Sarah P.O.V
Finally it was Wednesday and I was going to work with Marshall. Spending time with the boys was amazing as always but thy have school during the day leaving me at home all alone. I have these days where I honestly don't know what to do with myself, so I have cleaned my wardrobe twice, cleaned the kitchen and also managed to clean the garage as well, it was my way of keeping my mind of things and my way of letting me really think about things going on in my life including my whole situation with Marshall. Being older I thought being in a relationship would be a lot different you know the feelings you experience and the situations you go through,but I had no idea I would be feeling the same butterflies I felt when I had my first love. As much as I wanted to I couldn't help stop thinking about him , he was on my mind the moments I didn't have to deal the boys or other family problems.
" Hey guys" I yelled as I walked in casually to the studio. this morning had been unpredictable and very stressful.
" Sorry I'm late " I continued trying to sound calm and relaxed when I greeted them but really inside I was confused and angry.
" Are you okay ?" Marshall asked walking up towards me , if the rest of the Guys weren't in the same room we defiantly would have shared a quick kiss or hug but since they were all there the only thing we could do was say hello to each other giving each other a quick friendly hug not wanting the relationship to get out in anyway.
" Yeah just a stressful morning with Ryan that's all" I said right before Dre came in the room followed by a few girls. Ryan has been acting really weird these last couple of days, I don't know if he is going through some problems at school or with some friends or if he was just going through those teenage mood swings.
" How are you?" I asked as he came over to greet me, I haven't seen Dre in a while, I have only really spoken to Nicole on the phone mostly about our kids at what was happening with her. Both of them still don't know about Marshall and I, and to be honest we haven't even talked about it, even though Dre and Nicole are like family, I feel if we start telling people we might jinks the relationship.
" I am great thanks. but I am guessing you're having problems with Ryan again?" Dre asked already really knowing the answer to the question, you see it wasn't the first time Ryan has played up, a couple of years ago he had problems with controlling his anger towards his father. When he found that his father cheated on me constantly he started to grow hatred towards him and blamed him for us splitting up, in a way I feel he still hasn't really fully forgiven him for the betrayal.
" Yeah, but hey you know teenage boys. One minute they're happy the next they're ripping your throat out" I commented laughing, putting on a happy and strong face. I didn't want to seem like the sad, weak person who couldn't even handle a teenage boy especially in front of everyone.
Without even asking him to, Dre pulled me in a hug and softly rubbed my back knowing I just needed some friendly love and Someone to lean on. Dre has alway been a great friend in that perspective, his always the one that just knows when something is wrong or when someone needs a shoulder to cry on. I could feel Marshall's presence close beside us looking on like the other guys, and as much as I was loving this comforting hug by Dre, I couldn't help but start to want Marshall to be the one that was comforting me instead.
The morning went on pretty well after that. Dre was really impressed with the music that Marshall and I had come up with, we even showed Dre Yelawolf and slaughterhouse to try and get his opinion about them, just like everyone else he loves them and thinks they are both really different and deserve to be signed.
" You know you two just work so dam well together" Dre commented after he finished boasting about how amazing these two artist were going to be. When I heard him say that I couldn't help but chuckle, knowing he has no idea how personal our relationship actually goes.
" I agree with you on that, it's scary how well these two get along" Royce commented while laughing to himself looking at both Marshall and I who had horrid and terrified looks on our faces, after a second of glaring at Royce I still couldn't help but smile and blush when I listened to Dre continuing on with saying how talented we both were together and how clever it was of him to get us working and collaborating together , not really understanding the truth behind Royce's comment.
Looking back at Marshall who also couldn't help but laugh listening to Dre talk like he was in his own little world, when he in fact had no idea how close Marshall and I have gotten. But maybe Dre was right? maybe we were destined to work together? I believe everything happens for a reason, so Marshall and I met for a reason. I am still not sure If that reason is purely for business of if it for more personal reasons, but I can't wait to find out.
Lunch time had arrived fairly quickly and i was enjoying every minute of it. Marshall and I were already sitting around the big conference table talking quietly to ourselves since we let Dre have some time in the studio to work on a verse for this song. As much as I love working in Marshall's studio I feel a lot more comfortable in own, when i walk into the studio I automatically feel like I am at home surrounded by family photos.
