I jolted awake as the bus came to a stop. I had become so acustomed to sleeping when the driver was driving that whenever it came to a stop, I would wake up. I waited for the tour bus to go back to moving but it ever did.
I rolled over on the small bed and tried to go back to sleep. But after a while I knew was never going to be able to. My mind was miles away, desperately needing the noise from the bus to make me go back to sleep.
By now I figured the driver had gotten too tired and decided to take a few hours of sleep.
Glancing over at my phone, I sighed seeing that Carter still hadn't called me back. Waking up this morning before heading back to the tour bus, I had tried calling Carter but he never picked up. Throughout the day on the bus I sent him messages that were never responded.
He must have been busy. Probably promoting his new movie with Lia. But in the back of my mind I couldn't help but wonder if Lia ever wanted to get revenge on me. What if she wanted to get with Carter to get me back?
I shook those thoughts out of my head and closed my eyes again.
The next stop on our tour was Hersey, Pennsylvania. It was a long ride but I liked long trips. The bad part about it all was sharing the tour bus with the guys. There was no room and no privacy.
Bumping into Harry was inevitable. He was avoiding eye contact with me as much as I was with him.
I could faintly hear a low buzz noise. Immediately I rolled back to where my phone was so sure that it was Carter calling me back. But disappointment hit me when there were no new notifications. It wasn't coming from my phone but from one of the guys.
" hello?" someone groaned from another bunk.
I couldn't help but listen to the conversation.
" how did you end up even near him?" he questioned in a groggy voice.
Harry's voice sounded concerned, tired and mad all at the same time which only made me want to know who was on the other line.
" why would you even answer him?!" Harry groaned even louder. Now I could hear him shuffle out of his bunk. I imagined him throwing on a pair of pants and a shirt, knowing he only slept in boxers.
Before he could say anything else I heard the door of the tour bus open and slam closed immediately after. I opened my bunk curtains to see if Harry was still inside and to my expectation, he wasn't.
I tried to force myself to close to curtain back up and shut my eyes, but I couldn't. By the tone in Harry's voice, I didn't know what to expect and being that it was the middle of the night it was just even worse in my mind.
I quickly got myself out of the bunk as quiet as possible so no one could hear and made my way towards the bus door. Knowing that outside was probably cold, I grabbed the first jacket/sweater I could find in the dark. As I got to the door, I stole a glance at Harry's face through the window. He continued talking to someone on the phone still obviously frustrated.
I opened the door letting the cold wind blow against me. After closing the door behind me I looked over at Harry again. He was wearing a pair of blue jeans and a white button up shirt that wasn't buttoned up at all, showing all his tattoos and the bit of muscle he had. My eyes traveled up and down until my eyes finally reached his.
His eyes caught my glance and stopped whatever he was saying on the phone. I could faintly hear the person on the other line calling his name.
" I'll call you later. Just stay away from him" Harry said before hanging up the phone.
" who was that?" I asked before putting on the sweater I had in my hand. I looked back at Harry and saw a disappointed/sad expression as he looked down at my sweater. I looked down and realized why. This wasn't his shirt.
" what are you doing out here?" he asked as he looked away from my sweater.
" I asked you first" I pointed out knowing I sounded stubborn. Harry rolled his eyes and began walking away from me. He kept walked more and more away from the tour bus which only made me confused.
Immediately I ran after him. Here I was, chasing after him when I supposed to stay away from him.
" where are you going? It's midnight for crying out loud" I said after him. I caught up to him and tried to reach out to him but he only pulled away.
" then go back yourself" Harry rolled his eyes.
" are you bipolar?" I glared.
Harry ignored my comment and continued walking down the dark road away from the resting area.
" where are you going?" I asked as I continued to follow him. Getting off the tour with just tights and knit sweater felt like a horrible decision as the wind began to pick up.
" why are you even following me?" he questioned.
" making sure you don't do anything stupid" I said only to realize that I was the one in risk of doing something stupid.
" well you can stop babysitting me and go back to the bus, I'm just going to get a drink" Harry gestured towards an old beat down bar that was starting to come to sight.
I stopped frozen in the middle of the road just staring at Harry continue to walk. As soon as he noticed I was walking beside him anymore, he stopped too and looked back at me.
Harry hadn't been drinking in weeks, at least not that I knew of. It was after that particular call that made Harry want to drink.
" who called you Harry?" I pushed.
" Jess and that's all I'm saying" Harry simply said before turning back and walking towards the bar again. Instead of going after him, I stood there watching him walk away.
Something was up with him. Something that Jess told him. Jess and I were close but I don't think she would tell me something he wouldn't want me to know.
