The 'Un' Attached String

Chapter - 34

Bulbul was lying down silently on the bed when Madhu came to her room. She sat beside Bulbul and patted her on the head and said, "Itne dino se tune ek bhi shabd nehi bola tha isliye main tujhse baat hi nehi kar paayi puttar, lekin doctor aunty ne bataya ke tune aaj unse baat ki. Main jaanti hu ke tujhe Maahir ke is behavior se bohot dhakka laga hai lekin in sab cheezo mein teri ma ki kya galti hai puttar? Tu usse kyu dur dur rehti hai? Us bichaari ne apni life mein bohot kuch jhela hai, saalo pehle tere daddy se alag ho gayi, akeli rahi, kiske liye kiya ye sab? Tere liye hi na? Agar vo chahti to apna ghar phir se basa sakti thi, phir se shaadi kar sakti thi lekin nehi kiya, ha ye sach hai ke vo tere daddy ke alava kisi aur se kabhi pyar kar hi nehi sakti hai par uski ek aur vajah to tu bhi to hai na. Ye jo abhi tu apni ma se baate nehi karti hai, uske saath aise gairo waala behave karti hai usse teri ma ko jo takleef pohchi hai na, kal bhi ro rahi thi." Bulbul got up and looked at Madhu for some time and then seeing that Madhu said, "Kuch bol na puttar, tu bolegi nehi to hum mein se kisiko kuch bhi samajhme kaise aayega? Kuch to bata!" Bulbul kept silent for some time and then spoke, "Mujhse koi pyar nehi karta hai, sab mujhe chod kar chale jaayenge, mamma bhi ek din dusri shaadi karke chali jaayegi, isliye main sirf aaphike saath hi rahungi, kisike paas nehi jaaungi. Sab burey hai, promise karke tod dete hai." Madhu understood her insecurities but she didn't want to talk about Maahir fearing how would Bulbul react and so she said, "Dekh beta sab ki baat jaane de, bhul ja, sirf Bela ke baare mein soch. Tune sabse zyaada waqt... mera matlab tu hamaare paas rahi hai hamesha se, isliye tune sabse zyaada apni ma ko to dekhti aayi hai, tujhe lagta hai ke teri ma tujhe chod sakti hai kabhi. Beta mamma ki jaan basti hai tujhme." Bulbul remained quiet and Madhu continued, "Tujhe pata hai Reyhaan ke alava bhi teri ma ke liye kitne rishte aaye the aur vo bhi bohot rich aur achchi NRI families se yahatak ke kitne to tujhe tak adopt karne ko ready the, lekin Bela ne kabhi in cheezo ke baare mein na to socha aur naahi dhyaan diya kyuki uske liye top priority tu thi, usne tujhe zyaada waqt nehi diya sahi hai lekin usne tere life ko secure karne ke liye hi ye sab kiya. Mujhe pata hai ke tujhe ye lagta hai ke teri mamma hamesha tere naanu ka side leti hai par tujhe pata hai vo aisa kyu karti hai, kyuki usne tere daddy se unke marzi ke khilaaf jaakar shaadi ki thi aur isi vajah se vo apne aap ko blame karti hai ke agar usne apne papa ki baat maan li hoti to aaj vo itni sad nehi hoti. Par tu dekh itne sab ke baavajud usne Reyhaan se shaadi nehi ki jabke tere naanu chahte the. Beta agar tu apni ma par hi yakeen nehi karegi to isse zyaada bari insult uske liye aur koi ho hi nehi sakti hai, ye baat to galat hai. Tu aisa meri beti ke saath kabhi kar hi nehi sakti hai. Kitna ro rahi thi bichaari usdin aur keh rahi thi ke meri Bulbul ka kya hoga usne to do dino se naahi mujhse baat ki aur naahi mamma kehkar bulaaya." While saying this, Madhu noticed that Bulbul became very sad and so she pushed Bulbul again to go to her mother. Bulbul then picked up her toy and then slowly walked out of Madhu's room and then reached Bela's bedroom. She slowly opened the door and found Bela sleeping on the bed. She