Warnings: Mature Language, Mentions of Abortion, Abortion, Unprotected Sex Mentioned, Mentions of Rape, Manipulation, Legal stuff, Mentions of Incest, Violence, Slurs, Scars, Bruises, Blood, Crying, Mentions of Non Consensual Sex, Sexual References.
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𝐀𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬? 𝐅𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞~𝐒𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐞-𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐍𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝
𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 beauty is pain, well, maybe you can have both. I splashed cold water on my face as I tried to make myself look more presentable. There were only a few people I cared who I looked for or cared if they smelt the alcohol on my breath or my stench. One of them was Tory's younger brother Brandon, she wouldn't let me see him due to my behaviour so I was going to collect the last of my things today.
"Fuck." I sighed spinning round and throwing up into the toilet, shit! It's been the same thing since Lola's party a week ago. I wiped my mouth, flushed the chain and looked at my breasts in the mirror. They have been hurting more lately. "Please lord, not again." I whispered out in a sigh. I looked at myself in the mirror, I applied concealer to my face to cover the bags under my eyes.
After I blended my makeup into my eyes I looked at myself in the mirror, I felt like a failure, like a weakling. I stepped out of the ensuite bathroom to see mom and Terry sat together with a steaming hot pot of coffee. "Hey, how are you feeling?" Mom asked me as I sighed. "Uh, not great."
"Too much to drink last night?" She sassed as I rolled my eyes, "Come on Amelia, don't doubt Izzy, whatever happened." Terry spoke in my defence as I smiled. "I didn't drink as much for your information." I bit back as the pair sighed. "Look, I gotta go get some shit from Tory's. I'll catch you later." I stated walking out. "How bad is she do you think?" Terry wondered to Amelia who stood behind him wrapping her arm around his chest. "She's not drunk, she's pregnant." Amelia sadly spoke...
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𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐓𝐨𝐫𝐲'𝐬 door, struggling to come to terms with that I didn't live here anymore, that Tory wasn't mine. I wasn't hers. "One minute!" Her voice called out as I went to light up a cigarette then remembered I may be pregnant, shit, fuck no stop Iz. I put the cigarette down nonetheless stamping on it, "What do you want?" Tory questioned to me with a scowl as I frowned.
"I'm here for my shit, unless you forgot when you brutally kicked me out I didn't take all my things." I pointed out harshly. "Shocked you aren't smoking, but come in, for five minutes." She agreed as I scoffed, "How little you think of me."
"I uh, put your stuff there." She pointed to a corner with a box that said "Iz's stuff." "Lovely." I stated grabbing my box with a slight wince, "Are you uhm, okay?" Tory wondered as I rolled my eyes. "Like you care, you didn't care when you dumped my ass after I let you win." I fired at her. "You let me win?" She repeated with a scoff. "Yeah, if I didn't get myself disqualified for you I'd be the reigning champion, but hey, the things you do for love right?" I sneered at her.
"Please, you let Terry manipulate you like you do everyone! Don't blame your shit on me just because you failed at something. Now, I have to go to work so you can get the fuck out of my apartment." Tory snarled. "I thought you loved me?" I questioned her. "I do, but not when you're like this. I mean fuck I can still smell the sick on you, you need help." Tory told me as I huffed.
"No you know what, you're just the same as Sam except you don't have a golden toilet to piss in. I hope Brandon's okay, tell him I said hi." I sneered storming out her house and slamming the door. I placed my box down and sighed leaning against her door. "He's not the man you think he is." Tory told me about Terry as I sensed she leant against the door.
"And you're not the woman I thought you were. Goodbye, Tory." I spoke to her ignoring the tears welling in my eyes. "Goodbye, Izzy."
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𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 went to see John, I wanted to confront him about Stingray but I stopped myself. I felt like I couldn't see me yet, I wasn't prepared to see him, to talk to him, to shout, to scream, to cry. Instead I called up one of the people I felt I had to talk to, "Hi, it's me." I spoke to him. "I need to talk with you." I told him. "About what bro?" He asked me. "I need you to buy me a pregnancy test, come over to Sensei Silvers asap." I ordered. "Shit." He sighed..
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"𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞." I voiced to the man as he handed her the box, "Follow me." I sighed as he followed me, I led him to the bathroom. "Give me a minute." I huffed entering the bathroom and shutting the door behind me. Peeing on a stick is easy right? I've done it six times. I squatted and sighed peeing on the stick, "How longs it take?" He asked me. "A minute or two." I replied placing the pregnancy test on the side and pulling my underwear up.
