*RAIN*
"Hey Angie what happened to your side?" I asked.
She pulled down her shirt and sighed. "I fell down the stairs last night. It was dark and you know how clumsy I am."
I laughed and continued to bounce Des on my knee. "True, true."
"So what are you doing for your birthday?"
"Ugh. Why does everyone keep asking me that? Why should I even be celebrating getting older?"
"Well jesus Rain you aren't turning 50. You're ganna be 21! Finally!"
"Hey. You've only been 21 for a few months."
"And it's fun! You ganna drink? Go to a bar!? Oh please lets have your party at a bar!"
I shook my head. "I don't think I wanna. I'm ok with not drinking..."
"Woah woah woah! You mean like you NEVER want to drink?"
I nodded. "Yupp."
"You're crazy girl. I'm ganna grab a water bottle." She told me as she got up and walked to the kitchen.
Maybe staying forever alcohol free was going to be a challenge after all. My best friend wanted me to drink, my husband, and Roc's mom told me it's the best reliever of stress. I continued to carefully bounce my little bundle of joy on my leg, as I looked into her eyes I couldn't help, but smile. She was so perfect and I couldn't imagine having her if I left Roc when the abuse started. I needed him.
"Can I do your nails!?" Angie asked when she got back on the couch.
"Um...ok."
"Yay! Cuz I have this super cute pink polish in my purse that you would love!"
I put Des in her bouncy seat and sat still, and quiet while Angie slowly, and carefully painted each finger. I didn't wanna drink on my birthday, but how would I get out of it?