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Carl's POV
I woke up to her sleeping with her head on my shoulder. I grabbed her phone and set it on the table and realized that he wasn't sitting there anymore.
I grabbed the blanket and lifted her legs up onto the couch then spread the blanket out onto her. Her head went to my lap and I looked down at her. I moved the few peices of hair out of her face and smiled at her.
I wanted to kiss her so bad but I knew I couldn't. Sometimes I wonder why I let myself loose her but I can't seem to find an answer for it.
I look back down at her and see her lips parted. I start to think unholy thoughts that make me hard but then I try to think about everything but how close her face is to my dick and what I would do to her if she was awake and single.
I look back down at her and it only makes it worse. I look back up and feel terrible for sexualizing her when she's asleep. It finally goes away and I look at the time. We have two hours before we have to leave.
I start to think about how long she might take to get ready and what she has to do then debate whether or not I should wake her up. I decided after like half an hour of thinking that it's for the best and shake her.
"Wake up." She stirs and looks up at me. "Just a few more minutes." She turns so her face is to my stomach then pulled the blanket up further over her, closing her eyes again. I smile down at her. "Yeah, and that's gonna turn into a few more minutes."
"I promise, just a few more and then we can get up and I'll not put my head so close to your dick." I laughed and furrowed my brow. "What?" She continued to lay there and didn't answer me so I asked her again. "What?" "I don't even know."
I got up and she grabbed my wrist. I looked down at her and she was looking up at me with her tired eyes.
"Don't go. Just a few more minutes." I smiled at her. "I'm not going anywhere." She let go and curled back up, closing her eyes falling back to sleep.
I looked at my phone then picked her up. She didn't fight back. I walked us up the stairs and to her bedroom. I kicked the door open and walked over to her bed. I moved the covers and layed her down she didn't let go if me so I tried to pull her off but she held on tighter.
"We're here." "I know." "You gonna let go?" "No." She pulled me in, closing the space between us and I laughed. "Will you hold me?" My eyes widened. "Um.. I-" "Please, just for a little bit." "Okay." I kicked my shoes off and she was still holding onto me.
I tapped her sides. "Let me go so I can lay down." She was hesitant. "I'm not going anywhere." She was hesitant but this time eventually let go but held onto my wrist the whole time. She looked at me as I moved over her and under the covers. "Okay." She leaned her head against my chest and wrapped her arms around my waist. I wrapped my arms around her neck.
She looked at me. "Like we used to." My eyes widened and my mouth dropped. She remembers how we used to cuddle. I start to think about how I shouldn't be doing this with her and how she might regret all of this. My silence must have been a signal.
"Please, I want you..." I looked at her. "... I want you to, please." I nod my head and slowly move my hands to her hips. She closes her eyes and moves her head to the crock of my neck and puts her leg on top of mine. "You smell good." "Thanks." She exhales. "I love you baby." She whispered it but I still heard it.
She pulls me closer, closing the space between us once again and moves my hand to her thigh. I blush at her action and try my hardest not to get a boner. I finally just relax and accept it and pull her leg up to a comfortable spot and pull her closer then close my eyes.
I missed this so fucking much. I can feel her warm breath on my neck each time she exhales. My heart is beating so hard, I can feel it against my rib cage.
What is she thinking?! Does she know what this does to me?! Does she know what this makes me want to do to her?
The way her leg is propped up on my hip, how close my hand is to her ass, how when her breath hits my neck my heart beats faster, how her dress is falling off her shoulder exposing her boobs, which are spilling out of her strapless bra, how fucking hard she makes me.
I moan out as she rubs against me when she shifted. I bite my lip and hope she didn't hear it. I can hear my heart beating in my ears and I feel like I'm about to explode. I close my eyes trying to think about something else besides how close she is but all I see is her standing there with her dress opened, exposing her strapless bra and matching black underwear, from earlier.
I open my eyes quickly and her lips brush agaisnt my neck the spot tingles and I can't take anymore of it. I let go of her leg and move away from her trying not to wake her up and go to the bathroom.
I close the door behind me and lean against it. "What the fuck is happening to me?" I whisper it. I look down at my boner and run my hands through my hair, sighing.