"Do you, uh, need me to come in?" He asked. "No! It's fine." I refused quickly as I paced up and down the room, I took a breath and looked down at the test. "Shit." I huffed picking up the test in my hands. "Well, what's it say?" He asked barging through the door. "Don't knock then, fuck." I complained. "Iz, just tell me man!" He ordered. "Yeah, Kyler, you're gonna be a dad!" I cheered mockingly shoving the test in his face.
"Fuck." Kyler sighed. "Well you're getting it aborted right?" He asked me as I looked up at him, "Are you kidding? Why are you being so harsh about this?" I questioned him irritated. "Fuck! I can't be a dad, my own dad will kill me. And-And you can't be a mom, you're not even looking after yourself right now." Kyler rambled with a frown. "Thanks for the fucking life update you dick." I spat at him, throwing the test onto the floor.
"Hang on, you were the one that threw yourself at me, drunk out of your mind." He hissed at me. "And you happily took it like a lapdog, it's fine, I'll go to the abortion clinic or something." I shrugged it off. "Well don't expect me to come with you, my dad will banish me or some shit." Kyler retorted as I grabbed his face harshly.
"You're coming with me! You fucked me, you refused to use a condom so it's on you!" I snapped at him. "We had this discussion dude!" He spat. "I was drunk out of my brain, I can't drink, I can't smoke. Fuck! I lost Tory and I'm spiralling! I don't need your petty bullshit Ky, I really don't." I snarled the tears falling down my eyes. "I'm sorry." Kyler apologised quietly as I began to push him.
"You dick! You blamed me, you make women feel useless, you feel some power over them or you're scared. Fuck you, fuck you." I chanted loudly continuing to shove him. However, instead of attacking me back I felt his hands grip onto mine, "Why don't you stop being a chump hmm? I know I was a dick but I'll come with you later I promise." Kyler promised me as I looked up to him.
"Last time I went I was alone." I admitted quietly. "You've done this before?" He asked me. "I uhm, I was drunk last year and uh some guy took advantage of me. I didn't even get to consent, I tried to say no but he had it down to being drunk. He didn't think it mattered." I admitted to him sadly. "I'm sorry bro." He apologised wrapping his arms around me.
"I only fucked you because I realised that Piper and Lola need one another not me." I sighed. "I only fucked you cause I've wanted too ever since I saw you in high school." Kyler pointed out. "Yeah I knew that." I muttered softly trying to stop myself from breaking down. "You'll be fine." He told me rubbing my back gently, "It really fucking hurts Ky..." I whimpered slightly as he held me..
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Flashback~Lola's Party-Author's POV
𝐈𝐬𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐲drunk, she was in a complete other dimension of drunk. Tory was hanging out with Robby which made her feel worse, she clung to her bottle of WKD like it was her life's savings. "You seem pissed Bunny." Lola commented as she was lounging on Piper's lap and grinding herself against her. "Such a good pun, you fucking slut." Izzy spat back walking towards the girls. "What's up with you?" Piper asked her. "I know what you're both doing, using me for your own shit. I'm done with you Lo, fuck you." Iz hissed stumbling towards the kitchen.
Cheering filled the air as she jumped up on the counter, "Hey! How's everyone doing tonight?" Isabelle called out loudly with a laugh as she was met with cheers, except for Demetri who was escorting Carl out in tears. "What the hell is she doing?" Robby seethed as Tory scowled, her eyes were screaming sadness though at seeing her ex like this. "So we all know I'm a bisexual whore right? Well guess who else is!" Isabelle smirked chugging her WKD.
"Come on that's enough." Tory voiced. "Tory Nichols is a bisexual whore fucking my ex best friend. And I wish them the best, because who doesn't love Robby and Tory huh? It doesn't matter who they hurt as long as they play the pity card." She snarled twirling along on the counter. Everyone was watching the scene in amazement, either gasping, laughing or not saying a thing.
"Fuck you, the fuck is wrong with you?" Tory sneered going near the counter. "Come closer bitch huh! You hurt me enough maybe it's payback!" Isabelle shouted then saw Tory get pulled back by Robby. "See, at least your boyfriend can protect you. Seen as I'm not worthy enough. But you know what? I don't care." Iz rambled on as Kyler jumped on the counter. "Come on bro, it's not funny anymore..." He trailed off to her quietly. "Come on stop making a fool of yourself, it's embarrassing!" Tory shouted.
