Lost Poems

The Worst Kind of Pain (Part 2)

She was critical and harsh
And attacked every part
Every part of me bothered her
And I stop trying to comfort her
-With the way I behave
I've accepted I can never please her
And I don't want to please her
Most importantly
I don't want to be her
It's hard to say
Cause she's done some good
But the pain that was caused
Clearly left a bruise
Why should I seek approval
From the one who's hurt me the most?

See when the person who's meant to take care of you
Causes you pain
Who do you think you'll trust
to make you feel safe again ....
Nobody
But you taught me to be wise
And You taught me how to hide
You taught me not to trust
Never trust
Cause even the sweetest ones
Could honestly leave you hurt.

The worst kind of pain is the one that won't heal
It feels like a weight
A weight on my chest
Pushing me down
Till I can't feel the rest
I don't know where it's from
And that's what has me torn
These random spikes in beats
-of my heart-
Has me sitting in defeat
I try to let it all go
All because I know
I know you have a plan
And I know you understand
It won't always feel this way
Because I know one day
I will get over this
I will be stronger
I will have the confidence
That I've been seeking to have
Been seeking one to motivate
Been seeking one to say
"You've got this hey"
So please just stay
Stay where you are
Because it's where you belong

Don't let them Make you feel small
Always stand tall

March 3 2021. 2:00 am