I splashed water on my face then dried it off and looked in the mirror. It was still there no matter how hard I tried to get it to go away.
I sat down on the toilet and unzipped my pants pulling them down. It sprang up and I grabbed it going up and down. I closed my eyes and the same picture came back to mind.
I imagined her sucking me off, while looking up at me. It felt so real. I went faster and eventually let go, breathing heavily and saying her name under my breath.
I cleaned up and washed my hands. I leaned my head back. "I need to get fucked, and quick." I walked out of the bathroom and went back to cuddling her after checking the time. I pulled her dress up so her boobs wouldn't be showing anymore and she looked up at me.
"What are you doing?" "I was fixing your dress, your boobs were out." "Oh.." she smiled and closed her eyes. "What?" "Nothing." "Tell me." "I thought you liked that." I smiled at her. "Just like you like this dick." "Yes, daddy." She moaned it, making my eyes widened. She looked at me. "Gotcha." "I hate you." "I love you too."
I jolt at her words remembering the ones from earlier. She looks up at me. "What time is it?" I reach over her and grab my phone and check the time then put it back down and come back. "7:50." "When are we leaving?" "Around like eight but closer to nine." "An hour. Okay." "You want a few more minutes?" "No, we need to get up and I told you only a few more minutes."
So she does remember what she said.
"Is that all you remember?" "No." "You know how we got here?" "Yeah, I wanted you to." Was she wake the whole time? I debate if I should ask her but don't. "You gonna get up?" "Eventually, I like it here....." She takes a long pause. "It's warm and cozy." Why did she hesitate? "Oh." "You smell good." "You said that earlier." "Oh, well you do." So she wasn't awake the whole time. "Thanks."
We layed there for a few more minutes until she turned around and wrapped my arm around her. Her ass was on my dick and my arm was pressed against her boob. She had to be messing with me now. She had grabbed her phone but I couldn't see over her shoulder.
She sighed and sat up holding her dress at the top. She fixed it and looked over her shoulder at me. I smiled at her and she smiled back at me then she got up and fixed her clothes then went over to her vanity and fixed her hair then went to the bathroom.
She came out and came to sit back on the bed. She sat leaning against the headboard with her legs stretched out and the covers over her.
"Why'd you wake me up when we still have a whole nother hour?" "I didn't know what you had to do." "You could have just asked." "Yeah some of the answers you were giving me just weren't it."
We sat there. "You wanna know something?" I looked up at her as a response to her question. "You're so fucking handsome." "You wanna know something?" "What?" "You're so fucking beautiful." She leaned in and tilted my face up towards hers. "We can't." "I know."
She stayed that close. "Can I ask you something?" I nodded. "Why did you do it?" "I don't know, but believe me when I say I regret every second of it and I hate that I let you go." She was silent for a few minutes. "Yeah." She sighed then leaned her forehead agaisnt mine. "Is that it?" "I don't know what you want me to say. I'm in a relationship and I can't have both of you, I'm not gonna just break up with Joey for no reason, and the second he leaves I shouldn't get to come back to you. I don't deserve that, it's not right."
I grabbed her. "I understand. I don't know what else I wanted from you but know that you deserve way more than what you get and I would go to the ends of the earth if that's what it took to give it to you." "I fucking love you and it hurts so bad." "Tell me about it."
She pulled away and sat on the edge of the bed with her head in her hands. I rubbed her back. "Please." "What?" "I.. can you leave my room?" I looked at her. She was putting her barrier back up, the same barrier that was up the first time we met in second grade, and everytime I wronged her. I hated when she put it up cause it made it hard for anyone to get to her. "Talk to me." I moved closer to her and she stood up.
"Go, please." She wouldn't make eye contact with me. "Please, talk to me." I grabbed onto her waist. She pushed me away and I stumbled. "Go, please." She opened the door and pushed me out when I didn't move. She closed it and I grabbed the handle as quick as I could but she had already locked it. I leaned my head agaisnt it. "What the fuck?" I hate it when she gets like this.
(Authors Note)
What will happen next? Keep reading to find out.
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