After about half and hour of Marshall and I talking, well more Marshall giving me flirty looks and saying compliments which made me blush every time but luckily to everyone it just looked like a normal conversation, the boys decided it was time to feed their stomachs and since the takeaway food has already arrived, everyone filed in to the lounge area and the conference table was now filled with food and drinks. Luckily today there were a few of the guys girlfriends here and women like Tracy who has worked with Marshall for a lot of years and is close with him and Dre. She is older than me but I get along with her best out of the girls just because she understands how this business works.
I also took this lunch break opportunity to go in the studio and finish some of the management books that need to be kept up to date, since artist like to rent out the studios around the corner that I also own, they are small and big artist like Eminem and Dre couldn't use them but they are good for new singers who are trying to live their dream.
It was just before I was about to put my things down and go outside to grab my own lunch when I heard all the laughter stop in the lounge area next door and new familiar voices entering the room. wondering who it is, I walk out to the lounge area.
Marshall P.O.V
Sarah was in the studio next door working on some paper work. I wanted to go and spend some private time with her and tell her how she looked really sexy in those skinny jeans but I didn't want to sound to mushy or clingy since we are still talking it slow, so I let her have her space. It's hard working with someone that you are personally involved with, you have to really think and plan how much time you want to spend with each other because you don't want to smother each other since you are seeing each other nearly everyday.
I was in the middle of listening to a few of the guys conversations, you see Royce had just gotten back from Paris where he took his girlfriend so they both are sharing stories, usually ending up with them having little arguments because Royce's story turns out to be completely different than his girlfriends.
I can see Sarah sitting at a table in the studio as I glance through the tinted glass, thinking about how cool it would be to take her on a romantic holiday one day. I never took Kim on holidays, she wasn't really into all of that mushy romantic shit. she'd rather go clubbing or get wasted and than have drunken sex. Where I was kind of different, a lot of people thought I have no heart or feelings but what they didn't know was that I crave and miss having simple quite romantic nights at home with just my family, being on tour and fucking random girls only satisfied me for a little while until I started to feel lonely again. When I was with Kim at home, there were moments I just wanted to drop the hard core tough act and show her some of my romantic sweet side, the side I used to show her all the time when we were younger. but fame really made me turn into what I hated the most, it made me cold and angry all the time, it threw away the other side of me the private side of me. I wasn't Marshall anymore, Eminem and slim shady took over.
" Yo, Kevin man it's been a while" I heard Dre yell while standing up and walking over to a guy that walked into the studio.He looked pretty clean cut, wearing a suit that matched his blonde hair. Obviously he knew Dre because they embraced each in a friendly hug.
" I know right, about 5 years" he replied as they smiled out remembering how long it has been since seeing each other last. I didn't know Dre was meeting up with anyone today especially someone that looked like that, no offense he just doesn't look like the usual guys Dre hangs out with but neither does Sarah and here they are as close as family. I watched as so did the other guys, I noticed another younger guy also walked in and stood beside the one in the suit, from the frown that was plastered on his face he wasn't in the best mood, but Dre didn't seem to notice as he also greeted the younger guy with a hug, Dre is always a friendly guy that loved seeing friends.
They stood around and talked for a few minutes, all of us guys sat around the table casually looking at them wondering who they were, Dre would have mentioned something if he was bringing friends with him, I know he wouldn't just bring friends round without asking or telling sarah, but by they way sarah still worked calmly in the studio I am guessing she doesn't even know they are here.
I was however stunned when Dre turned round and started walking into the studio and telling sarah something before coming back into the lounge area with sarah following shortly behind him.
" Hey guys what are you doing here? " she asked placing her things down on the table looking very shocked that these two guys were here.
" sorry for interrupting you at work" the older blonde hair guy said glancing over at all of us guys that sat round eating, watching the scene in front of us. As soon as I heard that Sarah knew the guys, I automatically became more intrigued about who they were. With Sarah and I still being very private and new in this relationship, we haven't got the chance to meet each others friends except the ones that we both work with.
" It's ok" she said calmly walking towards them, " WHOA... What the hell happened to your face" she practically yelled stepping closer to exam the younger boy, by the way she was speaking and glaring at the boy she was not happy. Who were these men to her? obviously she cared about them or she wouldn't react like she just did.
Glancing around the table, by the staring of the other guys they were also interested in this conversation. You cant blame us, we have been stuck in this studio all day, when someone new comes in we get very interested, especially since it has something to do with Sarah. Last time someone wanted to speak to her, it was detectives questioning her about Tupac, leading us to discover a whole new side to Sarah.