I stood there in the middle of the road, torn between going back to the bus and going after Harry once again. Maybe calling Carter one more time wouldn't hurt. Then I realized I didn't have my phone on me. Great...
*
I walked into the smoked filled bar with the intention of finding Harry. I probably should have gone back to the bus but I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep because of Carter. This was a one night distraction that I needed.
I finally made it to the bar seeing Harry sitting down on a stool with a bottle of beer in front of him. Taking a seat next to him, I grabbed his cold beer for myself. Harry took a glance at me and I couldn't help but see a little smirk in the corner of his mouth.
" that's mine you know?" he said with the same little smirk which only made me smile.
" I'm pretty sure you can afford another one" I raised my eyebrow and brought the bottle to my lips.
Harry looked away from me shaking his head with a smile, ordering another beer for himself.
I took a look around the bar and saw only older people. Most of them all looked like bikers which was intimidating and interesting at the same time. They weren't old but definitely above forty.
" so how's your dad?" he asked catching me off guard.
I looked at him seeing what I hadn't really expected. He looked some what vunerable and sincere.
" he's still in the same condition. But I've been visiting him a lot more often" I nodded with a bit of a smile.
Harry nodded and went back to drinking the drink in his hands.
" Harry?"
Harry looked over at me again waiting for the rest of my question. My next question took a while to come out. I was nervous about it because I had never heard Harry talk about it before.
" you know a little about my family. What about yours? I've never really heard you say anything about them" I said avoiding eye contact with him.
" don't be ridiculous Cailin, you know Jess" Harry shook his head.
" what about your mom and dad?" I pushed.
" that's one of the many reasons I'm here tonight so can you please just not Cailin" Harry groaned.
I could have pushed him. I could have continued to ask him questions about his family. I could have caused another fight to break out between us but I wouldn't. I didn't want to. As much as my curiosity haunted me, I didn't want to push Harry farther then I should have.
In the corner of the bar stood a table. Not just any table. A ping-pong table. Immediately a smile spread across my face. I looked back at Harry and caught already gazing at me. Before I could say anything he turned away.
" let's go play beer pong" I begged.
I loved the game and to be honest even more when it was with Harry. I just loved how into the game we were and no one could beat us. But I had never played against him which sparked an interest in me.
" no" he shook his head.
" why?" I frowned.
" because I don't feel like seeing you cry after I beat you" he smirked looking over at me before ordering two more beers for us.
Hearing his answer immediately made me laugh, making him chuckle along.
" don't be afraid to lose to a girl" I smirked grabbing my new beer and walking over to the table.
I quickly glanced behind to see Harry walking after me with his hand wrapped around a couple of plastic cups. As he walked after me, I couldn't help but notice the smirk on his face even though he was trying to hide it. But as I took notice, I had the same goofy smirk myself. This was the reaction that we caused on each other when everything was going great. I just wished it was always like this.
Harry managed to find a ping pong ball with the bartender as I set up the game with more beer that he had gotten. He came back with the ball and we began playing. Every time Harry missed a shot I would jump up in victory as he would chug it down with a smile on his face. Then he would somehow manage to catch up and I would be the one having to chug down a couple cups of beer.
" look who's losing now" Harry chuckled as I chugged down the cup playfully glaring at him.
By the end of the game I suspected he had let me win just by the smile on his face. I wish this night could continue going this way but deep in my heart I know something will go wrong. Whether it involves Carter, Lia or just plain us messing this up.
With all the drinks, my mind was starting to fog up but for right now I liked this feeling. It made me forget everything that was bothering me all day and focus on the good time that I was having now.
People around us were either laughing with us and getting mad at us for some reason. But the best part was that no one really knew who we were. I could just be myself and no one would care. It felt liberating.
" do you think anyone's noticed we're not back on the bus yet?" I chuckled.
" nah, they're probably all still sleeping" Harry shrugged before taking another sip of his drink.
I nodded agreeing with him. I just hoped no one found out about our little escape. I didn't need anyone questioning me. I didn't need anymore drama. What I needed was what I was having now, fun.
" I like this" I said as we got back to the bar.
" what do you mean?" he chuckled taking a seat down on the stoop.
" us getting along like this, it feels good" I responded standing next to him.
" it really does" he said in a quieter tone cracking a smile.
His smile... his smile made me melt inside. How could me make me feel this way even after everything. Even if I was with another guy. Even when he chose another girl over me. How could I still be in love with a guy who had already hurt me in so many ways?
In that moment I knew what I wanted, and I wanted him.
I crashed my lips onto his igniting even more electricity. His hand grasped onto my hips pulling me closer to him. I gasped as my body collided with his, enjoying every bit of it. My fingers tangled between his hair tugging at them knowing he liked it that way.
