Poems collection -Self harm (trigger warning)

I curl

I  saw you today,

You made me so happy. 

I left the building determined

That I would make it through.

7 hours later,

I'm curling on my bed,

Crying my eyes out.

Suicide's the only way

But I'm not leaving yet.

You said you want to help me

So I'll wait a while,

And see how things go.

My heart's aching bad

And sobs arer trapped 

In the back of my throat.

But I'm here,

Waiting for you,

As I'll always be.

Help me.

I curl up on my bed,

And cry till my eyes sting. 

I'm gagging on sobs 

And I can no longer breathe.

Am I still alive?

But you're not there to check.

You know I'm hurting,

Like no one else can see.

But you don't know how to help me,

You're still trying your best.

Thank you so much. 

Time is running out.

March 11th

That is when I'll leave. 

You'll see after half term you say?

Well you could just make it,

If you're lucky.

But for now I'll curl up and cry,

Breaking down all the time. 

No one sees it.

And it kills me inside.

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30/1/15