Zayn's P.O.V
I was staring into her eyes. Avianna's gorgeous eyes. I didn't know what to do or what we were going to do.
I slowly moved my hands across her cheeks, as she started to blush like crazy.
She got closer to my lips my heart began to beat fast like it was going to fly out of my chest. I began to feel goosebumps on my skin and butterflies realease in my stomach as our lips touched.
Her lips were so soft, so sweet, and I've been waiting for this for weeks. And I finally got it. Even though I was feeling pleasure in this kiss, I also felt sick to my stomach with guilt. I loved my Belina but Avianna is just incredible.
I knew nothing good was going to come out if this. But the way our lips moved together made me keep going.
She rubbed her hands all around my bare chest giving me more goosebumps. I couldnt control my hand so i moved them all around her chest and started to pull her shirt up. She let me continue until she pulled away and just stared at me.
"No Zayn, we can't-we didn't - I have a boyfriend and you have a girlfriend." She said almost close to tears.
"I know, i'm sorry." I said
"This never happened ok." She got up and left the room.
I groaned and flopped down on the bed. This was a bad move, and things will never be the same again.
I felt so sick with guilt that I got up and went into the bathroom I throw up.
How would things get better from this? I knew I was going to lose people from that single kiss. And I knew it was going to take a whole lot I gain them back
I walked out the bathroom after brushing my teeth and walked into the kitchen were everyone was eating brunch. My eyes immediately went towards Avianna. She showed a nervous but happy emotion.
I couldn't help it, I was pretty scared too, but I'm happy that I kissed her.
"Hey you hungry mate?" Liam asked me
I shook my head "I'll just make myself some tea."
"I'll make it." Harry said
I smiled at him and at down next to Belina.
This is going to be horrid. I just kissed Avianna, but then I still have to be a boyfriend towards Belina! One bad thing leads to another.
"Hey babe." I kissed her cheek
"Hey." He smiled kissing my lips
I got out of the kiss feeling uncomfortable. I think she sensed it because she gave me a little face.
"You guys done??" Paige joked
I stuck my tongue out at her "Oh please."
"Guys we have to get ready soon." Niall pointed out
"Ugh why." Avianna groaned
"Because you have too. So everyone get home and get ready!" Niall demanded
We all left the flat as I watched Avianna go to the flat with Belina. I felt so bad, it could be nothing but awkward for her.
Avianna's P.O.V
I kissed Zayn.
That was running threw my mind all afternoon. And the worse part was I was going to the flat with Belina. And all I wanted to say was 'I kissed your boyfriend'.
I feel like such a cheater. I went from kissing my boyfriend telling him I love him, to kissing someone who I think I have feelings for also.
Instead I faked a smile and talked to her like we regularly did.
"I feel like I haven't been in the flat forever." She said pinning up her hair
"We'll you haven't, you've been with Zayn." I said
"Your not annoyed by that, are you?" She asked
I shook my head "you have every right to be with your boyfriend." I said feeling a little bit angry and jealous.
I was jealous!? Of them!?
"We'll today I promise to be with you because the boys were saying were going to the club tonight." She smiled
I wasn't up for the club. Due to everything that has happened.
"Oh and the girls wanted to go shopping too.".
I slightly groaned and smiled "They always want to do something!"
"Well unless you enjoy being alone in a flat for the evening , go right ahead, dont go clubbing tonight."
I rolled my eyes "I never said i didnt want to go Belina"
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We just finished prcticing and i was tired as hell. They worked us so damn hard that i couldnt even move from lying down on the stage eyes closed and breathing heavy.
"Are you going to stay here all night?" I didnt really make out who it was but it sounded like Harry.
I took "Harry's" hand and opened my eyes to be actually facing Zayn. My heart began to race but in a good pleasurable way. I liked this feeling.
He just made me feel speechless but happy at the same time. I couldnt control my feelings, but i had to because of Eli and Belina. But i didnt see them anywhere, in fact it looked like everyone was heading on their way out. It seemed like i was safe to do whatever i wanted.
"You alright?" He asked me smiling slightly, staring into my eyes
"Yea, i'm fine just a littl tired." I looked down at our hands still locked together so i started ro rub my fingers around in his palm.
He looked down at our hands and laughed a little. I blushed and took my hand away from his grasp and started to walk away from him, feeling him watching.
"Avianna?" He asked me lowly
I turned around bitting my lip containing myself from kissing him"Yes?"
"About the kiss i um kind of liked it and i kind of like you."