" do you want to tell your mother or should I" the older guy said looking back at the younger one, who had a annoyed face. As soon as he mentioned the word Mother, that's when it all clicked. I should have realised it earlier, the younger one must have been her oldest Ryan, she talks so much about him that its good to finally put a face to the name, but if that's her son than the older one must be her Ex husband. From the corner of my eyes, I can see the guys trying to not seem like they are listening to the conversation but when they realised it was her son they were as stunned as I was, especially Royce who nudged me softly, looking at him I softly shrugged trying to make it seem like I wasn't intrigued or curious but really inside I felt my heart ache a little and the sick feeling of Jealousy arising.
" well it seems our dear son here decided to get into a fight today, Earned himself three days suspension" the older one continued placing his hands on his shoulder while making him stand more in the middle of them to. Sarah was not happy and it showed all over her face.
" he did what?" asking to repeat it but already knowing pretty clear what he said, She was stunned and shocked. To be honest just by seeing and looking at Ryan he didn't seem the fighting type, from what I have heard he seems like a really sweet guy that really looks after his mother but I could also see from they way he presented himself and dressed he seemed more as the popular guy, than the fighter type.
" In my Office Now" she yelled even louder before Ryan could answer or say anything.
" Sorry, Just give me a sec" she said after turning round and facing Dre who was sitting next to me. her voice had gone back to being sweet and sexy but you could still see the hint of anger that she tried to cover up by showing us her delightful smile.
" Don't worry about it, Take all the time you need" I replied politely as I watched them all walk of towards her office. I could see Ryan really didn't want the next few minutes to happen but when you get into a fight at school this is what happens, he was lucky enough to have a parent like Sarah who cared so much about him, whenever I got into a fight at school, well more so me getting bashed I would have to walk home myself and sit out in the rain until like midnight before my mum decided to appear and when she did she usually was clueless about it all.
" I am guessing that was her son and Ex husband" Royce said breaking the silence between us. In a way I was hoping Dre would say nah it was her best friend but by his nodding Royce was right. I felt sick knowing that was her Ex husband, how could she go from someone that looked like that to being with someone like me. He looked clean cut, rich and someone who was a model but comparing him to me he seemed like God. Yes I am rich as well, but Sarah has never shown interest in money or anything like that, but unlike him I had baggage and problems and I defiantly don't look like that. I wear the same kind of clothes every day just a T-shirt with baggy shorts or jeans and Nikes for shoes, I don't even think I even own a proper suit, the last time I wore one was on my wedding day with Kim in 2006, which was so many years ago, So I knew I didn't even come close with Sarah's Ex husband Kevin. 1 point to Him still 0 for me.
Sarah P.O.V
I cant even comprehend what I just heard, how the hell does my sweet boy Ryan get into a fight. This is something I have been fearing for a while now, since he has been playing up at home. I knew something was going on but my suspicion that it had something to do with School was just confirmed.
" Why Ryan, I thought we taught you better than this" I furiously said, just trying to go over what Kevin has told me. Ryan is not like this, what is happening with my boy.
"It was a mistake I Promise it will not happen again" he said while sitting on the lounge while his father and I stood in front of him. Kevin had already given his piece of mind on the way over here and now it was my turn.
" Give me your phone" I demanded holding my hand out to take it from him. " get your homework out, we will talk you punishment when we get home" I said while placing his IPhone in my pocket. I walked out of my studio with Kevin following behind me. I knew we both had the same kind of punishment in mind, but I was going to discuss it anyway.
" Nice seeing you again Dre" Kevin Said walking back past the guys, I got the opportunity to glance at Marshall who looked up from his paper and gave me a small sympathy look, but for some reason I could see sadness in his face, not a lot but there was still something there.
After walking Kevin out and hearing him apologising to me for bringing Ryan back here, I went straight back in the studio, I knew today Marshall and I were planning on staying back later to actually finish some papers before contacting Yelawolf, and yes when I say work I do mean actual work, it wasn't just an excuse to spend sometime with him, but least we do get to be alone I knew without fail there was going to be some sneaky touching or kissing, when we knew Ryan defiantly wouldn't see.
