Rigby O'connell |BE

10

I woke up.
"You did well rigby" i hear a doctor saying..
"Do you want something to drink?" They ask..

"I want Billie" i say.
"Okay we will call her."
"Hey Rigby.." she says
"BILLIE" i scream
She is crying..
"Whats wrong?"
"Nothing I'm just happy that your alive"
I smile..

I cry.
"Can i go home?" I ask
"In an hour" the doctor says.
Im glad..
"We have to talk about how this happened so maybe in 2 hours" he says

"Is mom coming?" I ask
"She is"
"Do you want to see her?" Billie ask's
"Yes"
"Doctor can we please see our mom"
"Pretty please?" I ask
I just want to go home..
"Okay i will bring you guys to your mom" the doctor says.
I see mom,
She is crying.
She looks at me.
"RIGBY" she screams.
"Hey mom"
She hugs me..
I missed her so much

"Rigby why don't you take a shower and get dressed? If your done we can talk about how this happened."
The doctor says.

I'm not ready to talk about it.. i know i have to tell them about what happened with jordan..
I get undressed and i walk into the shower.. seeing myself in the mirror.. the last time i was naked was with Jordan..

I can't stop thinking about it..
It's fucking annoying..
"IM DONE SHOWERING" i scream
"Great!" I hear someone saying..
I can't tell if its Billie of Mom or someone else.
When i get out of the shower i see Finneas.
I hug him.

"Oh i missed you so much Rigby" he says
"Missed you too !"
I see Claudia.
"Hey Rigby!"
"Hey Claudia!"
I hug her too!
" where is dad?" Billie ask's mom
"He is outside getting Rigby some food"

✨Time skip✨

We were in a big room with a long table
I was sitting next to Billie.
I knew this was going to be one of the hardest conversations I've ever experienced.

"So let's talk about how it happened" a weird looking man said.
I think he is a doctor or a therapist..
I hope he is a doctor.
"She passed out" Claudia says
"Did she pass out because it was to hot or cold or?"
"Probably stress" mom says

She doesn't know.
She doesn't need to know.
"It happens often, normally i know why she is stressed or something like that but this time I don't know what happend" mom says

"i- i" i try to say i was raped but I couldn't.
"She was raped" Billie says.
"What?! Sh-She" mom says
"Was raped, i was raped by a boy"
"Why didn't you tell me Rigby?"
"I WAS JUST SCARED OKAY?! ITS NOT MY FAULT!" I scream!

"Who raped you?" Dad says
"I'm not gonna tell you" i say.
I'm losing control over my breath and i hold onto Billies arm.
"T-Talk for m-m-me p-p-please" i say
"Should i tell them who did it" she asks
Fuck no!

"Jordan"
I push her.
"W-w-why d-di-did y-you te-t-tell them?" I whisper.
"I had to i'm sorry"
"Jordan?" Dad asks Billie
"Ryan's Jordan" she say's.
"Really?!" Mom asks

I nod..
I want to run away.
I stand up.
"Stay here" Claudia says
"No"
I tried to walk away but finneas pulled me back.
"Don't run away from your problems Rigby" he says

"Rigby? Can you tell us what happened?"
"Y-y-yes i c-can, u-uhm he as-asked if i w-wanted t-t-to g-go to h-hi-his r-r-room a-and i sai-said y-yes.."
I saw mom looking at me with a weird look
"W-whats w-wr-wrong m-m-mom?" I ask
"Your stutter?"
"Sorry" i say.
"No problem sweetie" she says
"U-uhm and he s-started to uhm t-touch my l-le-leg and uh he to-took of my h-hoodie, he kissed me,a-and he t-took of my s-shirt an-and touched my b-boobs and my a-arms and b-belly.. and he g-gave me a h-hi-hickey.. i te-texted Billie and he uhm took me t-to his ba-bathroom.. he t-took of my br-br-bra.. he kissed me and yes he uh-uhm unzipped my je-jeans and putting them o-of and h-he he uhm ye his uh-uhm hand w-was in my.. uhm- you know w-what i mean.. he unzipped his jeans to and uh he fu-fuck-fucked me.."

Shit
I
Told
Them
..........

Nobody is saying anything..
are they sad..
or suprised
"Sorry" i say as i run away..
i see alot of doctors and i run to the toilet..
I'm trowing up..
"Rigby?"
"Yes?" I say
It's Billie
"Are you okay?"
"No"

I flushed the toilet and walked out!
I hugged Billie.
"I'm proud of you" she says
I just cry
"Thank you Billie" i say.
"Come on let's go back."