Chasing In The Dark

20

"Am i that stupid?"

Natatawang sabi ni Jeorge nakaupo parin sa swivel  chhair niya.

Ako naman nasa gilid niya nakatayo, hindi parin  makagalaw sa nakikita ko. I was stunned, trembling for godsake. My heart was racing and beating, as my head was occupied about the man infron of us.

"Mr. Lubirecean, stupidity is the best cure of being yourself."

Hindi ako makatingin sa mga mata niya, he was talking to Jeorge, my boss. But i can feel his stares are on me. Hindi nawawala, na hinihiling ko mapunta sa iba. I hate his stares, alam kong kanina kopa tinitigil ang paghinga, kanina ko parin tinitignan ang galaw ko para walang mali.

I closed my eyes to calm my self, my system, my body. Kahit ngayon may tama parin siya sa akin, and yes i admited it to myself but not to anyone, or the people near me, closer to me. Ayaw kong mabansagang marupok, or worst his secret lover. Tsk. What a stupid accusation for myself.

"Woah, what a good wisdom Mr. Howardson."

I heard the two laugh.

I sighed.

Hinarap ko ang dalawa, kaso nakay Jeorge ang buo kong atensyon. I smiled at him sarcastically, with a look wanting to kill him with my bear hands. This asshole gay is pissing me off. His doing everything on purpose but still i can't make myself be angry at him.

My heart is easy pagdating sakanya, madaling natutunaw ang galit ko sakanya kapag siya na. I don't know, maybe his there when i needed a man to be on my side for Sameir. His already in my system, the whole of me was occupied by him and by my son. The two of them are my jewels and richest in this world full of cruel.

"Not to interrupt but i want to excuse myself Mr. Lubirecean."

He smiled at me, sarcastically too. He saw it, huh.

"Why, Miss Del Moore? Is there something wrong?"

"Nothing. It's just that i don't want to here the two if you talking. It's confidential Mr. Lubirecean."

I can't say i want to go to see my son, Mone is here. His watching us arguing with smiles. His intelligent, and i know right now he already smell something fishy and somethings going on between us.

"Okay, say babye to Mr. Howardson, Miss Del Moore."

He really will be in hell, after this. His putting me on to fire, thay will burn my confidents into ashes.

"Ofcourse i would Mr. Lubirecean, to show some respect."

Liar.

I would'n do that. Ipagawa na niya sa akin lahat, well, exept the kiss Mr. Howardson cheek or hug him. Im not that assuminh right? Well, maybe i am. Humarap ako sa lalaking kanina pa nanonood sa amin. Kanina pang nakatayo na parang prinsipe na naghahari sa kompanya na hindi naman sakanya.

I don't know anything about him. I didn't do research, i didn't even watch news about him. Even magazines. I never even let my son hold some gadgets and magazines that will make him see his father their. Well, my son is intellegent to understand that gadgets can make your eyes ill because of it's radiation.

"Good bye Mr. Howardon, thank you for coming. God bless."

I bowed a little.

Umalis na agad ako duon nang hindi man lang dinidinig ang pamamaalam niya. I doesn't need his goodbye, all i need is his arms open wide for my son, to have a father but sad to say i can't give him a complete family. Baka may pamilya na si Mone na pinanghahawakan.