I have never known of someone
crying over me..
and yet you said it
plain and clear that
you were hurt and
there was nothing I could do because
it was both of us
together
we took the risk we
pay the consequences
I learned a long time ago
how to hold tears in my eyes for hours and
let them roll down my cheeks peacefully and
make no noise as my
heart broke inside my chest
but as I listened to you on the phone
I knew that you were crying again
I have never known of someone
sharing their emotions so truthfully
the way you do
and I don't know if you heard the
tears in my voice or
in my breaths
but while we talked
tears rolled down my face and
I took deep breaths
because I am so used to not sharing my emotions..
maybe this is why
I am so self-destructive,
because I lie to myself
to trick me into being happier
and I hold all my feelings
inside
and do not share my thoughts
because I am afraid
that they are too wild and too strong
and I have seen the way they scare people away
I sit alone in my
silent room
watching the world outside
wishing that I could experience it with you
but the time as come
(as you told me, so I will listen to you)
to move on
so I cry in silence
patiently waiting for something else
beautiful
to come along but
I am afraid that it will never
be as wonderful as you