walked inside and then climbed on the bed and shook Bela by her arm and called her, "Mamma!" She shook her again and Bela opened her eyes and looked at Bulbul. On seeing her, Bela got up out of fear thinking something might have happened to Bulbul and asked, "Bulbul kya hua beta?" Bulbul sat on Bela's lap and said, "I'm sorry mamma maine aapko hurt kiya na!" Bela could not hold back her tears on hearing Bulbul talking with her after such a long time and burst into tears. Bela held Bulbul's hand and asked, "Phir se ek baar mamma bolo please!" Bulbul again said, "Mamma!" Bela hugged Bulbul tightly by pulling her in her lap and Bulbul felt more guilty for hurting her mother like that and so she wiped Bela's tears and said, "Aap mat ro mamma, main aapko phir kabhi hurt nehi karungi." Bela smiled and replied, "No baby mujhe pata hai ke baby to kabhi bhi apni mamma ko hurt kar hi nehi sakti hai. I know, mera bachcha khud hi pain mein tha ke vo kisi aur ko kaise hurt kar sakta hai. It's just tumne itne dino se baat nehi ki na kisi se bhi to main thora sa tensed ho gayi thi." Bulbul replied, "Mamma aap mujhe please chod kar mat jaana. Mujhe aapke aur naani ke saath hi rehna hai." Bela hugged Bulbul again and kissed on her head and replied, "Kabhi nehi jaaungi, kabhi bhi nehi jaaungi. Main Bulbul ke bina to reh hi nehi sakti hu to main usko chod kar kaha jaaungi. Main agar kahi bhi kabhi bhi jaaungi na to Bulbul bhi mere saath jaayegi." Bulbul then remained silent for some time and then said, "Mamma mujhe yaha India mein nehi rehna hai par mujhe Canada bhi waapas nehi jaana hai." Bela agreed and replied, "Bilkul nehi rahenge hum! Is sheher ne mujhe koi khushi nehi di aur saath mein meri bachchi ko bhi bohot rulaaya hai, hum bilkul bhi yaha nehi rahenge. Abhi to sirf 2 months hi baaki hai par main to tumhaara ye saal waste bhi nehi kar sakti hu isliye 8 months jaise hi khatam honge na main aur tum kisi dusri country mein chale jaayenge jaha hume koi disturb nehi karega. I promise you that! Par ab se na baby tumhe bhi ek baat promise karni paregi ke abse tum in sab cheezo ke baare mein bilkul bhi nehi sochogi, tum jaisi thi tum bilkul vaise hi rehna and I promise you ke aaj ke baad koi bhi kabhi bhi tumko hurt karne ke baare mein soch bhi nehi paayega jabtak main hu tabtak." Bela then made Bulbul sleep beside her and said, "Jab bhi tumhaari tabiyat thik lage na to pehli baat tum mamma se vo sab kuch share karogi jo tumhaare dil mein hai. I'll never force you for that lekin jaise main tumhaare saath sab kuch share karti hu vaise tum bhi karna kyuki dil mein jo hai agar vo dil mein reh jaata hai to bohot taklif hoti hai. Isliye tumne abhi tak jo kuch bhi experience kiya hai tum vo sab mujhe bataogi... jab bhi tum chaho, whenever you're ready." Bulbul did not reply and Bela made her sleep beside her. She covered her with the blanket and then Bulbul closed her eyes and while patting her to sleep, Bela made a promise to herself, "Tu fikar mat kar meri bachchi, yaha se ja paau ya na ja paau lekin hisaab to main zarur baraabar karungi. Mere saath jo hua maine bardaasht kiya par tere saath jo hua ye main bardaasht nehi karne waali hu. In logo ne meri bachchi ko rulaaya hai aur is Anu ko agar main ghutno ke bal nehi lekar aayi to main bhi Bela Sareen nehi." She kissed on Bulbul's forehead and then slept beside her, hugging her.