Melt My Iced Heart // Drarry

2. It won't stop

This is still part of the prologue the actual story begins in the 3th chapter this is just to warm y'all up;)

After that incident last year Cedric brought me to the hospital wing. Madam Pomfrey took care of me until I was recovered but when I came back in my dormitory that night I felt all my emotions coming at me at once. I cried my heart out that night, I've been abused since I was 5 years old and finally I thought I got rid of that for at least 10 months a year but now I've got myself a personal bully.

It seemed like during first year Draco followed me everywhere I went and everytime he had the chance he and his Slytherin henchmen would beat me up. But not as much as the first time because otherwise madam Pomfrey and the professors would get suspicious. They wouldn't leave me alone but yeah I was glad to be back at Hogwarts for my second year because being with the Dursley's is way worse.

Last summer I slept in Dudley's second bedroom for only 2 weeks and then they thought I was behaving badly again because of Dudley and then they send me back to the cupboard under the stairs again. I thought when I came back to the Dursley's for the summer that they would change but they never did. They still let me do all the chores and I wasn't allowed to eat much, only the leftovers and when they went to the zoo or the theme park I had to stay at home and they would lock me up in the cupboard all day or they would let me do the chores.

I hate being with the Dursley's but they are my only family and otherwise I have nowhere else to go so I have to stay or sleep on the street. I'm now 13 years old and on the train back to Hogwarts sitting in a compartment with Ron and Hermione.

''Are you excited for your second year Harry?'' Hermione asked.

''Yeah of course'' I mumbled but Hermione didn't believe a single word I just said. ''Harry what's going on?'' I looked outside trying not to burst out in tears. ''Nothing I'm fine'' I reassured. ''You sure because you seem off'' I nod and she smiled and I gave her a fake smile back. I don't want my friends to be worried about me, I want them to enjoy their time at Hogwarts and not be bothered by pitying me.

On that moment the compartment door opened revealing a smirking Draco Malfoy ''I'm really looking forward to second year on Hogwarts but you already know that don't you Potter?'' Draco gave Harry an evil stare and Harry started shaking and looking outside again trying to avoid Draco's gaze.

Hermione saw what happened and scowled at Draco, she reached out for her wand and closed the door and the curtain in front of the door with a spell. ''Good riddance'' she giggles and on the other side of the glass door Hermione could hear what Draco said ''Filthy little Mudblood!'' he screamed while walking away and sitting in the other compartment with his Slytherin henchmen again.

After another hour in the Hogwarts Express the train arrived in Hogsmeade and everyone grabbed their baggage and left the train. Hermione and Ron noticed I was awfully quiet and I mean I love Hogwarts and I love my friends but I have to find a way to get rid of the bullying of Draco Malfoy. I want this year to be great, a year I can enjoy without Malfoy harassing me.

A few days after my arrival and still Malfoy has left me alone. But that won't be for long I assume. First period was Defense Against The Dark Arts and that was with the Slytherins. I noticed we have a lot of subjects with the Slytherins, this way it's gonna be hard for me to avoid Malfoy. After the demonstration we had to work for ourselves in silence and when I was focusing on my work I felt something fly against my head. It was a piece of crumpled paper and it came from the direction of Malfoy and I saw him smirking just like always.

I unfold it and read the words 'I'm gonna ruin you' I sigh and wrote something on the back of the paper and threw it back at the blond Slytherin. I saw Malfoy unfolding the piece of paper and looking confused. I wrote 'You're too late' and I don't think he understands. He wrote something back and threw the piece back at me. I unfold it again and this time it said 'And why's that?' I thought of something and maybe I shouldn't write back so I left the paper untouched but then I felt another piece of paper against my head saying 'Answer me coward' and that's when I knew I was gonna regret this but not answering Malfoy is dangerous.

So I wrote my little note and threw the piece back at Malfoy and when he read the words he frowned looking back at me but I didn't look back at him. I couldn't face him right now knowing he would make fun of me. I wrote 'somebody already did'.

I knew Malfoy wouldn't stop torturing me after that note because he only made fun of me and bullied me even more now. I was never gonna get out of this hell, I know that for sure. During Potions I was paired up with him and I felt myself suffocating because being partnered up with my bully isn't quite a party. I know Malfoy had a talent for Potions but he kept pestering me and professor Snape didn't seem to notice, how strange.

''Give me the troll eyes you worthless piece of shit'' he said to me. I never felt so cheap in my life. Like I was unworthy of living and so I felt myself unworthy and that's how I turned to self harm. This year was gonna be my year, but unfortunately it turned to hell.

In year 3 I suffered more and more from depression and anxiety I couldn't stop cutting myself and crying myself to sleep. But not without a silence spell so nobody could hear me sobbing and choking away my tears. I wish I could drown in them so I was gone from this world and to a better place with my parents by my side. I wish Malfoy would stop bullying me and see me as a real person with feelings and emotions. I wish Malfoy would like me as much as I like him because my crush on him started in first year and is still there unfortunately.

I wish the Dursley's saw me as their family and not as their slave. I wish they cared for me and loved me but they don't. Nobody loves me and I just have to deal with it. I can end it all but then Malfoy is right, I would be a coward for leaving everything behind even if nobody actually cared for me.

But there's one thing I noticed from first year and now is that in the first year of Hogwarts, Malfoy would punch me in the face sometimes or kick me. In second year he would let his henchmen beat me up. And in 3th year he would only abuse me mentally not physically, maybe just maybe there is a little hope and a slight chance the bullying will be less or even over but I don't think so.