I can feel him,
Controlling my arm,
Jagged lines on my leg,
Spelling AXH.
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No one'll know
What that means.
It means the world to me,
A world of torture.
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He's telling me no,
He's telling me stop,
He's telling me die,
He's wanting me dead.
So I shall obey.
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He destroyed my heart,
Cell by cell,
There's nothing left.
I can't feel,
I can't smile,
I've forgotten how.
I'm thrashing
Around inside,
But on the outside,
There's a horrible mask,
And its name is AU.
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Stupid name,
Stupid boy,
Stupid logic,
Stupid power,
But overwhelmingly strong.
He's got my under his arm,
I can't move.
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I'm captivated by his reasoning,
His insults his snarls.
I'll follow him,
I have no more will power,
Left to fight him off.
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So goodbye and hello,
I'm here but I'm dead,
As Rachel Taylor sings,
"I'm alive but I'm not
Living."
29/12/14
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Poems collection -Self harm (trigger warning)
RandomPoems about depression. And possibly more than that... I don't really know...