Niall and Mariam- Something has to change.
This has to change. Thing cannot stay this way. Saying things that we both know that we will regret. Both of us hurt but neither of us stopping it.
All we ever do now is fight. At first it was every now and then but now we can't go a single minute without arguing about something.
Many times I kicked him to the couch and other times he would leave. He would storm off and would not tell me where he was. And trying to contact him only caused more fighting. So instead of being gone for a few hours or the night, he would leave for days without a sign that he would ever come back. It has been two months since
I debated moving out while he was gone so he could not stop me, not that I thought he would but I could hope.
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Niall came home after only an hour after he left which was out of the normal.
"Niall!" I was shocked when I saw him walk in. "Where were you?" He only ignored me and walked into the bedroom.
I followed him into the room and watched as he got ready for bed, "Can we just talk?"
"Why all it is going to do is lead to a fight?" He stopped and looked up sounding and looking defeated.
"Usually it would but I'm too tired to fight now." I took a seat on the bed.
He sat down next to me, "Me too." He sighed, "Do you love me still?"
"If I didn't love you, I would have left the first night you were gone for more than a couple of hours." I said, "Do you love me?"
"That is the reason I come back."
"Are you going to leave again?"
He put his arm around me, "Not unless you want me to. Do you want me to leave?"
"No, I want you to stay." I stood up, "I want you to sleep here."
It has been months since we have even slept in the same bed and felt so much better. I really did sleep so much better when I was wrapped in his arms.