Of course Isabelle retaliated, she retaliated by smashing her lips against Kyler's, of course he kissed her back. "Embarrassing? Bitch I've never been happier." Iz laughed feeling Kyler's hands near to her ass. "Take me to the guest bedroom." She whispered in his ear hopping off the counter and leading him towards the doorway. "Dude are you sure?" Kyler wondered as she looked up at him with innocent eyes.
"You've wanted me ever since Freshman year, it's why you bullied me. I'll give you what you want if you promise to be careful." Isabelle offered and in response Kyler dragged her into a room, smashing his lips against hers. "Y-You have a condom right?" She muttered as Kyler focused on kissing her neck, Isabelle was too drunk out of her mind to realise he never answered her or ever got one out...
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𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐭𝐨 see a message from Simon, he was banging on about Moon almost kissing him last night and that he wanted to meet up soon. I realised I was still in Kyler's arms and neither of us had moved, I looked up to him, "Don't feel like you have to stay." I told him. "I'm glad you said that, shit, I always feel awkward in these situations." He admitted with a nervous laugh. I ran my hands through his hair, "Don't feel awkward around me." I spoke attempting to smile yet nothing came out of it.
"Shit! I got my shift uhm, fuck fuck." I scrambled along running out of the bathroom and throwing a few things together. "I'll call you." Kyler called out as I shouted back, "Whatever." and ran off.
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"𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲'𝐝 let you back here." I voiced to Simon with a grin. "Who doesn't want me washing cars for my own dads company?" He boasted as I rolled my eyes going to the control room. "Fuck you." I scoffed trying to brush off the feeling of sickness in my stomach. "That's no way to talk to your boss." Simon smirked as I flipped him off, "Welcome to Metcarffe Motors, please park your car over there and wait for our number one high tech machine to clean your car, thank you." I called out as a car beeped along.
"Look Iz, I'm just saying, the way you acted at the party wasn't cool. Especially not with Kyler Park of all people, I mean I don't judge people but he's the worst." Simon rambled on. "He's not that bad is he?" I questioned Simon as I noticed Kanis in her car getting it cleaned, Morgan was in the back. "Wait your turn." I ordered as she looked at me. "Oh look who it is." She smirked. "How do you feel Morgan knowing your girlfriend corrupted you to the wrong side?" I sassed. "Better because I see the train wreck you're becoming." She sassed. "Go somewhere to get your car cleaned." Simon ordered.
"I think we'll stay here thanks." Kanis sneered waiting in line for her car to be washed. During that time I stepped out of the box and let Simon deal with the next customer before them. I looked down at my phone, I clicked on Tory's contact. I didn't know if to message her an apology.
Hey Tory it's Izzy, fuck u know that. Im trying to apologise here 4 being so rude at the party, I was just rly hurt by u nd what happened w us. I just have abandonment issues or smthing idk. I still love you and hope one day you'll forgive me.
Yet instead of sending the message I let out a sigh and saved it as a draft. I walked back into the control room with Simon, "Dick one and two are in there now." He voiced. "Brilliant." I sighed. "Let's fuck with them." He smirked. "Okay how?" I chuckled. "If we just press the wrong buttons..." Simon grinned. "Then her car is fucked." I smirked smashing any buttons I could on the controls as Simon joined in, apparently there was a policy so that the people got out of their car if it was a full clean- that's just here though.
"My fucking Mercedes! I'm gonna kill you Kreese!" Kanis yelled as Simon and I ran away laughed. "And yes Kyler is that bad." Simon told me as we continued to run away from the car wash. "I'm pregnant with his baby." I admitted as we continued to run, yet all of a sudden Simon stopped grabbing my arm so I didn't fall. "Did I hear you right?" He asked me as I sighed. "Yeah, he's my baby daddy I guess." I stumbled along my words.
"What? When? How and Why?" He questioned. "Lola's party, after I flipped at Tory I spiralled and dragged him to Lola's bedroom. I was just drunk out of my mind." I admitted with a slight groan, "Shit that was a week ago, does he know? Do I need to kill him?" Simon questioned as I rolled my eyes with a smile. "Yes he knows and no you don't need to kill him, just fuck I don't know." I smiled as he wrapped an arm around me.
