[ - sophia - ]
After time passes by, it's finally the day where I've gotten the courage to tell Joshua about Ella. I said I'd do it "yesterday" right ?? Apparently, that "yesterday" is like 3 weeks....
I didn't have the courage and I wasn't that much in a stable mood. I don't want anything bad to happen either and I don't want to yell at him out of nowhere since I am short tempered.
He's in the living room right now, so I approached him
"Shua ya" I called him
"Yes ?" Joshua responded as his eyes are still glued on his phone
"Are you... Free ?" I asked, feeling timid.
"I am, why ?" he asked without looking at me
"Can we maybe have a talk for a bit ???" I asked
"Sure sure" he put down his phone as he gestured to sit beside him.
Of course I went to sit beside him. I felt my heart jumping out of my chest. I was really nervous and really scared to bring this topic up...
"What do you want to talk about ??" He asked as he looked at me
"It's... About Ella..." I said as I fiddled with my fingers
"What's with Ella ?" he asked
I was quiet for a bit, doesn't know how in the hell I'd say this nicely ugh
"Remember when you'd always ask if we're ever in a good condition since she seemed to dislike me so much ??" I asked
"Well, yeah. What about that ?" he tilted his head
"Apparently, we hate each other till the point we don't even want to see each other" I said to him
He seemed surprised but at the same time he isn't
"Okay, so your point is ??" he asked, knowing well this isn't what I really wanted to talk about
"Of course I wouldn't hate her without any reason, but I'm not sure about her" I sighed
"What's the reason then ?" he raised his eyebrow
"Well, it's related to why I've never dated anyone anymore after what she had done to me" I said to him
By his face expression, I could tell he doesn't want to believe me but he didn't say anything and would want me to explain more.
"How exactly ?" he asked
"Well, it all started back in highschool. Every relationship I've been in would always end with them leaving me for her. Apparently she just doesn't like it when guys are head over heels with me. She'd make sure I'd suffer for god knows why and even now, it's still happening" I sighed
"She did that ?? I can't believe my ears. It sounded like it was made up" he crossed his arms
I somehow knew this would've happened...
"Well, you weren't in my shoes so you couldn't understand me. I guess it would've been better if I didn't tell you anything" I let out of a sigh
"I just wanted to help. Open your eyes Shua, she's not the girl you thought she is" I looked down
"If this is your tactic to make me leave her then it's not happening. It just sounded impossible for me" said Joshua
"At least come up with a better lie" he stood up
"You believing it is not MY problem. If anything happened then it's not my problem. I'm disappointed, I really am. But if you're in love with her, I have no rights to break you two apart. Though... If something happens, don't come back to me crawling to tell me you were wrong." I said as I went up to the stairs, wanting to head to my bed.
He was quiet for sure.
"I warned you." I said before leaving completely into my room.
[ - joshua - ]
I seriously couldn't believe my ears. Ella ?? Like that ?? I can't believe any of her words and it doesn't make any sense. I don't know what to say
But didn't my friends warned me the same things before ??? So should I believe her or not...??
.....
Gosh now I'm stuck in this dilemma of mine again.
[ - sophia - ]
I threw myself on the bed as I decided to text Jihoon about this. I'm upset, I really am. I just don't know what else am I able to tell that guy if he wouldn't believe what in the hell that girl have done to destroy my life to its fullest back in highschool.
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Jihoon ah,,,
Are you free,,,
Currently ?
Yeah, I'm on break rn
You need someone to talk
to again ???
Yeah :(
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He immediately called me which surprised me. He's really making up time for me everytime he would. I picked up the call
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What's wrong ???
It's odd for you to get
upset out of nowhere
Oh it's just...
I told Shua about Ella
and...
[ I couldn't seem to
bring it up... ]
And ???
[ I sighed ]
He doesn't seem to
believe me and said I was
making things up so he'd
leave her...
For real ???
Yeah... For real...
I'll have a talk with hyung
later so don't worry okay ?
No nooooo
You don't have tooooo
I simply have to Sooyoung
If he refuses to believe
you, then I'll tell him MY
side of the story
Seriously you don't have
to
Whether he's my best
friend or not, I have to
scold him you know ??
We've told him the same
thing before but he
wouldn't trust us
So I'll tell him MY side of
the story
[ I sighed ]
If that's something you'd
do then I have no rights
to stop you
I'm just hoping it'd work
Like I said, I am a nobody
for him to put his trust in
No ??
You are literally his wife
Someone he had sealed
his vow with
Someone he'd spend the
rest of his life with unless
you two are having a
divorce.
By any means, he HAVE
to trust you.
Does our marriage actually
mean anything ?
It's just an arranged marriage
between strangers that
doesn't care about each other
That's not what I saw
I know you two would fall
for each other eventually
At least, that's how I saw
how it'd go
So I'll try my best to help
you out as well
You two deeply care for
each other, but you two
didn't even see it
I'll do what I could okay ??
Rest your head and don't
overthink like you'd always
do
[ I felt relieved when
he said that ]
If you say so...
Thank you Jihoon
For always being there
when I needed it the most
Always happy to help
Now rest, I'll have a talk
with hyung when I'm
done with my work today
Thank you...
You're most welcome
Sooyoung
Take care
You too
....
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This guy is seriously ready to risk everything for me. I wonder what did I do in life to even deserve him I swear...