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There were a lot of things to consider when Yoongi tried to come up with his opinion on Bang PD. On one hand, he was a genius producer who hand-picked Yoongi from the contestants on the Hit It! auditions. The rapper was beyond thankful for that because now he had an agency, although cramped and with massive financial struggles, that supported him. On the other hand, however, Yoongi had a lot of things that he didn't like about the CEO of Bighit.
One of them certainly was that Bang PD wanted him to become an idol.
Yoongi did not want to become an idol. Being an idol meant being pretty, something that he knew that he wasn't. Of course he had his moments when he looked in the mirror and found himself admiring his features, but idols were different. They had to have top notch visuals. They had to dance and perform. Yoongi did think that his rapping had improved, but he certainly wasn't at performance level. Bang PD had promised him that his rapping would get there, but Yoongi felt differently.
His rapping would improve, but he would never be able to dance at the idol level. His dancing was decent. But he had seen this other trainee, named Jung Hoseok, who lived and breathed dance. Yoongi would never compare to that level.
He tried not to think about performing. The rapper thought of him as shy, and honestly, he didn't really know how to make people scream their lungs off. Surely just standing there and fiddling with your sleeves wouldn't make people start clapping.
He bet that if he became an idol, his group would never go far. Yes, pessimism was one of his traits.
And he was also willing to bet that he would make a fool of himself in front of his members.
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"Yoongi, I'm waiting!"
"I'm coming!"
Yoongi scrambled to take his headphones off, getting up from his seat as fast as he could. Bang PD was behind the door with a big smile on his face.
"The kids are all excited to see their Yoongi-hyung that they have heard so much about!"
"Kids? How old are these people that you're putting me with? Surely I'm not going to be the grandpa of this group?"
Bang PD laughed. His eyes sparkled behind his round glasses. "That's not what I meant! To me, you guys are all kids. You're not even the oldest one there!"
Yoongi sighed and rolled down his sleeves. He didn't want to meet anybody right now. To be honest, he would rather wear Converse than meet anybody new. He followed the producer as they walked down a hallway to the room where the other members were.
"Relax." Bang PD chuckled. "You've seen some of them around. Rap Monster, you know him right?"
"He's in the group?"
"Of course."
The smallest wave of relief went through Yoongi. Rap Monster, or Namjoon, was a wonderful friend who Yoongi had come to trust. He was younger than Yoongi, but he was smart and had clear plans for the future.
"Do I know any of the others?"
Bang PD shook his head. "Not unless you met them during individual schedules."
"Then no."
The producer grinned. "I knew it."
He pushed a door open and they stepped in. The room was empty, save for six young men sitting in a circle in the middle of the room.
One of them with uneven eyelids and an infectious boxy smile, waved as soon as Yoongi laid eyes on him. He was attractive even though there was a goofy glint in his gaze.
"I'm Taehyung! You can call me V for short!"
Yoongi nodded. He couldn't really figure out what to say, so he offered a small smile in return, hoping that he didn't come off as awkward.
"Why don't you guys introduce yourselves in order and say something that you enjoy doing?" Bang PD called from the side.
"Okay, I'll start then." Namjoon said. "Hi, everyone! My name is Kim Namjoon or Rap Monster. I like writing lyrics."
The shy boy beside him cleared his throat and took a deep breath. He had a nice frame, complete with wide shoulders. His face had a sign of maturity in it, unlike the others. "My name is Seokjin, Jin for short. I love to eat!"
The boys laughed at Jin's proud statement. Jin looked a bit overwhelmed by the others' giggles, but he managed to crack a smile nevertheless. Yoongi glanced carefully at him but when Jin caught his eye, the rapper quickly looked away. Shame flooded over him and Yoongi could feel his face starting to turn red. He shook his head. He tried to focus on the other boys as they talked.
He quickly learned the boys's names. The short boy with the adorable chubby cheeks and muscles was Jimin, the boy with huge bambi eyes was Jungkook and the sad-looking one with the baseball hat was the dancer that Yoongi had seen before, Jung Hoseok. The rapper wondered why he looked so unhappy. The boy could dance like a king, why did he look so sad?
