Sugarawa Koshi X Reader ( Nothing Like her)
Aye humans, welcome back to my book I am almost done with the all your request from this book so I might chill down a bit from uploading. I need to do my request from the other books too like the Mystic messenger book if you have time to check it. Request from AliciaGrafft enjoy :D
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The first bell of the day rung, all the student stood up to walk to their certain groups and teams. You on the other side was able to finish fixing your stuff, you were about to stand when a definite orange head peek his head to your room to look for particular person. You smiled knowing who he was looking for, he scan the location and landed his eyes on you upon realizing who you are he smiled and almost run towards you. He smiled seeing you not far behind him is a certain black head freshmen. He bowed at you and let Hinata do the speaking
Hinata: Sempai~! " he smiled with a bit of blush on his face " Suga-san is looking for you" he finishes off you nodded and followed them afterwards.
Kageyama: umm sempai? Can I ask why does Suga san always call out for you every day and lunch time?" he asked getting you in the most uncomfortable part of your day. This is the first tie Kageyama ask such thing and you don't want to say such words to confused the. You smiled at them and said your biggest lie yet "We are best friend" but in real he was your long tie boyfriend, but your insecurities take the best of you and there you told him you wanted the relationship to be secret. To avoid judging eyes and rumors you made sure people around you won't know about it.
You and Sugarawa had been dating for 3 years now and he had known almost everything about, your fears, pain, depression, failures and your constant insecurities. He had understood your deepest insecurities and self-confidence problem and you are more than happy to have him. But you are still not ready to tell the world that your boyfriend is the hot male volleyball from Karasuno high, not yet but you plan to tell them really soon.
Arriving at the gym hall, the two bow and wave good bye to go to their group you roam a bit checking out something or finding your boyfriend. You sit on the bench holding your lunch for him and for yourself every day you will bring him food and you two will eat. You had to admit you didn't bring him food for the last two days because you are busy but you made sure to bring him today.
You've been there for almost 15 minutes now but there is still no sign of your boyfriend, you stood up to go out and find him when you saw something you never really had dreamed off. He was there walking with Kiyoko side by side, upon noticing you he smiled and run towards you. In instant he showed you a plastic with bread and desserts
Suga: hey y/n I brought us some food, well most of it is for your me and Kiyoko already ate" he smiled, your heart hurts like hell but you contain yourself with a smiled as you hide the bento box behind you.
y/n: hey" you smiled and he smiled , Kiyoko following behind she bowed and proceeded to leave you both
suga: it's almost ime to get back to class don't you want to eat?" he smiled asking you
y/n: nope I already ate so I am fine" you lied to him, his eyes turns sad but smiled anyway after few seconds
Suga: alright let's go back to class then, as he offered his hand to you in that time you refused his hand as you walked passed him. He was confused and a bit hurt but he knows why you act like this sometimes something is wrong and he needs to find it out.
As you walked behind the school building you went up to throw your bento, cause you don't have any use of it now. You also had the eagerness to skip your afternoon classes and so you are here now on the top roof of your school building. You've been crying for the last few minutes now and you can't seem to stop, you know well when you have emotional break down like this that it would be hard to stop for a while.
y/n: she's a lot better than me, I mean she is prettier, more beautiful, I bet she stand out more into her grades, she might have such amazing socializing skills and a lot more that I will never be" you thought to yourself, you hated times like this it will all go into a depressing pit and you can't seem to get out. All you can do is cry and cry, this was your escape route when you feel down or depressed, a time on your own is your only option.
You eventually fell asleep due of crying it was already last bell of the day when you come back to your senses. You hurried back to your room to get your stuff and decided to go home alone. You normally go home with Sugarawa, you will wait for him while he was having his volleyball practice but today you don't feel walking home with him not with all this mixed up feelings inside you.
Sending him a message you proceeded to pick up your shoes.
y/n: Suga ( *^*)
Subjt: going home
- Hey Sugarawa, I'll go home for now I am not feeling well take care"
You sighed as you closed your phone, picking up you changed of shoes in the process he might have been in the gym practicing now and you know well Kiyoko will be there too. It's fine he can be with her as long as he want " I am sure he wanted to stay more with a beautiful girl than an ugly girl like me anyway" as you slowly walked out the gates.
In the GYM ( practice time with the team)
Suga received the message you had sent him and he was beyond worried what is happening to you
Suga: Daichi? Can I please go home early today? Something came up and I need to check what is happening" he said earning few concern looks from the other players.
Daichi: I won't ask what happened but sure, be careful" as he let his vice president go
Sugarawa run out his place hoping to catch up with you, he felt something wrong with you and he wanted to know what it was. He took his bag as he checked his phone it has been 35 minutes since your last txt and he was worried. He hurriedly tried to call your phone but the number was busy, that makes him more worried what is happening to you.
Living alone has it's perks, you drip lower on the tub not wanting to be aware of your place you wanted to sleep forever. As you slowly sunk lower on your tub, slowly the water runs filling it to the top you had made your tears stop but the pain is enough to make you do this to yourself. You slowly closed your eyes and let the pain take over, it was too much this is not like you anymore but you hated how you let your insecurities eat you up. You submerged under the water not until you head someone calling out to you and you've felt the same warm hands over your body.
Few minutes passed
Suga POV: I went to y/n's house and there I've knocked multiple times no one is answering and I am pretty concern what is happening to her. I asked the landlord to help me by giving me the duplicate of her house door, she didn't want to give me a copy for she wanted privacy. I knew something is up, upon entering her apartment I heard the water continuously flowing I walked to the bathroom only to see her here under the tub with more or less soft breather almost not breathing. There I saw here in her weakest look, I pulled her out from the tub thank god she is wearing something if not I might not be able to help her. I immediately checked her pulse, it was slow almost gone but then I didn't stop there I took there in my side and sit her for a while, trying to get her back to her senses. After few minutes of sitting up she cough all the water from here mouth, she slowly opens her eyes and she stared at me for few seconds
y/n: suga?" she asked painful sound and hoarse voice coming from her
suga: y/n? what happened?" I asked her holding her near to me, but in instant she distant herself to me
y/n: why are you here? You have practice right?" she asked me not answering my first question, I looked at her
suga: I skipped" I lied to her, it';s for the best
y/n: go back to practice and go back to them now" she said as she slowly stood up, taking the towel from the wall rod, I followed her
suga: tell me what happened?" I asked her one more time
y/n: go back to kiyoko" as she hid her face from me, and there I realized what is happening. Her insecurities were her greatest weakness and her jealously follows when her insecurities works. I bit my lower lip I was insensitive with my response I didn't realized the way she looked pain when I am with Kiyoko
Suga: I am sorry" as I pulled her into a gentle yet tight hug she didn't hugged me back yet I know why " please don't think you are not enough for me, you know you are my world and I will not look at any girl like the way I looked at you" as I told her, it was true she is the only girl I had loved this much and being beautiful to me is nothing she is my world.
y/n: Suga?" she asked me " did you love me? I mean I am nothing like her, Kiyoko she is more than me more beautiful" she looked pained, but I cut her off, I am hurt too but I wanted her to be happy
Suga: I loved you with my all, so please don't think anything negative to yourself you are beautiful and you will always be beautiful to me" I smiled, at that time I saw her eyes shines with love. I love her that's all I can say and I will do anything for her to overcome her insecurities.
y/n: I am so sorry suga, I love you too" she hugged me and I know it was real
Suga: I love you and I am so sorry too" I kissed her head.
END