Chasing In The Dark

27

"Your what?"

He mess his hair because of the frustration he felt. I can't beleive that he said that, what he said earlier makes me dumb and stunned. How can he said that? Is he saying that he is jealous just to get me marry him?

"I said i am jealous. Damn! How can a little kid like you make me feel like this?"

"I am not a kid anymore you old man."

Dahil sa galit ay umalis ako sa harapan niya at dali daling tumakbo palayo sakanya, palayo sa lugar na iyon. The view was so good, it can make you calm pero dahil sakanya taliwas ang naramdaman ko.

Nang makarating sa dining ay agad kong nakita ang kasiyahan na nagaganap. They were all done eating but still they didn't finish their jokes and funny talks. Nakuha ko ang atensyon nang lahat nang umupo ako sa upuan ko kanina, kita ko naman sa gilid nang mata ko ang pagdating ni Mone.

"You two done talking?"

"Yes, Mama Niana. We're done."

Ako na mismo ang sumagot kaya natigil sa ere ang baba ni Mone na nakabukas. He has nothing to say about the things we talk at their mansyon's rooftop. Wala namang saysay ang pinagusapan namin, uminit din ang ulo ko sa pagtawag niya sa aking bata.

Sa gitna nang tawanan at kasiyahan nila ay tahimik ako, still confuse about Kendal and his relationship. What is the score between them? Did they married and got divorce after? Or did they married or got annul? Im confuse and if i don't have the guts to asked Kendal i will be hell crazy. Hindi ako makakatulog hanggat may tanong sa isipan ko na hindi na sasagot.

When everyone is done eating ay tumulong ako sa pagligpit nang mga pinggan at pinagkainan but Mama Niana stopped me from doing that. Kahit na wala akong planong makinig sakanya ay sahuli siya parin ang nanalo. She won't stop, stopping me if i won't listen.

"You need to loosen up from stress my dear."

"Actually, Mama Niana im not that stress."

Nahihiya kong saad habang hila hila niya ako papunta sa itaas at may pinasukan kaming isang silid na malaki kung saan may malaking tv sa harap na parang cinema. Everyone was already looking at it, watching some marathon and my son is on Mone's lap sitting while they are hugging each other.

Napakasakit mang sabihin pero mula kanina ay palagi nang nakadikit ang anak ko sa Ama niya. I understand my son, he missed his Dad, he never felt the embrace of a Father when his born. Noon palang ay pinagkait ko na iyon sakanya kaya ngayong nandito na, ay bakit ko pa din ipagkakait sakanya? 

The least i can do is to make my son feel the embrace, love, and care of a father na ngayon lang niya mararamdaman, and i have to be happy for that. For my son. As a good mother i have to sacrifice some things, at yun ang anak ko. Ipapahiram ko siya sa ama niya at kukunin lang kapag gusto na niya. Atleast, i can do that keysa sa ibigay siya sa ama niya.

After watching the marathon i felt tired, Sameir is already asleep, he felt asleep on Mone's arms. Agad ko silang nilapitan habang ang iba ay naghahanda na sa pag alis namin. Mama Niana even convince us to stay for the night but we refused, i refused. Nakakahiya, dito na kami nakikain dito pa kami matutulog.

"Where are you bringing our son?"

I looked at his eyes, straightly. He just use the word 'us' instead of using 'my' or 'mine'. I sighed still trying to get Sameir on his arms.