My whole body became hot and my breathing quickly picked up. Harry hands traveled towards my thigh picking both of us up. I smiled between our kisses as he walked us over to the bathroom. When we got into the extremely small bathroom, he let me down sitting on the sink, still attached his body to mine. His hand reached over to the door, locking it, without moving an inch away from me.
" this is crazy" I giggle completely forgetting about the outside world.
" this is us" Harry smiles before crashing his lips against mine again.
Harry bites down on my lower lip only making me moan his name. His grip on my waist tightens and then his hands travels from under my shirt to my breasts. I moan again unable to compose myself.
His kisses become harder, as if he were desperate for more. My hand travels from under his shirt, up his back scratching it enough to feel him get goosebumps. His hips grind against mine only making me want him closer, if possible. I take off his shirt and quickly after mine is off too.
" I like it when you where my sweatshirts" he whispered in my ear before kissing down my neck making goosebumps rise on my skin.
" and I liked wearing them" I smirked before a gasp came out of my mouth with grinding on my harder.
One touch from him made me forget about everything. About everyone else. No one else mattered in that moment. Just us.
*
Harry's face rested on my shoulder as our breaths began to go back to normal. I could still feel both our hearts beating in the same rhythm. My fingers twirled and playing around with his hair as if it was something I had done everyday. I didn't want this feeling to end. If I could stay in Harry's arms like this forever I think I would. It felt so peaceful yet exciting, nothing felt better than this.
" fuck" Harry whispered before pulling away from me. He pulled his pants back up and stared at me.
" what?" I said back.
" we didn't use a condom. What if something happens? We're fucked" Harry said pushing his fingers through his hair. Immediately I pushed myself off the bathroom sink and put my clothes back on trying not to let tears fall from my eyes.
That was what he was thinking about? After all that, that was his first thought? Now my mind was starting to come back to reality. The Harry from a couple of minutes ago wasn't real. That was just a fantasy. This was the true ignorant Harry.
" I take birth control you asshole" I said before bursting out of the bathroom.
I ran out of the bar to be soaked by the surprise rain. The rain was pouring and there was no sign of it calming down. Instead of going back into the bar and try to stay dry, I wanted to get on the bus and forget everything that had just happened.
I tried running but the rain was too hard and was slowing me down. I could faintly hear my name being called out but I ignored it, atleast tried to. That was until I got pulled back by a grasp on my arm, the exact spot where Carter had left a bruise.
" what?!" I said disguising the pain with frustration.
I turned around to see Harry, just as I suspected. He looked some what confused and gorgeous under the rain. Rain streaming down his face and drops of rain falling down from his hair.
" what happened?" he shouted as an attempt for me to hear over the rain.
" what do you think happened?! The one thing you worry about after we just had sex is if I get pregnant! You don't worry about how I feel! You don't care that I'm freaking out inside because I just cheated on my boyfriend. You don't care about how confused I am about this whole situation! All you care about is yourself!" I screamed at him.
I wanted to get away from Harry. He only brought drama into my life and I didn't want that. I needed to stay away from him and I couldn't even handle that. How was I supposed to stay away from him if I had to see him every single day?
" is that what you think of me? Of course I worry about you! I said those things because of you! I don't want you to ruin your career over something stupid!" Harry yelled back.
Something stupid...
This was all just a joke to him. I held onto to myself in order not to fall over. How could I be so stupid? Here I was back into his trap, the trap that was just a game to him.
" I didn't mean it like that!" he said noticing my reaction.
" you never do.." I said glaring at him.
I turn around to walk away from him again but it was no use, Harry pulled me back again. But this time I was pulled up against his chest. I looked up at him seeing him lool right back at me. My breathing began to pick up as did the sexual tension.
" I do care about you" Harry said before crashing his lips onto mine.
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So I changed the summary, I suck at it but I think it sounds better than before.
I forgot to comment on Selena's new song and video last chapter! It broke my heart watching that video :( She's amazing right?
So for this chapter I listened to Jasmine V's new EP. If you haven't bought it yet, you should its so good. My fav is the song Walk Away.
Also as I finished this chapter, 1D's album Four came out and it's amazing <3 go buy it!
I feel like I'm advertising things now lol sorry I just want to share what I love with you guys.
Chapter all about Cailin and Harry! Finally! I know I owed you guys haha. So far I think this has been one of my favorite yet frustrating chapters to write.
I know most of you can't want for people, especially Harry to find out about what Carter's been doing to Cailin and they all will, soon.
I just don't want to rush things and I hope you guys understand
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