I looked at Jake assessing him. He looked nervous.
I vaguely remembered Drake saying something about him seeing me as a potential partner or something.
And that Jason got really agitated when he came next to me.
Drake asked me to let him down gently as he seemed to have some fancy notions.
I wouldn't prefer to do this now, especially after fighting with my mutt of a mate.
But oh well, as good a time as any other I guess.
Besides my mood was pretty much the same every day, just different shade of the same emotions-
Anger, irritation, agitation, frustration, the need to beat someone up and the need to kill someone(most of the time Blaze, closely followed by Jason.)
So he might have caught me at a better time in my spectrum of emotions.
He cleared his throat, bringing me out of my reverie.
"I... think you are my mate.: he blurted out.
What!
Of all the things, that was unexpected. I almost let my mouth hang open.
"Second chance mate!" He said, correcting himself almost immediately.
Ok, now he was just being ridiculous.
I rolled my eyes reaching for the door again.
"Wait." He said, jamming himself between my door and myself.
Now he was just asking for it.
"Look I know this sounds crazy but I honestly feel a connection with you. Don't you feel it too?" He asked me with a pleading look.
I raised an eyebrow.
"Maybe it's late for you." He mumbled rubbing his neck with a spoilt expression on his face.
Wait... is this what I think it is?
Does he...?
"Or it's just a crush," I said with a smirk.
"WHAT?" He asked a blush blooming on his face.
"No, it's, it's..." he said frantically.
"Tell me, have you had a crush before?" I teased.
"Of course I have, I am always with the ladies!" He defended.
"You are with the ladies I know that but that's not my question, I am asking have you ever had a crush before?"
"Um... " He trailed off as if trying really hard to remember if he had that sort of attention on someone.
That settles it then.
No wonder Drake calls him naive!
This idiot mistook a crush for a mate-bond. There is a multitude of differences between them both!
His mate would have to appear for him to understand.
I sighed pushing him away. Standing here in this bikini was awful. Especially since I was wet. And had sand in places I didn't it could be in.
Thanks to Blaze pushing me down.
"But even if that's the case, Zara, I am willing to be with you." He said stopping me in my tracks.
"We could be a team, you and I. A power couple of sorts." He wiggled his eyebrows.
And Jake was back to his normal self.
"And your mate won't be too pleased when she is here," I said.
"If she is here. And if it's you it wouldn't be too bad." He said almost shyly.
Must be the pick-up line he uses with most girls.
That's when I caught my mate's scent in the air.
He was here. AGAIN.
So irritating!
But he wasn't approaching us. He was behind the cottage next to us.
Probably listening in.
Stupid mutt.
Couldn't give me peace of mind even for a few seconds!
"Look, Jake, it's never gonna happen between us. So I suggest you get over your little crush. And whether the fact that your mate is somewhere out there is none of my concern, nor the fact that she appears anytime soon. All I know is that I am not a home-wrecker. Just because my mate bond fell apart doesn't mean yours should too. And believe me, however much you like me if we get together and she shows up, you will be torn. That's just how it is." I told my speech.
He had a range of emotions while I spoke. He opened his mouth to refute.
"Mate-bond is a beautiful thing, trust me. " I interrupted him.
"And it's worth the wait," I said shivering as a wind passed by us.
My mate bond had a pleasant feeling to it. Blaze liked what I just spoke. Can he be more lame?
I just said that to appease the idiot in front of me. And another idiot fell for it too.
I wanted to facepalm myself.
Jake had noticed my tremble as he immediately offered me his t-shirt. I could feel the sudden tension in the mate bond. His Moodswings! He was pissed.
AGAIN. That didn't take much. Besides, being angry all the time was my thing. Or it's a wolf thing, I don't know.
I did not have the energy to deal with anymore Blaze for today. I pushed Jake's hand away.
Partly because I didn't want him to get beaten up for doing something nice and partly because it was his fault I was standing here soaking wet with nothing but a two-piece in front of my cottage.
I nodded at him and turned to open the door.
He looked like a heart-broken puppy. But I meant what I said and I was glad I got it over with.
He shouldn't throw away a chance at happiness because of me.
The thought surprised me.
If Jake had told me this when I arrived I probably would have said yes.
Not to actually be with him but to break his heart.
To hurt him.
And I would have egged on a fight between him and my mate even if it would be obvious who the winner is.
It surprised me how much I had changed... or grown.
Did I really care about these people?
That being said I still wanted my mate to suffer. There were no qualms to that.
But the rest of the gang, my feelings towards them had shifted, slowly.
Without my realizing.
Sissy.
My wold scoffed and I rolled my eyes.
I was more gentle towards them... subconsciously.
I would have lashed out at them already for all the drama they caused if this was the beginning.
But a part of me understood that they cared for me. And a part of me cared for them too.
I leaned on the closed door, covering my eyes.
I could feel Blaze standing behind the door. What is his obsession with the door? Sometime through my little realization, he had come to stand behind me.
I could feel Xavier through the bond.
He was dying to touch me, be in contact with me or see me. He was contemplating breaking through the door.
Hormonal wolf.
Especially after Jake's display. I thought he would beat him up. Especially when Jake had offered me his shirt for the cold.
This was all too much.
My mate was too much. These people were too much. Their expectations, the way they looked at me. How I was starting to care for them!
It was all too much!
I felt a panic attack rise in me.
I fought to keep my heart rate and breathing in check as I didn't want my mate to suspect the spike. Lest he would interfere. Again.
I felt like I needed space. I needed air.
Everything was suffocating me suddenly.
I...
I need to getaway.
Hey lovelies.
So did you like it?
Our Zara is going through some changes- emotionally and mentally.
And she is glad that you are here to see it all.
Zara: No I am not. It's embarrassing what you are putting me through.
She is just kidding, she appreciates your presence.
So dear readers, stay tuned for the next update.
What do you think she will do?
Comment below and let me know what you think.
I shall see you all next Tuesday.
Cheers.