I watched his lips as he spoke and it took everything inside of me not to kiss him back. I wanted to tell him i liked him too but that would be leading him on and that is the last thing i want to do right now. I love Eli and i just need to keep telling myself that.
"Well you shouldnt." I said
"I know but i do and i'm just really confused."
i went in for a hug "I'm sorry Zayn but we cant happen." i moved my lips slowly in front of his lips and moved over to his cheek.
I turned on my heel and started to walk away again, looking back at him one more time and seeing the hurt look on his face almost made me break down.
Thats was the most hardest decision i have ever made.
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Zayn's P.O.V
I didn't feel up I going to club anymore but the boys basically dragged me out into the car. We were going to meet the girls at the club so it was just us guys for now.
"Zayn why aren't you happy?! Harry whined
I thought for a minute to make up a lie "I just have a headache."
"Aww my poor baby." Louis squealed
"Then maybe the club isn't the best idea for you then." Liam said
"Why wouldn't it be" Niall asked stupidly
"Niall club= loud music and drinks you shoul not drink when you have a headache" Liam snapped
"Yea Niall, think." Harry teased
Niall pouted "i'll be quiet then.
"No I like hearing your Irish accent." Louis smiled cheekily
Niall laughed
"So Zayn do you want to go back to the flat?" Liam asked again
"Ehh I think I am ok but if I gets worse i'll let you know." I winked at him
"So everyone ready to get wased!!??" Harry yelled
"YEA!!!!" Niall and Louis yelled
"I can't I have to drive you pricks home!? Liam said rather annoyed
I laughed "And i'm in a condition."
We go into the club and saw our ladies waiting for us at the bar.
"What took so long babe?" Paige yelled to Liam
"Ask Zayn." He answered
Paige looked at me "Well?"
"I kind of protested going at first." I yelled
"Why?" Eleanor asked
"Poor little Zayn has a headache." Louis said in a baby voice.
"Zayn I have you know the club is not the best place to be when you have a headache." Nina smirked
Stuck my tongue out at her and walked over to the beautiful Avianna. She looked so sexy in her shiny black jeggings, purple dress shirt, and tall black heels, sipping her green apple martini.
"Hey." I yelled
"Hey Zayn." She gave me an uncomfortable glare
"I like your outfit!" I tried to yell over the music
"What!?"
"You look nice in your outfit!" I yelled again
"I'm sorry Zayn I really can't hear you."
"I THINK YOU LOOK REALLY SEXY IN YOUR OUTFIT!" I yelled louder than I did the other times. I was hoping no one else heard that but me.
She blushed "Thank you, and I think you look very handsome.
I continued to talk to her until Eli came to barge into the conversation. So I went over to be with my girlfriend.
Soon by now we were all I the edge talking and laughing like crazy. We all did about sixth shots and it felt great (speaking that I never really had a headache)
Louis took his last shot and smiled "I'm ready to dance!"
"Let's go! Eleanor yelled as we all ran to the dance floor.
I felt so free so great as I danced close to Belina. I looked around to find Avianna and Eli and they're dancing was in sync and passionate.
Compared to Belina I looked like a duck with two left feet. But as soon as one I my favorite songs ( Feel So Close By: Calvin Harris) I started to go crazy, I started to feel a little dizzy but I completely ignored it!The lights made it pretty hard to see but I saw Eli trying hard to keep Avianna up. I ran over to see what was up.
"What happened!?" I yelled
"She just lost it, she drank too much."
"Let me go, I'm all goodies." She laughed
Yes she was. I couldn't help but laugh from the dirty thought I just got.
"Someone should take her home." Niall said
"I will!" Louis laughed hysterically
"Oh please you can hardly stand." Liam yelled
"I'll take her!" I volunteered
"You sure Zayn?" Eli asked
"Yes you guys have fun, my head is starting to hurt a little, and anyway she did this for me once so it's good to return the favor.
Eli gave me a glare when I said this and I couldn't help but smirk a little. I will have Avianna for myself!
"Here." He placed her in my arms
"Cab is on its way Zayn," Liam told me
"Ok guys i'll wait outside."
I walked outside and waited for the cab to come. When it did I got into the car and placed her on my lap eager to get to her flat
A/N: Hey guys, I know its not Friday but i felt like updating today just because i am in such a GREAT mood!! ... Anywho, sorry if there are alot of mistakes, i am really to lazy to read over the chapter! :P BYEE! Comment, Vote, Fan!! <3