Belly POV
I was sitting outside of Conrad college in his car because he has to take his finals I hope he does well.
And then we're going to Cousins.
After Conrad told me the truth yesterday I felt light. Like no matter what happens now we will be infinite.
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Conrad POV
After I got done with my exams (I pass by the way) I went back to my car where my girl was in.
It honestly felt nice to not go not seeing my brother kissing my girl, on my car, while she in my sweatshirt.
Instead my girl was in the car sleeping. She told me earlier that she will be fine staying in the car.
I decided to get breakfast before going into the car.
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Belly POV
Conrad woke me up when he got into the car. "Hey sorry I woke you." he said in a gentle.
"It's okay." I said, in my soft voice. I then noticed he had got us McDonald's.
"I got us breakfast."he said, he is so sweet. I saw him pack like a thousand of his favorite condoms just to be safe even through I told him I have IUD and have been on the pill since I was sixteen.
"Thank you." I said softly as he handed me my food.
"Want to go to the beach?"he asked and it took me back to the night we spent with each other.
I just nodded my head, and we drove off. He didn't eat his food while he drives which I made a mental note after I eat to take over the wheel so he can eat.
Which is what we did when I got done eating.
While driving I thought about the day after we spent the night with each other.
I could hear Conrad getting up and I know his putting his underwear and pants on.
I was in the kitchen drinking sink water wearing his roiling stones t-shirt. I could hear him waking behind me and wrap his hands around me.
"Are you okay?"he asked. I couldn't help but smile at that, Conrad is Susannah sweet boy and my mom special guy.
"I'm okay Conrad, I promise."I said.
He then turn me around so that he can see my face. He knows me so well, just like I know him so well.
"Are you sure..."
"I promise you I'm okay Connie."
He couldn't help but smile at the nickname. "You already know that I didn't take you here just for that so I... I didn't have a condom..so."
"Conrad, I'm on the pill my mom, well she wanted us to be safe."
"Us? You mean..?"
"I have be on the pill since we started dating back in October."
Then he kiss me on the lips, both his hands on my face. While my hands on his elbows. Then he pulled apart he looked down at his shirt.
"Is that my shirt." He asked.
"Don't worry Con I'll give it back to you."I said.
"I don't want it back."he said, then he kiss me again. "It looks so much better on you then it every look on me."
I seriously doubt that. I thought, then continue we kissing. Then it became hard and passionate. He then pick me up and took me towards the couch and landed on my spot on the couch.
We continue making out, His hands then moved to the hem of his shirt, he then stop to look into my eyes for permission, I nodded my head. He took his shirt off of me and started kissing down my body. I only have my bra and underwear on under Conrad shirt. He then looked up for my permission again....
We had sex right there on the couch. Are when he came to visit wearing his blue shirt, with white and red stripes on the sleeves. He made me provide his s-a to Stanford, I was studying on the couch when he came into the house my mom or Steven wasn't home and my mom gave him a key. We...we had sex in my room after I told that it looks good.
Once a few days after I started dating Jeremiah I knew that I had to finally had to let him go and move on for both of our sake. I just didn't know that he still love me.
I first put his Rolling Stones t-shirt first.
And then the blue shirt.
And then his Brown sweatshirt (even through it fits me perfectly I knew he probably wanted it back)
And lastly the promised ring he got me for Valentine's Day.
Wrote down: I don't want to keep these anymore.
Write down his name and his apartment number (that I got from my mom) and sent it to the airport to him.
It hurt to do it, but I knew I had too for both of us. But I didn't and still don't know how that made Conrad feel.
Did it make him feel sad?
Heartbroken like it made her feel?
Or did it made it feel happy to be rid of me because of the comment he made during Susannah funeral.
But now I know it wasn't the last one because in one of his letters to me while I was in Spain it wrote down a five page paragraph front and back on how he didn't mean it the way I think, but he did mean it that way Susannah was sick he started a relationship with me. And that his sorry for saying it, and that if he could take it all back he would.
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Conrad POV
I was both heartbroken and piss when Belly returned my two shirts, the old promise ring I gave her and her sweatshirt that I got her at Brown.
I knew why she had to do it, but I still was piss and heartbroken about it.
While we at the beach just me and her, it's going to different, I actually brought her a Stanford one while she was asleep, just her a new promise ring and got her a bracelet and a necklace for her birthday.
I'm going to do it right this time. I'm not going to lose her, it wasn't a option not for me or her and I'm going to show her I'm not ever going to let her go this time.
Because we be in love with each other longer then we been alive.