" Mood Swing "
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I have this attitude na sobrang hirap e handle. Sobra talaga ang mood swing ko like happy ako tapos biglang galit na naman.
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I know that because of my attitude, no one probably wants to stay with me. No want wants to and it is all because of me.
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They left because of this attitude that they can't accept.
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"Gulf, ano na namang nangyayari sayo?" rinig kong tanong ni Mew boyfriend ko.
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"Wala! Bakit ang tagal mo bumalik ha?!" I said in a half shouting voice as I rolled my eyes heavenward.
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"Gulf, I texted you diba? Sabi ko naman na medyo mahaba ang pila. Hindi mo ba nabasa?" he asked.
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Hindi ako sumagot. Ewan ko ba nabasa ko na naman pero nag mamaldita na naman ako. Halos magdikit na nga ang kilay ko. Galit ako na para bang anytime sasabog ako.
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"Awhile ago, you're so happy tapos pagbalik ko galit ka na naman sakin. May nagawa ba ako? I texted you. Tinawagan kita ayaw mo sagutin." Dagdag pa ni Mew
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"Wala nga! Pwede bang umuwi ka na?! Gusto kong magpahinga!" singhal ko sa kanya.
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He breathed deeply.
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"I'm getting tired of this." Mew whispered.
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I abruptly looked at him. Gumapang ang kaba sa dibdib ko.
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"An--Ano?" I asked, trembling, in fears.
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"Nakakapagod ka. Nakakapagod na yang ugali mong hindi ko maintindihan. Nakakapagod." mahinang sagot niya sabay hilot sa sintido niya.
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Tumulo ang mga luha ko kasi alam ko na kung saan ito tutungo, iiwan na niya ako.
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"So, gonna break up with me? Iiwan mo na ako? Ganun ba yun Mew?" tanong ko.
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He looked at me then---he smiled sweetly.
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"Silly. Of course not. I chose you that's why I chose to love everything about you, every inch of you, every version of you. Loving means diving into your partner's mess. Remember this, okay? I love you, so I love your dog."
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Kumunot ang noo ko sa huling sinabi niya. "What? Anong love my dog?" nalilitong tanong ko.
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"It means if you love someone, you must be willing to accept everything about them," he uttered while smiling. "You have that kind of attitude? So be it. Mapapagod lang ako pero wala akong sinabing iiwan kita."
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He hugged me tightly.
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"Mas pipiliin ko pang intindihin ka. You see? I can choose to leave you but I am here and I am staying."
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I was wrong awhile ago for stating that people will probably leave because of my attitude because there's someone whose willing to stay.
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"Hug me back, baby." I heard him whispered and so I did.
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