong matawa at mairita na pinag-lalaruan niya ako.
All of a sudden she cried, humikbi siya at papikit-pikit na ang mga mata dahil sa mga luhang lumalabas dito. Huminto ang pag-tibok ko sa saglit at biglang bumungad ang isang ulan na kasabay ng aking sakit na nararamdaman ngayon.
"I-It's me...it's Sienna, I'm alive..." she cried out loud at pilit niyang tinatakpan ang mukha niya para doon umiyak habang ako ay ramdam ko ang pag-bigat ng pag-hinga ko dahil sa boses niyang kagaya nga ng sa taong mahal ko.
Nung tinakpan niya ang kanyang mukha ay doon ko nakita ang babaeng mahal ko sa isang iglap, I shut my eyes for a second but when I opened it parehong-pareho sila ni Sienna. Ang kanyang boses, ang katawan niya, ang leeg niya na lagi kong hinahalikan, ang lahat ng sa kanya ay parang biglang bumalik sa akin.
What the hell is happening?
Tumaas ang balahibo ko at hindi makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko habang pinag-mamasdan siya na umiyak sa harapan ko "I-I came back for you and seeing you being like this hurts me...I know I need to fix you but I can't because you will be shocked on how I changed"
My lower lip trembled because her voice reminds me of Sienna but her face is different now, her look is different on me. Paano niya nasabing siya si Sienna kung hindi ko naman makita ang mukha ng babaeng mahal ko?
"I-I'm sorry that you're dealing this pain because I left you five years ago, I'm really sorry"
I'm catching my breath as I looked to this woman who is crying and saying that she's Sienna, bakit nararamdaman ko ang pag-lambot ng puso ko sa nakikita kong babae ngayon? She's not Sienna, the face is different then how come?
"I-I'm really sorry that you suffered...you suffered because of me, you have these panic attacks that I brought to you when I was gone for five years, I'm really sorry Aly" inalis niya na ang kamay na tumatakip sa kanyang mukha at hinarap ako.
Tumigil ang lahat ng masilayan ko nanaman ang mukha niya at parang sa isang iglap ay umukit ang mukha ni Sienna sa babaeng ito, her face changed and I don't know if it's true that she's the woman I loved.
"I-It's okay that you don't believe me for now, sino nga bang maniniwala sa akin na ako si Sienna kung iba ang mukha ko?" masakit niyang sabi at pilit nalang na ngumiti sa akin, sa isang iglap ay heto nanaman ang puso ko na para bang sasabog na.
She sobbed and shut her eyes for a second trying to find the words she will say to me "I changed my face because I have to, I have to change everything just to come back for you"
"How can you say that you're Sienna, that's impossible so stop fooling me. Hindi mo ba nakikita ang sitwasyon ko ngayon at nakuha mo pa akong lokohin?" hindi ko alam kung bakit nagiging masama nanaman ako kahit sinasabi ng puso ko na paniwalaan siya.
Ayokong maniwala, ayokong malinlang. Ayoko na, huwag mo akong lokohin.
I'm being hard on her trying to protect myself on her villainous actions. No, I won't believe you because you're just someone and you're not gonna fool me with those cries.
"R-Remeber you said to me that you want me to be your endgame, you said that you will make it happen Aly"
"Remember the day we dated in Bulacan?"
"Remember, we bid a goodbye to each other after I withdraw the case for rape?"
Kahit kaunti lang ang sinasabi niya ay tugmang-tugma iyon sa mga nakaraan ko at hindi ko maiwasang masaktan dahil lahat ng mga sinasabi niya ay nangyare.
"Remember the day I cried because someoene embraced me for who am I?"
"Remember the day you begged me to stay on your father's case?"
I shut my eyes because this pain is just too real and this woman is making this night miserable, isa ka lang sa babaeng gumugulo sa isipan ko pero bakit nanlalambot ang puso ko sa mga pinapaalala mo sa akin sa nakaraan ko?
Lahat ng mga sinasabi mo ay tugma sa nakaraan pero bakit hindi pa rin ako naniniwala? Are you really Sienna?
