Poems collection -Self harm (trigger warning)

Looking at you

A look at you,
A look at me,
I start to cringe,
You start to walk.

I’m sitting down,
You’re standing up,
I’m listening in,
You talk to class.

I’m scared of you,
You hate me so,
What can I do,
To make things right?

I long to see,
The end of this,
I can’t take it,
Why can’t you see?

My fear of you,
Is just too great,
I run from you,
You walk from me.

It’s gone too bad,
I scream at you,
You don’t hear me,
You don’t care.

No one sees me,
No one cares,
No one helps me,
I’m lost in fright.

You’re older though,
You should be,
The one to sort out,
The issues we hold.

Why do you leave it?
Why do you ignore?
Do you like to see me,
Suffer in silence?

I tried to get help,
I really did,
But everyone I try,
Just turn away.

I lie in bed,
All alone,
Thinking about,
Which way to go.

I cry at night,
No one knows,
Can you not hear,
My sobs in black?

You look so happy,
You look so free,
But when I’m near,
You go so stiff.

What have I done,
What have I said,
To make you act,
In this terrible way?

My arms and legs,
Are hurting now,
Lines of blood,
Are you happy now?

I wear long sleeves,
Always trousers,
Hiding in class,
Can you really not see?

I want to escape,
I want to be free,
But you have trapped me,
To break away.

It pains me to see,
You face away,
I know you avoid me,
I can feel your hate.

I don’t like this,
Not one bit,
I can feel the pleasure,
What if I died?

Would you care,
Would you dare,
Not give a thought,
Of my dead soul?

The window in your classroom,
I can see it now,
Already open,
Ready for me.

You won’t know,
You won’t care,
If I fell,
From that room.

Goodbye my teacher,
Goodbye my foe,
I hope you enjoyed,
Stealing my life.

(Unknown date)