HE'S INLOVE
"Do you believe that wearing sexy outfits and putting make-ups are only good for those girls who have the looks and loved by many peoples?" The host asked me.
I looked at the crowd and confidently answered, "Sexy outfits and make-ups are not only for those famous people nor for people who have the looks and perfect body shape. You don't have to be ashamed of what you want to wear or on what you want to put on your face as long as you are happy doing it. If that's your way of expressing yourself then let it be. Confidence is for everyone, so claim it and always walk with your shoulders high."
I smiled as that scenario happened last night popped out again in my head. 'Cause the fact that I won the title of being a Queen on our University still it giving me hope because I saw him smiled at me for the first time— Joshua, my ultimate crush. Did I catched his heart with my words?
Since that night, I have known as the 'Woman of Confidence' and as of that I shouldn't just sit and admire the guy I like from a far just because I am shy. I should stand for my title, so I've decided to confess.
The day of my confession to Joshua was really a heart breaking scene, because he rejected me. No one knows about it even my boy bestfriend— Luis.
The next day, something's happened unexpectedly. Luis confessed his feelings towards me and even asked if he can court me. I was shocked at the same time felt disappointed, because I thought he'll not going to crossed with the line; that we're just best friends.
At first, I refuses, but because of his stubbornness at the end he still courted me. He told me that even if there's just a 0.01% chance that I will also fall for him, still, it's have a chance.
Mabilis kumalat na nililigawan ako ni Luis sa School. Ginagawa ko naman ang lahat para tigilan niya na ako dahil hindi siya ang gusto ko pero talagang makulit siya. Until, I noticed Joshua, simula noong kumalat na nililigawan ako ni Luis lagi ko siyang nakikitang nakamasid sa'min.
And one thing, sa tuwing may mangyayaring masama sa'kin, laging lumalabas si Joshua para iligtas ako.
Until one day, while I'm heading home may bigla na lang humigit sa'kin at isinakay ako sa isang sasakyan. Nagising na lang ako sa isang abandonadong lugar.
"Gising ka na pala. Na-text ko na nga pala ang manliligaw mong si Luis, tingnan natin kung maaabutan ka pa niya," sambit ng lalaking nasa harapan ko ngayon, tatlo sila at sa pagkakaalam ko taga-school din sila at ang kalabang team nina Luis sa basketball.
Nakatali ako ngayon sa upuan at may nakatakip din sa bibig ko kaya't 'di ako makasigaw.
"Diba ikaw ang tinaguriang Queen ng School? Tikman ko nga kung masarap ka." Papalapit siya sa'kin at akmang hahalikan ako kaya't napapikit ako, pero ilang minuto na ang lumipas wala pa ring nadikit sa'kin kaya napamulat ako.
There I saw him— Joshua. Binubugbog na niya ngayon ang mga lalaking nagbabalak sa'kin ng masama.
Matapos 'yon ay pinakawalan niya ako mula sa pagkakatali at sabay kaming lumabas.
"Why are you doing this?" I asked that made him stop. He just gave me a plain look.
"I mean, you are always there if I need help. You are always saving me. A-are you already inlove?"
"I've read their message on Luis' phone and deleted it right after para hindi niya na mabasa pa."
"Anong kinalaman no—" He didn't let me finish my sentence.
"I didn't save you, I saved Luis from the trouble of saving you."
"W-what do you mean?"
"I shouldn't get mad at you Gwyneth, because you're the reason why I decided to be what I want to be. You boost my confidence and now I am not afraid anymore." And there, he left me with my mind in chaos. Hindi pa rin niya sinasagot ang tanong ko.
Is he already inlove?
The next morning habang papasok, napatigil ako sa hallway dahil sa tumpukan ng mga tao. Sumilip ako at doon nasagot ang mga katanungan ko at hindi maitatanggi na nadurog din nito ang puso ko.
I am now staring at Joshua, nakasuot siya nang pambabaeng damit at nakamake-up habang kaharapan niya si Luis.
Now, he don't need to answer my question, because I already knew it.
Yes, he's already inlove...
but not with me.
