Lost Poems

It Never Lasts

I just need to get this of my mind
But there's no one to talk to
No one who understands
Or even cares
It just hurts
Cause I try my best
To be there
For everyone
And make sure that they don't feel the way I feel
About myself
But it just seems like no one really cares

I told myself moving to a new place would be better
That I'd finally fit in and feel like I belong
But its just the same thing
Over and over again
I want to happy
I want to feel loved
But I guess the more I chase happiness
The further away it gets from me

Now I'm trying again
To move to a new place
But I'm scared that it would be the exact same thing
Cause it always just repeats itself
People taking advantage of me
Treating me wrongly
Cause I'm "nice"
Well I don't want to be nice anymore
But then I don't want to be mean
I cant be mean
It hurts
I wish I were different
I don't want to be me
I'm getting sick of it
I don't want to be me
I just want it all to end
I don't want to be me
When will this end?
I don't want to be me
It hurts....so bad
It's like once I finally start to feel happy
Something tells me
This isn't going to last
And it never lasts....

Tue, Nov 12, 2019. 7:05 pm