It's Friday!
Almost grammy time!
Billie got nominated for so many awards.
And Finneas got nominated for producer of the year, he is so stressed about that. He really wants to win that.
The stress is real, i still have to film today.
So mom drove me there and i got out.
"Have fun sweetheart" mom said.
"Thanks mom, iloveyou!"
"I love you more hunny! Oh and ask Clara what she wants to eat tonight!"
"I will mom" i said as i got out of the car.
Clara was talking to the girls that play her school best friends.
"Hey babyy" i said as i hugged her from behind.
"Hey"
She gave me a small kiss and continued talking.
The adults were now filming some fight scenes.
And that would take 2 hours.
"We should go to a juice bar" Clara said.
We asked mariah if we could, she said yes but someone had to go with us.
Like we're 6 year olds.
But i understand, shit could happen.
So this girl who played brooklynn's sister went with us.
I held Clara's hand not realizing that we are in LA with paparazzi.
We walked to the juice bar and when we almost got in we got stopped by paparazzi.
Thousand flashes of my hand in hers.
But I didn't let go, but at this moment i really needed Billie.
Clara was panicking.
"Guys just walk"
We walked in the juice bar and ordered.
"I'm so sorry for this" i said.
They all told me it was okay, but i felt extremely bad.
We ordered and immediately went back, the paparazzi was gone luckily.
The rest off the day went by quickly.
I spotted Finn's car, so he's gonna pick us up. Ig..
"Clara baby, we gotta go"
She said goodbye and grabbed my hand.
It wasn't Finneas who was picking us up, it was Claudia!
"Hey claudddsss" i said super excited.
"Oh hey rigby baby"
We hugged for at least 30 seconds and I didn't want to let go of her, I've missed her.
The last time i saw her was when we got home from tour.
"You must be.. Clara?" She said.
"Yepp, thats me! Nice to meet you" Clara answered.
They hugged each other and we got in the car.
"Why are you picking us up clauds?" I asked.
She smiled and looked at me in the mirror.
"Well were sleeping in Finneas's room because we have to leave early tomorrow."
"Oh yeah shit"
We drove home and the second i stepped in i smelled some delicious smell, it smelled like some good ass lasagna.
And i was right ofcourse.
"Hey mom" I greeted her.
"Hi girlss" she said very excited.
"Hi Maggie, again thanks a lot for letting me come with y'all and letting me sleep here"
Clara said.
She looked nervous.
"Oh hunny, you're a part of the family now."
Clara smiled.
"We're going to my room" i said as i grabbed Clara's hand and dragged her in my room.
Lucky me, Billie and Rose are out of their honeymoon phase.
I would die if they had sex while Clara was with me.
"You look nervous baby, is something wrong?"
"I don't know, I've never met Finneas and i'm scared im not wanted at the Grammys.."
"Oh baby come here" i said as i pulled her in a hug.
"You are wanted because you're mine and i was allowed to bring someone! So get that crap out of your head baby girl"
I kissed her and overheard Billie and Finneas talk.
"Bro if she can't go out without getting thousands of pictures of her i am worried! She is so fucking young Finn." Billie yelled.
"She'll be fine and she is also bringing her to the Grammys like tomorrow so the whole "Rigby secretly dating" thing will be confirmed so soon Billie."
"That's not my fucking point dumbass, its just fucked up that she ain't safe outside because of our fame, that aint fucking fair she is too young"
She needs to relax.
"Wait baby I'll be right back imma make them shut their mouths" i said and She giggled.
"Y'all talking bout me?" I said blunt.
"Yuh, have you seen that article."
I shaked my head.
"Show"
She showed me the article and I started reading.
Rigby's new lover?
Remember when there was some big trouble in Rigby O'Connell's paradise?
Yeah? Well no worries because Billie eilish's little copy cat sister got a new victim.
They were seen walking hand in hand in La.
People say they met on the set of this new show Rigby plays a little part in.
They look like a hot lesbian couple.
But why so fast? Didn't little Rigby just broke up with that hazelnut person??
Maybe she just needed some love, which i would too as an insane glass child.
I mean just copying your sister's life isn't gonna make you feel really good right?
Is it serious love or just a hookup?
We'll see at the grammy's!
What the hell?
"Jesus can't they just leave me alone for fucksake? I'm fucking 15 and they already assume i just hookup with people?" I said really frustrated.
"I know rig, they're crazy.. i'm legit going live right now"
I laughed.
"It's embarrassing to be honest, like what the hell did i do to them?" I wanted to trow shit and yell my lungs out.
"Baby are you okay?" Clara asked as she hugged me from behind.
"Yeah just some stupid fucking article about us being a hookup or i dont know, here read it"
I handed her Billie's phone and she read the article
When she read it she laughed.
"Bro we're fucking 15 and why the hell do they care so much about who you date, you are legit just a teenager with feelings"
I nodded.
"Well fuck them tho" i said and laughed.
Right then Rose was at the door.
Billie ran to the door.
"Hey babyyyyy" she pouted.
"Hey bill" Rose said.
They walked inside and Rose greeted everyone.
Than she walked up to us.
"Hey girls, sooo you are official right"
I smirked and said.
"Yup this hot fucker is mine" and i stuck my tongue out.
Clara looked embarrassed and that made me laugh even more.
"Girls time to eat!" Mom yelled.
We got to the dining table and sat down.
I wasn't hungry but Clara was next to me and i don't want her to worry.
