I KILLED THE MAN I LOVE
"I stabbed her at her heart. It feels like I also felt the pain because of what I did. That's when I started to cut her body. I chopped them into pieces. I don't mind myself being messy and dirty because of what I'm doing. I started getting her two eyes and hold them both. I'm making eye to eye contact with them. I don't show any mercy. I will make her pay. I will make her suffer and all of this? Still not enough. And I still want more----"
"Fuck, tigilan mo na kase yan gulf, ang creepy shit!. Bakit ba kase gustong gusto mo ng ganyan writer? Hindi kaba natatakot? Puro Brutal yung mga stories nya, shit lang." Natigilan ako sa aking pagbabasa ng biglang dumating c Mild.
I glared at him. He just interrupted me--- reading the story from my favorite writer!
"Fuck mild, kita ng nagbabasa ako? Dinidisturbo mo ako!." I rolled my eyes at him. He just laughed at me.
"Ewan ko sayo bahala ka dyan, basta ha--- easy kalang dyan. Masyado kanang na aattach sa writer na yan. Ilang months na nga ulit simula nung naging crush mo yan? Ah 11 months tapos hanggang ngayon dika parin pinapansin." He said, obviously teasing me.
I glared at him again. "FUCK YOU." Is all the words I can say.
He laughed at me again saka umalis sa harapan ko. Lumapit lang sya sakin para disturbohin at inisin ako, nakakaimbyerna lang ha.
I continued reading the story.
And again, the story was so nice! So worth to read. Tragic endings, as ever and I love it.
I love his works.
I love how he kill brutally those characters in his story.
I love his writing style.
I love everything about him and Mild was right. Matagal na akong reader and supporter niya but sad to say never talaga syang nag reply sa mga comments and messages ko
And inalikabok na rin yung friend request ko sakanya.
After reading the story, I decided na gumala gala nalang muna, and I just found myself na napunta sa isang convenience store.
Papasok nasa ako when suddenly I saw Mew!
I immediately go near him. "Hi Mew! It's nice to meet you here! We met again!" I chuckled as I said those words.
He was surprised because of my presence. He awkwardly smiled at me.
"Hi." Is all the words he said at umalis na sya palayo sakin.
Sinundan ko na lang sya ng tingin.
He's Mew, my ex. We broke up and until now, the reason is not that clear for me. He just said that he was fallen out of love and then boom--- he just broke up with me, blocked me with all his social medias account, pinutol na nya ang ugnayan namin even our communications and I can't accept that fact.
I can't believe him--- and I admit, I still love him.
Hindi ako nakaramdam ng sakit, kahit ginawa nya lahat ng yun sakin
I don't know but I still want him. I still want him back to me.
Kahit na sakit lang ang dinudulot nito sakin, sa kanyang pangiiwan sakin without proper reason, I will still accept him.
Just one sorry from him, I'm willing to take again the risk.
That's how much I love him.
Weeks passed by, I'm sitting alone here at the bench under the big tree when I saw---