After reappearing I quickly saw that Ryan had decided to leave the my office. " have you seen Ryan" I asked Dre calmly trying to look for him, I knew he wouldn't leave the studio but if he thought he was going to sit and watch TV just after he had gotten suspended he was dead wrong. Just as I thought Ryan was on the lounge watching tv. Walking again past the guys to where Ryan sat not really caring that he had just gotten suspended for fighting or that he was in the same room as Eminem.
" if you think that you are going to be allowed to sit here and watch tv, you have another thing coming" I said leaning over the back of the lounge and grabbing the remote from behind Ryan.
" back in the office and finish of your homework" I demanded watching as Ryan huffed and puffed as he got up of the lounge. " can I at least have a snack and maybe a break soon" he asked as we walked back past the guys and into my office. Ryan wasn't happy and looked like he didn't really give a dam that he was just suspended for fighting.
" Maybe but start your homework off, I will go grab you a snack" I said before closing the door and walking back to the guys that were just finishing their lunch. Even though I was more stressed than before, I was still at work and needed to get a few things completed before the guys left for the day. We are having an early day today because Dre has a meeting with some other guys and Royce also has to go and pick up his kids, so there is not a lot of point to hang round till 5 doing nothing.
Knowing Ryan would be out here soon wondering where he snack was, I walked over to the kitchen and decided a sandwich was healthier than the food the guys had ordered for lunch and hadn't finished.
" Everything okay " Marshall asked walking over to the island bench, leaning down on his elbows and watching as I made Ryan some food.
" Omg, teenage boys" I replied laughing just thinking about some of the things I have been through with Ryan, I am so scared that this was the start of him misbehaving all the time, I know my brother was the same age as Ryan when he started hanging out with the wrong people and getting in trouble. He caused so much trouble with our family especially between my parents that I didn't want to experience any of that.
" Haha I know what you mean, I remember Nathan as a teenager. Some of the worst years" he said laughing as he continued watching at how frustrated I looked and acting, I swear I was demolishing the sandwich with peanut butter, but As soon as I felt his hand on mine that held the knife, I was started to relax from his touch, how could someone manage to give me these feelings and butterflies every time we touch
" I think its got enough peanut butter" he said grabbing my hand and taking the knife out so I couldn't spread any more peanut butter. Looking up at him, all I saw was a concerned Marshall trying to comfort me. If you were to remove the studio, the media and the people around us he would just be a parent helping and comforting another parent that was going through the same thing he had been through. I couldn't help but laugh at how ridiculous I looked taking all my frustrations and anger out on a poor incident sandwich.
" I am just going to take this to Ryan, than we can get back into the studio" I said smiling as I walked away from Marshall, it was nice knowing he was there for me when I need him, that this relationship wasn't just a convenient thing for him, he actually cared and he wasn't afraid to show it.
After finally getting Ryan settled I could finally get back into the studio, Being stressed actually helps me sometimes, for some reason I feel I do my best work when I am either angry or stressed, so the rest of the afternoon I was placing some of my best beats on the table. I was taking all of it out through the music and luckily Marshall and the rest of the guys were loving it.
" Good luck with Ryan" Dre said as we walked to his car, he was off to a meeting with some other guys something to do with his earphones he was making. Royce and his Girlfriend Katherine had also just left with the other guys he had bought to the studio. So that was just leaving Marshall and I together in the studio with Ryan in the office. These days no one ever judges or Question why Marshall stays behind after everyone leaves, I guess its because they know we are working closely in helping him develop his label, but I think a lot of people just don't bother asking about Marshall's love life because to the public he puts out that he is never going to trust a woman again, but I am not like any of the other women he has had flings with, I generally liked and cared about him and I have made it a top priority to gain his trust, to show him that you can Feel again.
Hey
so I have decided Paul walker best fits Kevin, I know he has just recently died but from the way I have Imagined Kevin, Paul probably fits the description the best
Kevin needs to make Marshall feel a little bit threaten especially looks wise since they are both near their 40s and he needs to suit Sarah's personality and since she is apparently stunning than its more likely she would have been with a guy that looked like Paul walker.
I am still trying to work out who will play Ryan since he is more introduced to us in this chapter. But I will have worked it out by next chapter. I have someone in mind but he doesn't really look like Paul and probably much older than 16.
Remember I am not getting anyone to play Sarah, you guys can picture anyone. To me she is a blonde and her beauty is very natural.
Anyone I am hoping you like the story so far and I will update as soon as I can. Since its Holiday's over here in Australia, I am writing some every day:)
thanks for all the support
Bree
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