" Will you marry me?" He asks getting on one knee.
Oh my god.
" N-no." I stutter on my words.
" What?" He asks standing back up.
what did I just say!?!?
" No I didn't mean it that way! But Jake getting married is so serious, do you really know me that well?" I ask him.
" I know you hate when people click their pen on the desk, and you hate surprises. I also know when you eat stuff you don't like your face turns red, but most importantly I know that I love you." Tears ran down my face.
I don't know what to say.
" Just think about it baby." He says kissing my cheek.
" I will, my mom wants me to come over so I have to go."
He nods.
I'm at my moms house and I'm sitting in the kitchen while my mom makes cookies.
" Jake proposed to me." I blurted out.
" Oh my god! That's amazing Alex!" She says hugging me.
" I said no, then he said all this amazing stuff and I do love him, I just don't know why I said no." I tell her as she listens.
" Maybe there's a part of you that still loves Brennen."
" I do not love Brennen! I love Jake, and he is the better guy."
" It doesn't matter who the better guy is, it matters if the guy is better for you." She tells me.
Brennen.
" I just don't want to lose either of them."
" Sometimes the best thing to do is to let someone go, because it's not fair to the other person."
" Mom I have to go talk to Jake." I say grabbing my keys and leaving.
I don't know what is good for me. I don't like making decisions, because don't want to make the wrong decision. I don't want to lose the other person, but I won't lose Brennen. Brennen is the father of my baby girl, so how will I lose him?
" Jake are you home?" I yell dropping my keys on the table.
" I'm right here." He says sitting on the couch.
" Yes." I say.
" Yes what?" He asked confused.
I'm doing this.
" Yes I will marry you." He stands up and hugs me.
" I love you." He says.
" I love you too." I say.
And Brennen.