The 'Un' Attached String

Chapter - 33

[ 2 Days Later ]

At night, Bela was looking at the slide show of the pictures and videos of Bulbul when she was 2-3 years old and was thinking about their time in Canada when Madhu came to her room. From the day, Bulbul returned from the hospital, she started avoiding Bela and even stopped sleeping with her mother and the more she was distancing herself from Bela, she was getting closer to Madhu. Madhu sat in front of Bela and asked, "Kya dekh rahi hai?" Bela, without looking at Madhu, smiled and replied, "Main Bulbul ke bachpan ke videos dekh rahi thi. Ek time tha jab na kabhi kabhi mujhe office jaane se rokne ke liye kitna drama karti thi. Draamebaaz kahiki!!" She suddenly became sad and replied, "Aur abhi to kuch bhi nehi bolti hai, baat nehi karti hai... mere paas bhi nehi aati hai." After a few seconds, she closed her laptop as her voice was becoming heavy and she said, "Bulbul mujhse dur ja rahi hai mamma... and I can't even stop her. Meri bachchi, meri jaan... aisa lag raha hai mamma pata hai vo hai na koi gehri khaai mein geerne ja rahi hai aur mere haath bandhe huye hai. Main dekh rahi hu vo ek ek kadam khaai ke taraf badh rahi hai lekin main kuch bhi nehi kar pa rahi hu. Mujhe pata tha ke uska dil tootega isiliye main usko yaha India aane nehi dena chahti thi lekin na aapne suni aur naahi aapki naatin ne." Madhu said, "Puttar aisa ho jaayega aisa kisne socha tha, maine to kabhi sapne mein bhi nehi socha ke Maahir aisa kuch karne ke baare mein soch bhi sakta hai." Bela gave a sarcastic smile and replied, "Jo aadmi biwi ke ghar mein rehte huye abroad mein jaakar affair kar sakta hai, usko..." She took a deep breath and closed her eyes out of disgust and continued, "Pregnant bana sakta hai... vo kuch bhi kar sakta hai. Usko sharam bhi nehi aayi ke mere jaate hi usne Anu ke... Usne Anu ko shaadi karne ka waada bhi kar liya. Ek saath vo teen teen zindagiya barbaad kar chuka hai. Chalo maan liya hum teeno to uske kuch lagte bhi nehi the lekin Bulbul... chalo maan liya ke maine usko Bulbul ke baare mein nehi bataya tha lekin jaan to gaya na vo... Bulbul to uska apna khoon hai, uske saath aisa karte huye ek baar bhi nehi socha ke us 8 saal ki bachchi par kya beetegi? Vaise why am I even complaining...." She again became sad and said, "In sab ke chakkar mein to meri bachchi pees rahi hai na mamma. Pata nehi aur kitna kuch sehna parega usko. Itna helpless maine apni life mein kabhi bhi feel nehi kiya hai. Dar lag raha hai ke kahi Bulbul is sadme se kabhi ubhar hi nehi paayi to?" She then became confused and said, "Par mujhe ek baat samajhme nehi aa rahi hai ke vo mujhe kyu avoid kar rahi hai? Mere paas nehi aati, meri baat nehi sunti... I just can't understand this aur yehi na mere tension ko aur bara raha hai. Vo baat nehi karegi to mujhe uski problem samajhme kaise aayegi? Pehle khaane ko lekar tamasha karti thi, ab jo diya jaata hai kha leti bina kisi chik chik ke. Koi zidd nehi karti, har baat sunti hai, aisa lagta hai jaise ke jaan hi nehi hai. Iam not used to this Bulbul. Ziddi, adiyal, har haal mein apni baat manwaane waali, mujhe apni vo waali beti waapas chahiye, mujhe ye aise nehi chahiye. Ye to jaise meri bachchi hai hi nehi, koi aur hai." Madhu put her hand in Bela's hand and replied, "Beta I know aur main bhi us puraani waali Bulbul ko bohot miss karti hu lekin ek normal adult aur ek bachchi ke react karne mein fark hota hai aur unse deal karne ke tareeke mein bhi fark hota hai. Isiliye doctor ne ek psychologist suggest kiya hai na Bulbul ke liye. Ye log professionals hote hai, inko experience hota hai bachcho se deal karne ka. Ab ma baap to har cheez mein expert hote hai na. Tu us psychologist se appointment le, Iam sure vo hamaari madat karengi, kamsekam kudi bolna to shuru kare. Par tujhe bohot dheeraj rakhna parega, tu aise himmat haar jaayegi na to Bulbul ko hum kabhi waapas nehi la sakenge aur phir tu to mera bahaadur bachcha hai, tu bohot strong hai, mujhe yakeen hai tu kar legi, aajtak to karti aayi hai na to aagey bhi kar legi." Bela said, "Vo to aap aur papa mere saath the mamma, is vajah se mujhe Bulbul ko lekar kabhi koi fikar nehi hui." Madhu nodded her head and replied, "Na betaji, agar hum tere saath na bhi hote na tu tab bhi kar leti. Matarani ne na aurat ko itni shakti di hai ke vo kuch bhi kar sakti hai aur khaas kar ke jab vo ma banti hai tab jo dard sehkar vo apne bachche ko is duniya mein lekar aati hai usse uski shakti dugni ho jaati hai. Maine khud dekha hai ke tu kis tarah se ek papa ki laadli aur bigdi hui beti se ek zimmedaar ma bani hai. Ha galtiya tujhse hui hai, bachpana tune kiya hai, Bulbul ko jitna waqt tujhe dena chahiye tha tune nehi diya par overall tune jis tarah se sab kuch sambhaala maine to tujhse ummeed hi nehi ki thi, itni maturity ki. To bas tu fikar mat kar, pehle bhi Bulbul ko sambhaala hai, abhi bhi sambhaal lenge. Beti vo teri hai, tera sabse pehla aur sabse zyaada haq hai, Bulbul kabhi tujhse dur nehi jaayegi, ab ye tujhe tey karna hai ke kaise usko waapas apne paas lekar aayegi." Bela hugged her mother tightly and wept.