It was Yoongi's turn and he still hadn't thought of what he was going to say. He glanced at the other boys who waited patiently for him to start speaking.
The rapper inhaled shakily. He just knew that he was going to come off as awkward, as a loser who joined the agency with a stupid dream to be a producer. These kids were going to become idols, and he would forever be Yoongi at the back.
"Aren't you going to talk?" Jimin asked. He cocked his head, staring at Yoongi with curious eyes.
Yoongi licked his lips. He patted his thigh awkwardly trying to think of something to say. He could feel the others staring at him and he started to sweat. Through his shirt, his skin heated up and his face turned red. His mind was completely blank.
"What's your name?" Taehyung asked. "You must have one."
Yoongi could notice that his hands had started to shake. The boys were judging him, he could tell. Yoongi was the shaky one, the one who got nervous introducing himself to the people who he would spend time training with.
"Yoongi?" Namjoon was beside him whispering in his ear. "Are you alright?
"Yeah." Yoongi swallowed hard and tried to control his shaking voice. "Hi guys..."
Hoseok shot him a strange look. Yoongi couldn't read the emotions in his expression, but it looked like the dancer wasn't too pleased with Yoongi's introduction. The rapper needed to hurry up otherwise the others would hate him too.
"Hi guys," Yoongi's voice shook like a leaf, but he forged ahead. "My name is Min Yoongi or... Suga, yeah Suga, that's uh...my...stage name, yeah. I like...writing and making music."
Jimin sighed and nodded. They didn't look too interested in the rapper frankly. Only Namjoon reacted to his words anyways. Or it might have just been Yoongi's disappointed mind which didn't notice Jin and Tae flash supportive smiles in his direction.
"Okay, so now that's done. What should we do now?"
"Let's say where we're all from." Hoseok said quietly. He glanced up to see Yoongi staring at the floor. "I say Yoongi should start." The dancer stopped for a second when Yoongi sighed. "Wait, Yoongi are you my hyung?"
Yoongi didn't want to start. He hadn't really recovered from his previous speaking experience and he sure didn't want to mess something up again.
"Yoongi, how old are you?"
"Oh, ah, haha. Sorry, I wasn't paying attention." The rapper paused. "I'm...nineteen."
A chorus of "oohs" came from the boys who sat forward in their chairs to listen to Yoongi closer.
Hoseok smiled gently, his eyes full of warmth. "Then you're my hyung."
"Let's say where we're from along with how old we are." Namjoon said. His eyes sparkled.
Yoongi took a deep breath. "I'm from Daegu."
"Same here!"
The rapper looked up to see Tae's excited face light up with a bright grin. Yoongi was happy that the others were reacting to his words.
Jin had his mouth over his mouth as Tae quickly continued, "I'm sixteen by the way."
"I'm from Busan. I'm also sixteen."
Jungkook's wide eyes widened further when he heard Jimin's statement. "I'm also from Busan!" He shyly glanced around after his yell. Yoongi could see the slight trace of fear in his eyes. "I'm fifteen."
Jin exhaled loudly. "I'm nineteen. I think I'm probably the oldest here because I'm turning twenty this year. I was born in Gwacheon."
Jungkook, who Yoongi figured must be the maknae, giggled with a hand over his mouth. Jin sent him a mock glare in return.
Yoongi gazed around the room. He could feel his heart rate slowing down gradually and himself starting to relax.
"Hi guys, my name is Jung Hoseok as I've said before. I'm eighteen and from Gwangju." the said man exclaimed. The sad look in his eyes remained much to Yoongi's dismay, but at least the dancer was trying to appear happy.
Namjoon cleared his throat. "I'm seventeen, but I'm turning eighteen in a week. And I'm from Ilsan."
"Happy early birthday!" Jimin cheered. Yoongi clapped along.
Yoongi shared a look with Bang PD in the corner. The producer had been right. The boys had won over his heart, though he was still slightly nervous around them.
Even though he would probably always be the awkward one at the back, Yoongi would do it if he got to stay with these boys who had not made fun of him at first glance.
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