Chasing In The Dark

6

As i turned seventeen i scaped again. I scaped from the dark to visit my mother's grave. To say hello, and to lay my fingers on her name, so i can put flowers beside her lapida. Nanay Celia already know this. Palagi akong pumupunta dito, pag birthday ko. Five in the morning that's thr time i plan my scape. That's the time i run away from the house where Dad prison me in the dark.

"Hi Mom."

I greeted Mom as i sit infront of her grave. Linagay ko sa gilid nang lapida niya ang mga bulaklak na pinitas ko lang sa likod nang mansyon na sa kaalaman ko ay siya ang nagtanim nuon at hindi pinabayaan ni Dad.

"It's my birthday Mom, and it's your death anniversary also."

I chuckled even though my eyes are now tearing. Pinaalis ko iyon para hindi manlabo ang panangin ko, para masilayan ko nang maige ang pangalan ni Mommy na naka engrave sa lapida. Hinawakan ko ang pangalan niya duon.

"Dwendolyn Deir Del Moore."

I mummbled her name as i felt the cold wind. It felt like hugging me. I closed my eyes and felt it. Na parang si Mommy ang yumayakap sa akin ngayon. It's just like a dream, that Mom is hugging me. Kahit na hangin ayos lang maramdaman ko lang ang isang yakap mula sa isang ina na nagluwal sa akin.

"How's your visit?"

Nanay Celia asked as i went home. Buti nalang at walang nakakita sa akin nang dumaan ako sa likod nang mansyon.

"It was good. It felt good."

She nodded at my answer.

Nakahiga lang ako sa higaan ko nang biglang bumukas ang pintuan at lumitaa duon si Maria na may dalang cake habang kumakanta. Sumama naman sa pagkanta si Nanay Celia. Napangiti ako sa kanilang dalawa. I started to tear up because of the view seeing, and i thank god about this. Even though Dad prison me in the dark, god still gave me this two person in my life, and Klenda too. Maybe, someday god will gave me Dad and Kendal's love and attention that i needed, the care that i wanted to feel.

Yinakap ko ang dalawa pagkatapos nilang kumanta.

"I love you too."

I mummbled between our hugs.

"Make a wish."

Maria said.

"And blow the candles."

Tinapos ni Nanay Celia ang sinabi ni Maria.

Tumango naman ako sa kanilang dalawa at sinunod ang sinabi nila.

I wished that someday i will felt the love of family that everyone desires to felt and to have.

I blow all the candles after that. I smiled at the both of them as they clapped.

I have the simplest celebration in this mansyon. I felt love and care towards Nanay Celia and Maria. My birthday was full of smiles written on our faces and full of laughts coming out from our voices. It was almost perfect, almost. I thank god for giving me this day a happy day.

Nanay Celia kissed my forehead and Maria did the same too.

"Happy birthday again. Have a nice night."

I nodded at the two.

Nang makaalis sila ay tumingin agad ako sa bintana. Malapit nang lumubog ang araw. I smiled. Lumabas ako nang dahan dahan mula sa silid ko para pumunta sa likod, sa puno kung saan ko palaging tinitignan ang araw na tumataas at bumababa. Papunta na sana ako duon nang makita ko si Dad na papunta sa opisina niya. Hindi ko alam pero natagpuan ko nalang ang sarili ko na sumusunod sakanya papunta sa opisina niya hanggang sa loob. Hindi man lang niya namalayan na sumunod ako.