Chasing In The Dark

9

"Are you okay?"

There are days that Klenda would visit me. To check if im okay to know my daily activities and my happenings. Ganun din ang ginagawa ko sakanya. Bumibisita naman ako sakanya sa kwarto niya gabi gabi just to say goodnight pero kadalasan siyang wala duon dahil kasama niya ang fiancee gumagala or nag dadate. Sometimes, i wondered what is the feeling of being out? What is the feeling to see the world? It's finest and it's glory full of peace and happiness.

Is the world beautiful like how i imagined it? Or it's more than my imagine? I want to see it. By myself. With the man i dreamed.

"Yeah."

"Well. You look like your okay."

Then everything she talked about is about hers being in a date with het fiancee. How foolish i am to not listen? Right? It's just that while she's saying their date i was imagining mine. What would it be like? It would be romantic or not? Im not sure. It depends on the man that i would marry.

Naputol lang ang pagkukwento niya nang nag ring ang phone niya na agad naman niyang ikinatuwa.

"He's downstairs. I have to go sissy. Babush."

The last words she said before running out of my room.

Napaisip ako habang nakatingin sa pinto na kung saan lumabas si Klenda. She was happy while rushing to get downstairs to be embrace by her fiancee. I hope that she will be happy, that she will get the love and happiness that she want's in marriage. And ofcourse the family. A happy family that she wanted.

"Lines between dark and light."

Usal ko habang pinapadaanan nang kamay ko ang obra na kakatapos ko lang magawa. It was pastels na pinatunaw ko gamit ang kandila at mga paints na rin para mas gumanda. I mixed colors as a sign of combination.

It was a picture, a art, the dark mix of colors was in the left part and the light mix colors are in the right part and the between was a line. I was imagining it, kanina pa habang iniimagine ko ang mga dates na sinasabi at kinikwento ni Klenda sa akin kanina. It was good. Kaya ko naisip ito. The both has meanings, meanings that i felt and think.

"What is that art?"

Mone asked as he entered my room without knocking. Napaikot nalang ang mga mata ko sa ginawa niya. Umupo siya sa gilid ko habang kumakain nang tsitserya. Napailing ako. Malakas talagang kumain ang matandang ito. He acts like a child infront of me lalo na kapag ginagalit niya ako.

"It's a masterpiece called lines between dark and light."

Nakangiting usal ko habang pinapasadahan parin ang obra ko nang dahan dahan na parang pinapakaramdaman ko ito.

"Why? I mean what makes you paint it? What symbolizes it?"

He asked curiosily.

Agad namang napunta ang kamay ko sa kabilang parte nang gawa ko kung saan nanduon ang mga itim na may isang taong nakatayo mag isa habang nakakuba sa hirap dala dala ang oras, libro, etc. at habang may mga kamay sa ibabaw niya na tuloy parin ang tulak sakanya pababa.

"Dark. For me, it symbolizes nothing. You can't see nothing when there's no light but if your self is in the dark you can see everything that evryone can't see."

I explained the first. Agad namang nalipat sa gilid ang kamay ko kung saan nanduon ang light mix colors. Kung saan mag nakatayong isang tao, nakatayo nang tuwid na parang sinasamba siya lahat nang nga tao dahil sa magandang buhay na natamo niya, wala siyang bitbit na hirap dahil sa gilid niya ay ang simbolo nang pera at sa likod ay ang mga ari arian niya habang sa isa pa niyang gilid ay nanduon ang pamilya niyang ganuon rin.