HOPE DE GUZMAN
Natapos na ang event at nag-uwi kami ni Minghao ng third place trophy na siya namang pinagyabang kaagad ng mga kaklase namin. They are planning to celebrate after class but I don't think makakaabot pa ako roon.
I sneaked out of the campus. Dahil puwede namang maglabas-pasok ay nakapuslit ako nang walang kahirap-hirap. My heart can't take it anymore!
Sa buong program, ang naramdaman ko lang ay kaba at kirot sa puso. Woozi being expressive gives me more cautions, paano kung makatunog si Seungcheol sa kaniya? One more thing, I can feel that I was just being watched in the whole program. Naiilang akong gumalaw, makipag-usap, o kahit tumingin-tingin lang sa paligid.
I was about to cross the streets when a hand suddenly grabbed my wrist. I shut my eyes closed and prayed for a miracle. Sana si Woozi nalang ulit, please!
"Saan ka pupunta? Hindi pa tapos ang program," I panted after recognizing the voice of a psycho.
"I thought you're not leaving that fast because you were too touched by his sweet voice," shit, he's talking about Woozi!
I tried to let go of his grip pero napakalakas niya kung ikukupara sa'kin, nanghihina na rin ako sa kaba at pagod. "B-bitawan mo ako, Choi Seungcheol," I begged.
He chuckled, "Why? Masyado ka bang naattract sa boses ni Jihoon?" he's smiling but the tone of his voice was so sharp!
"I can sing for you too," yumuko lang ako't patuloy na umiling sa kaniya.
"May napapansin ako babe ha, hindi ka naman close sa mga lalaki noong hindi mo pa ako kilala, pero ngayong nasa'kin ka na bigla ka nalang naging malapit sa kanila? Worse, sa mga kaibigan ko pa?" he asked.
I tried my best not to cry. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit. I am not so close to guys since then, mas gusto kong makipag-interact sa mga babae dahil mas komportable ako sa kanila. Pero hindi naman ako ilag pagdating sa pakikipag-usap sa mga lalaki noon. It's just that this time, I was being watched, hindi ko na alam kung tama pa bang makipag-usap ako sa kahit sinong lalaki, maging sa babae!
"Tell me, did that fucking voice give you butterflies?" I shut my eyes closed.
"Did that little chitchats with Jeonghan tickle your stomach? Tell me," I winced as his grip went tighter.
"Bitawan mo 'ko!" natatakot man, pinilit kong taasan siya ng boses.
"Answer me first," his cold husky voice, so intimidating!
I just stayed silent and tried to breathe as steady as I can. I am not obligated to answer him, but just by seeing him acting like a psycho in a public place makes me feel anxious!
"Okay," I nearly screamed when he dragged me to the parking lot. He threw me inside a car.
I immediately grabbed the door to open but his voice threatening me made me abort my mission, "Try to escape and I will fuck your sister, go dare me,"
Napatingin ako sa kaniya sa gulat. He just looked unbothered, paano niya nasabi 'yon sa mismong harapan ko!? "Baliw ka! Bastos!" Hinampas ko siya mula sa back seat.
"I don't know where the hell she was but I will search for her alone, just to give her misery," napanganga ako nang saluhin niya ang kamay kong humahampas sa kaniya. He just smirked at me, walang bahid ng konsensya!
"Tama na!" I covered my ears in fear. Naramdaman kong pinaandar niya na ang kotse, he even opened the radio just to get rid of my sobs and whimpers.
I was too afraid to move, paano nga kung galawin niya talaga si Faith? Hinding-hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko once na mangyari 'yon!
Malapit lang ang bahay niya sa school kaya't nakita ko nalang ang sarili kong hinahatak ni Seungcheol papasok sa bahay niya. Lumabas din kami sa back door at saka niya ako tinulak papasok sa isang silid.
I tought I was with the pigs again but this place is worse. I see different kinds of knives inside, butchered pigs are hanging on the ceiling, this place is cold, unpleasant view and smell, this is bad.
"My house is like an extension of my work in meat shop. Wala nang mga baboy rito since marami nang magcocomplain so trinansfer nalang sila sa ibang lugar. I'm not yet ready to let go of this one," he explained to me.
"I will deal with you later, kailangan kong bumalik sa school dahil maraming nag-eexpect sa akin," he grabbed my waist and tried to kiss me but I slapped his face really hard.
Marahas kong inalis ang braso niya sa baywang ko. He scoffed and bit his lower lip in annoyance, "Do not try to escape, I'm telling you, I will definitely hunt for your sister and hang her here, together with these disgusting pigs,"
I stepped back, "Siraulo ka!" I threw him a metal bucket that I saw near me.
He greeted his teeth as the dirty water splashed on his shirt. He heaved a deep sigh while trying to wipe away the stains but failed. The water made his shirt wet and slightly bulged his upper body.
I trembled as his eyes went darker. He's breathing heavily due to so much anger. I tried to push him out of my way and ran but he's too fast!
He locked the door and grabbed my wrist. He pushed me against the wall harshly. "Kapag sinabi kong dito ka lang, dito ka lang,"
I gasped after seeing him grabbing a knife from the table. My lips are shaking, my eyes widened as he pointed the blades on my neck.
I shut my eyes closed after seeing him leaning close to my face. "I'm fucking done acting nice, it doesn't fit me, babe,"
I cried, his cold voice added more fear on my body, "Kung gusto mong umalis dito, then be a nice wife to me,"
I flinched after feeling his lips touching mine. "Ang hirap mong pakitunguhan. Palagi nalang si Faith ang nasa isip mo. But when it comes to other guys, kung makaasta ka parang hindi ka aware na nandito ako," His kiss went deeper, lumingon ako sa ibang side para makawala sa labi niya.
But I gasped when he suddenly grabbed my hair to stay still, "For you to stop making me jealous, you should stay here for good,"
I continued to cry as he started to devour my lips again. "For you to stop being so ambitious, I have to get rid of your sister,"
"She won't love you, she is not grateful to have you. There's no point of taking care of a brat little bitch like her. Take care of me, take care of yourself instead," I felt how my heart throbbed painfully as I receive those wrods from him while he's still torturing my lips.
Out of anger, I tried to grab the knife on his hand. Napakunot ang noo niya nang subukan kong diinan ito sa leeg ko.
I flinched as I felt the blades digging on my neck, I coughed, "Patayin mo nalang ako, Seungcheol,"
He chuckled, "Desperate bitch,"
He threw the knife away and traced his fingertips on my wounded neck, "Still hot with this blood dripping on you, damn,"
His face went down on my neck, I pressed my lips after hearing him slurping my blood, "Don't worry, babe. I will kill you soon," he chuckled.
He get up while wiping his lips that were stained with my blood. "If that's your wish then let's go. Just remember that I love everything about you, even your suicidal side. Fucking adorable,"
"I badly need to go, I was expecting you to be there in my game pero mas mabuting dito ka nalang kaysa makaapekto ka pa sa'kin. Mas makakampante ako kung walang makakakita sa'yo maliban sa'kin," he smirked before giving me another kiss.
"Babalik ako after. I love you so much," I pushed him away but he still kissed my lips.
I spit on him, he just chuckled before closing the door. I heard him locking it, and after a click, the lights turned off.
It's cold and dark.
My knees weakened after realizing that I'm alone, I sat on the ground, winced as I felt the floor was wet. Napatakip ako ng tainga sa takot, it's too quiet inside.
I breathed heavily. Fuck, Choi Seungcheol! Bakit kailangan mo akong iwan sa madilim na lugar!?