"Well Isabelle Betsy Kreese, I hereby promise you that I'm not going anywhere unlike these other bitches." Simon assured me as I beamed. "I love you." I smiled. "I love you too." He smiled back pressing a kiss on my forehead as my phone buzzed. "Who is it?" He asked as I looked with a sigh.
Kyler: Booked u an appointment dawg. Its at 4.
"Kyler, he's booked me the appointment." I sighed running a hand through my hair. "How can I help Izzy?" He asked. "Please come with me, I don't wanna be alone." I pleaded as Simon took my hand. "Sure."
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"𝐀𝐡 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 again, Miss Kreese." Florence judged, she was the woman who took care of the abortions for young women, well one of them. "Lovely warm welcome as always." I retorted as Simon went to go get some refreshments and give me space.
To Tory: I rly need you right now.
I let out a sigh as I took a seat on the bed, "Whose the daddy this time?" She asked me looking away as I changed into the hospital gown if you will. "Some guy." I shrugged looking down at my arms to see scars from needles, bruises from fights, I looked awful and fuck my hair was greasy. "It's always some guy with you, is this guy coming?" She wondered as I sighed.
Iz to Ky: Where tf r u? I cnt do this alone.
I then clicked on my message to Tory:
Read at 4:10pm
"Fuck." I muttered. "Uh, no I don't think so." I sighed. "Okay, well I have people waiting. So lay down and put these earphones in your ears." Florence quickly advised as I did so. Simon came in and stood next to me holding my hand, "Here lemme put on some Adore Delano for you." He smiled putting her album Dirty Laundry on. "Just relax okay? That bitch Tory will regret the day she showed you up like that. I mean who chooses to hang out with Robby over being there for you." Simon rambled on as I squeezed his hand the tears welling in my eyes.
"Just shut the fuck up! It hurts." I winced clutching onto the MP3 player I was given and closed my eyes.
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"𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐬 wrong with you!" Simon shouted. "Why the fuck are you judging me! Bro, I could fuckin' end you in minute." Kyler snarled. "You aren't seeing Isabelle." My best friend stated. "Why not man? Can't I check on her?" He asked. "Not when you pushed her into this and couldn't even be arsed to show up." Simon hissed as I slowly tried to get up, fuck. "Stomach cramps are a bitch." I muttered hissing in pain as I got up. "I already said my dad made me do trig before I could leave." Ky snapped.
"Yanno what? Fuck you, you aren't wanted you're gonna leave." Simon ordered shoving Kyler as I stumbled outside the room to them in the halls. "Don't fucking shove me man." Kyler snarled shoving him back. "Guys! Stop!" I shouted at them both as they sighed. "Do you want him here?" Simon asked trying to calm down. I simply nodded, "I'll give you guys a minute I guess, but if you hurt her. I'm gonna stab you, you've heard the story's right?" Simon sneered. "Y-Yeah." Kyler stammered and Simon kissed my cheek, "I left you a candy bar and a water on the side." He smiled walking off.
"C-Can we go back to the bed?" I wondered weakly as he nodded trying to help me back to my bed. "The rude lady said you can go home in a few hours." Kyler informed me as I winced hopping back onto the bed. "Yeah, I gathered that would be the case." I answered with a sniffle. "Sorry I wasn't there." He apologised. "Why are you being so nice to me?" I wondered shocked. "Cause Piper told me some of the shit you'd been through, plus you're a little scary." Kyler confessed sitting next to me.
"Only a little? You practically pissed your pants when you saw what I did to Kiana." I smiled slightly as he swatted my side. "Ow you bastard." I whined shuffling up. "Shit, sorry!" He apologised grabbing my hand, "Ha ha got you." I grinned keeping a hold of his hand. "Fuck you." Kyler scowled as I opened up my phone to see a link sent to me from Carl.
𝙼𝚊𝚗 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚐𝚎𝚍𝚕𝚢 𝚛𝚊𝚙𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚊𝚞𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚍𝚊𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚞𝚙 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚠𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚢 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚘𝚗. 𝙻𝚎𝚠𝚒𝚜 𝙺𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚜𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚊 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚔𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚒𝚏 𝚑𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚌𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚛 𝚐𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚢.
"Looks like life is gonna be a whole lot shittier." I sighed flopping back onto my bed tears in my eyes... Beauty is pain, but so is life...
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