"I-I survived the explosion but my family didn't, namatay sila kaya wala ng natira sa akin..."
"Wala na si mama at Mimi, n-namatay sila dahil sa pag-sabog at ako lang ang nabuhay"
"Even though five years passed...ikaw pa rin ang iniibig ko Aly, kahit nasaktan ako ikaw pa rin"
"I did everything just to come back because I know you're waiting"
Sumagi sa isipan ko ang mga masasamang sinabi ko sa kanya noon na dahilan para mag-kahiwalay kami, Vien said to me that they met and Sienna said a favor to her that she will come back if everything is already okay.
"I-I said to Vien to keep an eye on you while I'm gone, pinigilan ko ang sarili ko na huwag munang mag-pakita sa'yo dahil alam kong hindi pa puwede"
"Bakit ka bumalik sa pagiging isang sex worker?" ngayon ko lang nalaman na sinaktan siya ng mga tao na pinag-katiwalaan niya at hindi ko maiwasang masaktan, pareho lang kaming nasasaktan.
Kapag ba ganito na ang nang-yayare sa amin ay ipipilit pa ba namin ang sarili namin sa isa't-isa. I want her to stay but this pain is too real, masasaktan lang namin ang isa't-isa kapag pinag-patuloy pa namin.
We want to grow but can we do that when we are together? Bakit ngayon na nakabalik ka na nga ay bakit tinutululak nanaman kita palayo?
"The police are investigating you, they said that you're abused and a seller of drugs. They are putting drugs in your body and you will send it to other countries, why did you do that?"
"Bakit nakipag-ugnayan ka parin sa pamilya ko kung alam mong masasaktan ka?"
Those questions are hurting her but I want a fucking answer, kung siya nga talaga si Sienna ay masasagot niya na lahat ng tanong ko. Kakayanin ko pa bang malaman ang lahat kung ubos na ako?
I can't feel anything on her for now because she's different already, she changed her face and came to my company. Wala na akong maramdaman na ganito ang sinapit niya, nakakaawa kaming dalawa.
"Y-Your father used my body to send drugs...I came back on being a sex worker because I have to, bumalik nanaman ako sa buhay kong pinag-sisihan ko"
"I have nothing to go, a-ang sabi ko hindi na ako babalik sa club na 'yun pero wala akong nagawa. Everything collapsed when we bid goodbyes to each other..."
Seeing a different woman in front of me, I can't feel anything anymore. Parang sa sinabi niyang siya si Sienna ay parang wala na akong naramdaman, ang laki ng pinag-bago niya na dahilan para magalit ako sa sarili ko.
"I didn't know that you're father is already taking Mr. Cheng's club, they manipulated me just to send drugs on those foreigners!"
"Your father forced me to put drugs inside of my body, hindi niya ako magawang pakawalan. Even though your father is imprisoned already that time... nagawa niya pa rin ang mga plano niya!"
"Alam mo bang nakakalabas siya ng kulungan at nagagawa pa ring gawin ang ilegal niyang negosyo..."
I can't believe that she's saying this to me, paanong nakakalabas si daddy sa kulungan e' bantay sarado siya. Kahit nasa kulungan ay nagagawa niya pa rin ang plano niya, ano bang klaseng tao ang mga magulang ko?
"Your father is also selling drugs inside the bilibid and he had connections with the police there the reason why he can still do the tradings of drugs!"
I can visualize Sienna being used for a sender of drugs and I felt pain on my chest, I shut my eyes because of the happenings that she's revealing.
Ang sakit, sobrang sakit na lahat ng iyon ay naranasan niya habang ako ay nag-papakalunod sa sakit na ito na pag-hiwalay namin.
"I-I begged your parents not to use me, to not use my body for the sending of drugs but they forced me... I was begging on them but your parents didn't listen"
She cried talking about her past and I can't believe that every detail gives me pain. I can imagine her begging for my parents to not do the tradings but my parents didn't listen.
"Y-You didn't know how cruel your parents are Aly, they wrecked everything left on me... your parents ruined us both"
"I suffered on their hands, I was begging but your parents didn't listen... they almost killed me and threatened my family..."