" "HEADS OFF" "
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"Mew I like you!" Kahit nakakahiya, I shouted it inside the classroom para narinig iyon ni mew.
I know he heard me pero hindi lang niya ako pinansin.
"Mew, what do you like? Chocolate ice cream or strawberry ice cream? Pili ka, my treat." I smiled widely while asking it to him.
He just looked at me then--- umalis lang siya palayo sakin, not minding me asking him what flavor he likes.
"Mew, ano yung ideal type mo? Para naman pumasa na ako sa mga qualifications mo." I asked him while seriously staring at him.
Nakaupo lang siya mag-isa kaya nilapitan ko ito para tanungin.
He looked at me like he doesn't care about me at all.
He sighed. Tumayo siya at umalis lang sa harapan ko. Na hindi man lang sinagot yung tanong ko sakanya.
How rude!
But-- I don't care... I love him
I also just sighed while looking at him walking away from me.
Why the hell Mew can't see me?! Its too obvious that I fucking like him pero-- baliwala lang sakanya yung nararamdaman ko!
Since we are in high school, gusto ko na siya. Up until now na college na kami, I always expresses my feelings to him pero wala--- wala siyang pake!
Why the fuck I like him?
First of all, he's cold-- but actually he cares. Well not to me--- pero for how many years na iniistalk ko siya, he cares so much sa mga taong malapit sakanya.
Marami pang rason, di ko lang ma explain ng maayos.
All I know, I see him as a perfect man.
As I watch him obviously going to their classroom right now, napapa-isip ako na soon, I will make him mine!
I will make him like me--- no scratch that, I will make him fall in love with me too!
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"Mew!" I shouted as I see him walking here at the park kung nasaan rin ako ngayon.
"Mew!" I shouted again for him to hear me. Tumakbo ako papalapit sakanya at hinarang siya.
Confusedly he looked at me.
"Mew, ahm saan ka pupunta? Can I come with you too?!" I smiled sweetly at him. I silently prayed that he will let me come with him.
Pero-- hindi parin niya ako pinansin. Instead he step side ward para makaalis siya sa pagkakaharang ko.
"Mew! Bat ba ayaw mo akong pansinin?! Ano ba ayaw mo sakin? Tell me and I will change it for you so that you can love me too! Anong problema sakin?! Dahil ba lalaki ako?! Ha?! Mew, please talk to me! Let me know! And saan kaba kasi pupunta?! Kanina kapa lakad ng lakad eh!" Hinarangan ko na naman siya sa daraanan niya para mapahinto ito before I said those words to him.
He looks frustrated while looking at me.
"Damn it, Gulf!!" after how many times I approached him, finally he spoked as a response to me.
I want to be happy-- but hearing his words, he is frustrated.
"For once and for all, I wanna clear things. Ganyan ka ba talaga kamanhid Gulf?! I Don't Like You, can't you fucking see?!"
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Wow.
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Manhid.
Ako pa talaga yung matatawag na manhid ngayon?! Ano tawag sakanya?!
"So Gulf, please, stop pestering me! Wag kanang lumalapit lapit sakin. At first, pinalampas ko pa yun, pero now-- nakaka Bwesit ka na! I don't fucking like or love you. Period." I was stocked at my place as he said those words to me.
I wanna ask him 'why' pero-- parang nawala boses ko.
Paalis na sana siya nang mapansin kong huminto ito. "And by the way, nagtatanong ka kung saan ako pupunta diba?! I will go to pauline joy, my girlfriend. Yes that's right, I already got a girlfriend so please stop. Wag kanang magpapansin sakin."
I can feel my heart broke into pieces.
I can't believe this! I got rejected by the man who I love for how many years!
And what?! He already got a girlfriend?! Pauline joy?! With my fucking cousin?!
Finally, after hearing those hurtful words from Mew, nakagalaw na ako sa kinatatayuan ko. I can feel my tears flowing down from my eyes as I walk ayaw from the park
Days passed by, nakita ko ulit si Mew-- with his girlfriend pauline joy.
Magkasama silang dalawa.
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I fakely smiled at them both as their eyes met mine.
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I walked slowly towards them.
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I softly touched Mew's cheeks while still smiling fakely. I suddenly looked at pauline while still softly touching Mew's cheeks.
Wala akong makitang pagtutol sa mga mata nito.
I talked to them--- I talked to them a lot and I was confused when they don't talk back to me.
Nakatitig lang sila sakin.
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"Opz my bad." That's when I realized---
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They are already dead!
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Both of them are dead!
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I suddenly laughed like crazy while looking at them.
Naalala ko, I was the one who killed these two-- then cut their Heads off and display it here inside my room.
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Their bodies?! Under my bed, inside the sacks.
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I stared at their heads again. Even if they are dead, their eyes are still not closed.
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I smirked.
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"Tutal hindi ka rin lang naman magiging akin Mew, hindi rin ako papayag na makuha ka ng iba especially my cousin Pauline." I spoke and acted like both of them still hear me.
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"Hindi rin ako papayag na kayong dalawa-- Magiging masaya while me-- living my life in pain and be miserable while watching at you both living happily."
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I don't regret killing these two and I feel satisfied.
I smirked again while looking at their heads.
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Sorry but I won't let them have their happy ending.
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