"IT'S A YES!"
She shouted, lips forming big curves, showing her 24 teeth and her eyes can't deny the fact that she's serious.
"Shit! Really, Charlraine?!" I asked, unbelievably.
"Yes, For now on we will call each other Love," she said, moving her eyebrow up and down.
Cute as hell!
"Hindi ka ba nabibigla?"
"Bakit? Aren't you happy?"
"No it's not that, I mean, one week pa lang ang nakakaraan noong simulan kitang ligawan, kaya ko pang mag-intay."
"No, it's ok," she said and then cupped my face instantly. "I love you and I promised that you'll be my last," she whispered and my heart suddenly pumps so hard.
We're now here in a small cafeteria, having a simple celebration for today's happenings, aside from the fact that Charlraine and I are now officially on, nasabi niya rin kasi sa akin na ngayon din daw ibinalita na siya raw ang nag-top 1 sa klase nila.
"Congrats ulit love, nakaka-proud naman maging boyfriend mo," I said, chuckling.
"Oo nga pala, alam mo na ba?"
"Hindi pa."
"Baliw! Alam mo ba—"
"Hindi pa nga." For the second time, I cut her off.
"Waaa! Nakakainis ka!" she mumbled and gave me her deadly glare, giving me a warning that I should shut my mouth.
"HAHAHA ang cute mo asarin, 'di, sige tuloy na."
"Si Maria, 'yong best friend ko? At si Mike 'yong classmate mo. Sila na rin, kanina lang."
"Talaga?"
"Oo ang galing 'no? Ang saya HAHAHA."
Now, I'm heading back to my place after I drop her off their house. Hindi nawala ang ngiti ko sa labi simula noong oras na sagutin niya ako hanggang sa pag-uwi, maging sa pagtulog. Nakakatuwa lang na may 'kami' na.
Sa loob ng isang linggo, our relationship went well naman. Katulad lang din ng mga ibang simpleng magkakarelasyon. Sabay pumasok at umuwi, palaging magkasama at magkausap and always telling how much we love each other. Sweet siya, maalaga, but I never thought that it would only last for a week.
She suddenly became busy and her reasons? Her studies at kung hindi naman ay maraming gawain sa bahay. I do understand that because it's for her own good, but there's something bothering me kasi 'pag free time naman niya, gano'n pa rin siya, acting like she's not interested to me at all.
I always try to convince myself to stay calm kasi baka pagod lang siya but at the back of my mind, kahit hindi naman siya pagod, she's still cold and getting colder.
Today is Sunday, I messaged Charlraine, inviting her on our date tomorrow since its our Monthsary. I was so happy because she agreed. The last time I invited her, she refused, siguro ay naisip niya na dapat lang talaga na maglaan siya ng free time para rito ngayon.
"HAPPY FIRST MONTHSARY, LOVE!" I greeted, wearing my ginuine smile. Because, besides sa umabot kami ng isang buwan, proud ako sa sarili ko na pinili kong manatili sa kaniya kahit sobra niya na akong naaapektuhan.
"Marc, I have something to tell you," she said.
I just looked at her and wait her to talk.
"Ayoko ng patagalin 'to Marc, lalo kang mahihirapan," she continued.
My eyes widen and my heart beats so fast. I cleared my throat before I uttered. "Ano bang 'yang sinasabi mo Love? Alam mo kumain na lang tayo, baka gutom lang 'yan."
"No, Marc please listen to me. Hindi ako pumayag sa date na 'to para i-celebrate ang araw na 'to, but to make things right and clear."
"Wala namang mali, wala namang 'di malinaw—"
"Marc!" she immediately cut me off. "I know, I know na naguguluhan kana sa inaakto ko towards you and yes, I am doing this on purpose, nagiging cold ako para magsawa ka sa'kin, binago ko ang kilos ko para ikaw na mismo ang sumuko sa relasyon na 'to, pero kahit ano yatang gawin ko hindi mo ako iiwan eh, biruin mo nakayanan mo pang mag-stay sa'kin ng 3 weeks na ganito ako? Marc tama na," she sobs.
"B-bakit? Bakit ka ganiyan?" I asked, clueless.
"Parang pinagsisisihan ko na sinagot kita kahit na hindi pa ako sure sa nararamdaman ko sa'yo," she bowed down her head.
"Are you saying na simula pa lang hindi mo na ako mahal?" Even if its so hard for me to ask her, I managed to talk and ask her.
"Sorry Marc, n-nadala ako ng sitwasyon, hindi pa pala ako handang makipagrelasyon," she sobs again. "I was so happy that time, naging top 1 ako sa klase and remember Maria and Mike? Nang malaman kong naging sila na that day, parang naging dahilan din 'yon para sagutin na rin agad kita. Akala ko kasi kaya kong panindigan eh, s-sorry."
"Yong promise mo sa'kin na ako na magiging last mo? Ibigsabihin ba no'n, napangako mo lang 'yon dahil masaya ka?" I suddenly asked.
She nodded and I know my life is now fucked up.
It was true, when you're happy, you wont see anything that is negative. You'll just focused on the prons not noticing the cons, that's why when you're happy nakakagawa ka ng pangako and all you know is when you promised, magagawa mong mapasaya 'yong pinangakuan mo. Kapag masaya ka kasi gusto mo maging masaya na rin 'yong nakapaligid sa'yo not asking yourself, "Pinangako ko ba 'yon dahil iyon talaga ang gagawin ko? O napangako ko lang dahil may nangyaring maganda sa araw ko?"
Fvck!
I stand up and wiped my tears thats about to fall.
"Next time, never make an impulsive move or decision just to be fit on a certain situation. And never promised when you're happy. Be sensitive and considerate for the feelings of others," I said and left.
