Chasing In The Dark

Prologue

"Lumilipad nanaman yang isip mo."

Nanay Celia commented as she waved her hand infront of me. Duon lang din ako nabalik sa huwisyo. Ang lalim pala nang iniisio ko, kanina pa.

I smiled at Nanay Celia.

"Im fine Nanay."

It was already four years going five, when the darkness of my life stop. I was eighteen turning nineteen at that time when the dissaster happen on me, on my family. I was kicked out by the mansyon, that's what Nanay Celia believe and her daughter believe cause for me, i was never been kicked out. Cause it was called protecting. They want me out because of the reason that i have to kept, and to be kept forever a secret.

My family just want to protect me from the harm that people may do to me, but still even though im not in there side they are still there for me.

"Your smiling like an idiot."

I giggled at Maria, daughter of Nanay Celia. Actually her name is not really Maria, it was actually Cecilia but then he doesnt like to be called Cecelia.

"Memories bring back memories bring back you."

I lift my son up so i can kiss his chubbg cheeks. He's already three, turning four next month.

"Your voice is nice baby. Mommy loves it."

He giggled while putting my face between his small chubby hands. He's handsome. He has a high IQ that's why at the age of four he already knows how to speak straightly nang hindi nauutal at nang walang sablay. Pero kahit ganun alam parin niya na bata siya kaya sinabi niya sa aking he will acts like a child but he will never do something bad like how children does. Dahil ayaw niya na siya nag dahilan nang sakit nang ulo ko. And im thakfull of that.

"Look Tita Cecilia, Mommy loves me singing but you don't. Unfair."

He's saying that while pointing Maria. She rolled her eyes when she heared Sameir called her Cecilia. I chuckled when she tickles my son as i put him down. Then their run started, i was busy looking at them while smiling and laughing. Good thing Maria and Nanay Cecilia is here with me. They never left me they are there through my up's and down.

"Sameir looks like his Father."

Hindi ako nakasagot sa komento ni Nanay Celia. I know. Yan agad ang napagtanto ko nang maipanganak ko si Sameir, kaya hindi na ako magtataka kung sa isang araw na magkrus ang landas nang mag-ama ay alam na agad nila na mag-ama sila. Wala naman kasi akong choice kundi ilayo ang anak ko sa kanyang ama para maprotektahan siya. Dahil narin sa takot ko na baka ipalaglag siya, even my family never knows that i am pregnant the time they want me gone.

And i still remember those days.

"Yame!"

Umagang umaga ay rinig ko agad ang tinig ni Nanay Celia. Ang babaenh palagi kong kasama at ang babaeng nagpalaki sa akin.

"Nanay im here."

Sigaw ko sabay talon at turo sa sarili. I know she sees me cause she already run towards from me.

"Diyos ko bata ka nenerbyosin ako kapag nawala ka."

Yinakap ko siya para naman mawala ang nerbyos niya. Baka mabigla nalang ako na nakahiga napala si Nanay Celia dito dahil sa nahimatay sa nerbyos.

"Don't worry Nanay im here."

I pat her back.

"Ikaw talaga. Pasok ka mamaya huh."