Chasing In The Dark

17

"Honey be good at Dada's office okay?"

"Yes mommy."

Hila hila ko siya papasok sa elevator nang kompanya. Everyone in here are not suprised to see him. Dalawang taon ko na siyang sinasama dito sa opisina, napalapit na din siya sa ibang nagtatrabaho dito. He even confessed to me that there is a one girl wearing a skirt that he likes.

Nagustuhan niya daw ito dahil sa may mahabang legs, and it was white and so clear. Yun ang sinabi niya na sinaway ko na ikinatawa lang ni Jeorge. Jeorge even said that my son will grow as a playboy man, but i won't let that happen. Hindi ko yun hahayaan na mangyari. Girls are made to be treasure and to be played.

"Dada!"

"Man, your handsome."

"Jeorge hindi kayo talo nang anak ko. Child abuse nayan pag pinatulan mo yan."

I received some glares from him, and rolling eyes from my son. I am putting his bags on my table besides Jeorge table. Im his secretary, yes, that's why some clients would asked why im here. Well, he always ansered them in a good way, like im not just his secretary but im special to him. Kaya minsan nalalagyan nang malisya. But it was fine for him para wala daw'ng mag isip sakanya na bakla siya.

He was girlfriendless since birth, kaya may magiisip talaga na bakla siya kung ganun. His known for being a good bachelor but then he had no lover, none. Sinong babae ang aayawan ang kagaya niya? Ang kagaya niyang gwapo, mayaman, matalino, inshort he was almost perfect for a girl. Sobra panga.

"Bitch. Im just complimenting your son."

"Yes mommy. Dada's compliment is true, im really handsome for child like my age."

Nasapo ko nalang ang noo ko sa sinasabi nang dalawa. Nakukuha na nang anak ko minsan ang ginagawa at sinasabi ni Jeorge at Maria. Maria even teach him somethings that i didn't even know. Kaya minsan mas gusto ko pang kasama niya si Nanay Celia dahil maka diyos ang tinuturo nito sa anak ko, pero dahil sa matanda na si Nanay Celia at madali nalang ito mapagod ay wala akong choice.

I started working but sometimes stoping cause of Jeorge and Sameir's laugh. Pansin ko ding hindi na nagtatrabaho si Jeorge dahil sa kulitan nila nang anak ko. He looks like a father figure by his moves and knowledge, but then he wants more to be a mother figure than a father figure. His reasons, cause his a girl not a boy.

"Where is your boyfriend Dada?"

Napailing ako sa tanong nang anak.

"His at the place where girls flock over him."

"But that's called cheating right? You shouldn't let him do the cheating."

My ears are now wide open, hearing there conversation made me stop from working, but my eyes are still on the monitor looking on something even though i cannot understand anything, anymore.

"I let him explore, i let him do everything he wants dahil alam kong sa akin parin siya uuwi. He'll do the cheating, ofcourse, cause he had needs that i cannot provide. He had needs that i cannot give. I even know that in the last he will leave me for a girl who can give him a child that i cannot do."

Nakatingin na ako sa dalawa na ngayon ay nagtatanguan. My son understand everything that he said, from the view i am seeing alam ko na. Alam kong nakuha lahat nang anak ko ang punto ni Jeorge duon. I smiled. Jeorge maybe gay, but still he had principles he even do understandings kahit mahirap nang intindihin. Still he will do the understanding that a person can have.