Finneas sat down next to Clara and said.
"I'm Finneas by the way, i totally forgot to introduce myself i'm sorry"
"Oh it's okay, I'm Clara" she said.
And i knew that Finneas was gonna say this.
"Oh i know, Rig talks about you allll the time" i rolled my eyes at him and faced Claudia.
"I can't believe you're in love with this fool"
Claudia laughed.
"Rigby shut up, I'm not a fool"
I laughed and he looked mad, i know he's joking.
"Oh sorry didn't mean to crash your heart"
"okay Rigby,enough" dad said.
I laughed and took a bite.
"Do you like it Clara?" Mom asked.
She nodded and said "oh yes! It's delicious! Thanks"
The food was delicious.
Abd i ate everything.
Billie looked very proud.
Clara was done too.
"Can we go to my room?" I asked.
"Oh yes of course" dad said.
So i grabbed Clara's plate,stacked it on mine and placed it in the sink.
I grabbed her hand and walked us to my room.
"So was meeting finn that scary?" I giggled.
"No it wasn't"
I gave her a small kiss.
Than Billie texted me "I'm fucking proud of you eating your dinner, iloveyou"
I smiled and texted back "i love you more bill"
"Sorry that was Billie" i said.
I smirked at her and she gave me a small peck.
When she tried to pull back i grabbed her chin and kissed her again.
Her tongue was brushing against my teeth so i opened my mouth.
Our tongue's were dancing together and small moans escaped from her mouth.
I broke the kiss and left some small kisses in het neck.
"Baby, im so tired" she said.
"Wanna watch a movie?"
She nodded and i grabbed my laptop.
"Pick a movie baby, imma change in some joggers"
She nodded and looked through Netflix.
I changed right in front of her.
I could see her trying so hard to keep her eyes on the laptop.
I acted like I couldn't see her looking at my body.
"Mean girls?" She asked.
"Baby I don't mind, you choose"
"Mhmm twilight, orrrr..GIRL INTERRUPTED"
She said very excited.
"Baby I don't minddd you chose"
"Okay, girl interrupted it is"
I layed down next to her and placed the laptop on my lap.
Not one second later and she is all snuggled up in my arms.
"Baby, can we also just cuddle and listen to music?" She asked very soft.
I smiled, I've seen this movie before so i know whats about to happen.
"Ofcourse,lemme grab my airpods"
I connected my airpods and placed one in her ear.
I gave her a small kiss and she closed her eyes.
In not even 10 minutes i could hear her little snores.
I can't sleep, all i can think about is that fucking interview and the fact that that gossip site is gonna be at the grammy's to ask celebrities questions.
I hope Billie doesn't lose her shit and says something really stupid.
I just close my eyes and cry softly while listening to strange by Celeste.
I'm scared to meet celebrities.
I'm scared of what they think about Clara.
Im scared that i'll have a panic attack and ruin the whole night for everyone.
Im scared that Billie wont get a Grammy.
I'm scared that she'll get booed.
Im scared that Finneas won't win producer of the year.
All these fucking thoughts are traveling through my mind.
I can feel tears forming in my eyes.
I want to scream it out.
I want to smoke, that'll tune my thoughts out.
I want to hurt myself, that's my worse addiction.
Why do i always hurt myself when i feel shitty?
It's 6 in the fucking morning and i haven't slept at all.
We have to wake up in an hour.
But the thought of sleeping makes me creep out.
Bad things happen in my dreams and I don't want that to happen now.
My AirPods are making that sound they make
when they are running out of battery.
My thoughts are still running around like some fucking 4 year olds playing on a playground.
I can hear mom and dad talk.
I don't know what they are saying.
I only hear my thoughts.
Billie once told me that not sleeping makes those dark circles under your eyes less noticeable than when you sleep for an hour.
I don't know if thats true.
I think and think and think.
One more hour of thinking passed by like a train.
"Sweeties, it's time to wake up" mom said as she peeked her head in my room.
I looked up, acting like i just woke up.
I felt Clara shift and i heard her groan.
"Come one baby, we gotta wake up"
She opened her eyes and said "how long ago did you wake up? You never sound like this in the morning"
"What do you mean, I've legit just woken up baby" i lied.
"Oh okay well you know you can tell me everything right" she said.
I grabbed her chin and said "i know baby, thank you" and i kissed her.
I got out bed.
And Clara stayed in for a second.
"Baby, do you wanna shower first or should i go?"
"You go, so i can sleep for a little longer"
I nodded and got under the shower.
It was making me tired.
So i made it cold.
I like cold.
But i also like very hott.
I feel really fucking bad.
Those thoughts were still here.
I made the shower so hot that my skin got red.
This burning feeling made me smile, fuck that sounds crazy.
I stood under this hot shower for 10 seconds, and after that i turned it to the coldest.
I made sure to put it back at the right temperature.
I got out of the shower and changed in a basic cat t shirt that was once Finneas's and all black jogging pants.
I got in my room to tell Clara the bathroom is free.
"I don't know what to wear AT ALL" she said.
I tossed her a shirt of my and one of her jogging pants that were in her bag.
"Wear this baby"
"Thanks" she said as she walked to the bathroom.
She gave me a small peck on the lips and walked further.
I sat down on the couch next to dad.
"Morning dad"
"Good morning Rigby, i'm reading an article about the history of jazz, really entertaining"
I laughed.